the shot above would have looked so so so much better with a panasonic 7 megapixel.... -looks suggestively at ruoyan-
wow. i had fun with ali. okay, i'm not saying that i had presumed it was going to be awkward or anything. at least i didn't want to think that way. but yea. i forgot how fun she can be. agaaaain, please do not take this the wrong way. see, it has been so long since the both of us hung out. as in, just the both of us.

it was fun, but most importantly, it was meaningful. for the both of us. let us put the past behind us and start a new chapter:) ....i love her pierced brow, she loves my hair. we're getting along!

had a class meeting with mentor andy ong(loveloves!) after last lesson.. GUESS WHAT. 0622 is going on a class outing during the break to......the NIGHT SAFARI. like how cool is that. totally unpredictable, bet you didn't see that one coming! HA HA. apparently, i was the only one excited about it:) COME ON GUYS.

andy will be gone for reservist tomorrow :( i will miss him. ..i think? HAHA. that's impossible, we hardly see him in the first place. sheesh. andy in army uniform will be like damn hot la. i wasn't really participating in the discussion; andy had left his first few buttons unbuttoned and that kind of disturbed me:) HAHA.

because of that, i was late to meet ali. alar, just a few minutes:D we met at the stop outside peirce secondary; she wanted to get her o cert. she looked different yet the same.. well, the ugly red streak of hair has gone back to black. no more thick eyeliner on. no more coloured contact lenses.. she's back, the atiqa ali i've known and loved.

after collecting the cert, we had lunch at prata house. didn't eat much. she used to order a lot.. but yea. we shared about our respective courses, about boys, about the sexual contents behind jason mraz' songs(thanks ernest, wouldn't have known about it if not for your insightful knowlegde of...the topic..HAHA).

fortunately/unfortunately she didn't mention anything about ..her 'early birthday present'. i was expecting her to bring it up. was bracing myself... but we just ended up reminiscing alot and laughing about the good old days :)

it's okay. i know the hurt is still raw. she can tell me whenever she's ready.

took 855 with her; she said she missed the long bus journeys. ..i didn't know she has the quirky love for long bus journeys like i do:)

i am so very proud of myself today:D GEEEE.
Someone special blogged @ 10:03 PM l

have you ever thought what's going to happen on your wedding night? as in, what you're going to do? well. i have. ..i was practically FORCED to think, mind you! so, being the 'whore' that ernest has perceived me to be, i have.... suggested to call in other couples and conduct mass orgy. you think that's bad, wait til you hear what he has in mind. but HOW WAS YOUR DAY?? :)

well. today was our ICA scenario presentation. unfortunately, nicole was absent :( she has dengue. we pray for paul marie nicole's(yup, it's the same person) speedy recovery. 0622 misses your occasionally cheeky remarks at miss ong during clinical :)

anyway how was our performance? we did better during rehearsals. dare i say we screwed it? yea we did screwed it. i'd like to push all the blame to lidan. i'm sorry.. ..okay, you don't apologise after blaming someone, do you? but really, i am sorry that i have to say this but i need to get it off my system. lidan, we kind of hate you for what you did..or in this case, what you didn't do.

it's okay, i don't think she understands that? i was in the bus on the way to school and she kept calling me and asking where i was. "on my way," i kept saying, and the lady next to me could sense the disturbance in my voice.

she called constantly, have i said that? i actually said to her, "are you doing this on purpose, or are you just...(silent)ARGH.. stop calling me, please!" in which she replied: "whatta you sayying?" ..oh god why me. but frankly..i feel bad that i feel that way towards her. i really do. but i can't fecking help it.

there was one point in the skit, where lidan was supposed to be doing some actions or sorts when sarah narrated. but she didn't. it was supposed to be her cue but she was just standing there with that whee-today-is-a-sunny-day-lalala expression. what!? don't ask me!

then what followed was the most awkward silence, as we all looked at lidan expectantly. we could feel the audiences' eyes darting from sarah, to her, and back to sarah. she mumbled something in chinese to lidan, but either lidan was seriously seriously dumb, so she was doing a very good job at pretending everything was fine and it was supposed to be that way.

that was unnecessary, man. and what's the deal with making up your own goddamn lines? i mean, if one starts to make up her own line, it just messes everybody else's lines up! you were given scripts; i came up with the damn scripts for crying out loud. MY SCRIPT. haha.

okay okay. we were all a nervous wreck. fine. not bragging but i wasn't nervous. i am very good at blocking the negative energy(on bad days, it's called denial). all that was going through my head: THIS IS GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN. and okay, it was fun. til the point where lidan screwed it up for us.

when she did the introduction, even though that was sarah's job, we were like WHAT THE FECK? i mean, firstly NOBODY understands her with her bloody accent. and does she care? NO. she's like in her own little china world. and secondly, she mixed up my role as the nurse manager to sarah's as the therapist. i gave sarah the 'what the feck is the asshole think she's doing?' but she only gave me a helpless shrug. at that point i knew she had given up..

it was obvious the disappointment etched on her pretty face. we were all disappointed. but for some reason, lidan seemed satisfied..? she's like this completely clueless ..little...something..totally unaffected, totally ignorant.. and that's what drives us half insane. like, helloooo didn't you know what just happened??? didnt you know you screwed it? THANKS.

i think even if there were an earthquake, or if a lunatic murderer was on the loose and chasing her with a bloody axe, she would be like, lalala skipping along with that electronic dictionary in her hand. GOURDDD!!! i think that lunatic murderer would be me.

i take my hats off to sarah tan. she has a patience of a muthafecka saint.. sigh. OKAY ENOUGH with the bitching lela. the show must go on!!

guess what..i took the leap of faith and made a date with ali. i told you i miss her. it's true:D it's weird :O it's going to be fun:) lots of catching up. and opening up. ...yea...it's just going to be the two of us, so plenty of chance to..yeaaa... well, three's a crowd.

but not when i'm with kamaria and zaffy. and i don't know why. maybe because i don't know them that very well yet? i mean it's only 7 weeks. so they've yet to know the lela ismail that close friends like nurool, has known.. and vise versa. hhaaha yea.

mac is just next to me and yet i'm missing him. it's strange, the human feelings. the lela feelings.

"how would you like me to address you?"
"by my name la."
"okay, by-my-name. HA-HA. JUST KIDDING!"
Someone special blogged @ 8:03 PM l

dare you take the leap of faith?
i had a hard time trying to get up this morning. which was funny, because i slept at 10 the day before. slept in the 7minutes bus journey. HAHA. that was how groggy i was. slept during ivan's psychology class. sorry, i meant TRIED to sleep. haha. yea. tried. it wasn't easy! ivan's the sort of person who..once he opens his mouth, you can't help but give him all your goddamn attention. that's why he's always the school's emcee for every muthafecka event.

by the way he looked different this morning. then we knew why. "did any of you head down to the singapore sale?" he asked. 0.2 seconds later, he ploughed on, "i did. i bought the acuvue contact lenses? yea. so that explains why i'm not wearing my specs. i used to wear lenses when i first came to nyp. then i was broke..thank god for the sale; it's cheaper now." cheapo ivan:)

"who has a dog at home?" ivan asked. only 2 hands shot up. "what about the rest? what do you have huh? birds?" laughter erupted. because the way he said it.. as though keeping a bird is lame. ..well it is actually. nobody should keep birds as domestic pets. birds should be in the wild, flying freely in the sky, making love in the clouds. eh how do birds make love huh anyway?

back to ivan: someone at the back row screamed, "i got a tigress!" i was thinking PFFT...I have a monster! beat that! then next second ivan started snickering and said with a conspiratorial smirk, "yea i know how you feel..i lived with my ex-girlfriend once..." ..you know, in a very odd and twisted way, i am glad the week starts with him.

so enough with the ivan crap:) today bio lab was interesting. we got to see a real human muscle. ..real human FACIAL muscles. so what, you say? wait, you're not getting it. when i say real human, i meant REAL. so what if it was a corpse. it's still human. well, was. this chap has agreed to let us use his corpse for studies. how noble is that.. YUP. I KNOOOW!!! COOOL RIGHT.

SO we were escorted to this really cold.. morgue-ish room, and the lecturer led us to the center.. and there. the corpse. covered with a white blanket. straight out of csi, man!!! the corpse wasn't a full body though. just the chest above. and it was ..sliced(?) so we could see the muscles beneath the skin. sarah was like, "ohmygod there's hairs." and hid behind khairul.

the smell wasn't pretty.... but it was one hell of an experience. because we weren't expecting a real one. i mean, like what, some many many years ago, this very guy used to walk this earth!! and now there he was, on the cold silver surgical table!!! very very dead, and ..skinned, leaving just the muscles! for people like us to scrutinize at and then gag!! ..believe it...

we learnt oral feeding for clinical today. we bought porridge, ..fruits, cereals and more cereals. it was like recess. went around feeding one another, eating off the other's porridge and whatnot. sarah fell asleep while i was taking her blood pressure. i fell asleep while she fell asleep while i was suppose to take her blood pressure, more like. we were like high on cuffs tightening our upper arm:D..go figure.

met ruoyan after school. flew to junction8..HAHA. yea. well. i didn't get what i wanted:( but now i've got a rough idea how to get it. it's just so troublesome la that's why. SO ANYWAY. ryan accompanied me have my lunch at kfc. there, we made a lot of accuaintances(?). to name but two: dexter and gerrard. ..and another two who would rather be known as: eagle and ..new york.

it was the funnest day i ever had? though it was only..less than 2 hours? missed my ong ruoyan!

but i guess, every good thing that happens, something not so pleasurable will happen right after. why ar?

YOUU!! :(:( PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME!! feeling goddamn devastated la. even though i know it's not official or anything.... LEAP of faith? more like BUNGEE JUMPING. ............i'll hate him if he leaves.

who's at the night shift(on the radio)? shan wee is it? i HATE that guy. i was happier with otelli edwards." -ivan loh.
Someone special blogged @ 8:28 PM l

Someone special blogged @ 5:09 PM l

no kidding :)
shaheera lied. she said the pain would go away. it's been 4 hours and the arm feels worst than before. plus i'm feeling a little woozy. i can't believe this..it's not suppose to hurt... .. haha. so drama, hor? i just had my first dose of hepatitis b jab. read that: first dose. i need 2 or 3 more to make it complete. don't ask me what 'it' is. it's a saturday. god knows i've enough medical terminology to last me~

sometimes you're at your most..sane(?), when you're on the verge of fatal boredom. serious! another of life's ironies. ..my life theories, more like. you see,

it was 11am that friday. was having sociology lecture with the ever-boring lecturer. he was having this quiz and i could see people getting all paranoid for no reason. referring to past notes for answers. it's just multiple choice questions for crying out loud. just guess a, b, c or d and leave the rest to luck.

SO IT WAS SOCIOLOGY(geez, lela, you and your sidetracking), and i was in a middle of writing the script for our ICA(major procrastination here, because we were given more than a month to prepare), when i suddenly said out loud to zaffy, "bet you didn't know i'm going to be a writer when i grow up." she looked at me, a mixed expression of awe and amusement. ..was there disbelief i see in her eyes!? well i don't blame her. she had noticed i was stuck on the same line for the past 20 minutes. HEY budding writers are not superman! believe it!

"but you're going to be a nurse, hello?" zaffy pretended to knock on my head. "anybody home?" i feigned a hurt look and sarcastically thanked her for her undying support. she smiled her little zaffy-smile she always reserved for moments where i usually crack lame-ass jokes.

then later that day, during another lecture..couldn't remember what module it was. HAHA. all i knew was it was late. the last lesson. 4pm. everyone was dying. especially me. zaffy too, because she complimented my sketch of colonel the kfc guy which i had on my lecture notes(was at kfc the other day while waiting for nana. got bored and started sketching).

"drawing and writing, my passion." then we both found ourselves engrossed in a meaningly and therapeutic conversation, talking about our little secrets and discussing crazy ideas and aspirations.. something we don't usually talk about because sometimes we're too selfish to take each other seriously. i'm talking in general, not just zaffy and me.

so there. sometimes all you need is a little boredom. ..thank your lecturer:D

so that's friday. thursday..i only went for bioscienc tutorial at 9am, and skipped the rest of the day. i am ready to clinch the title of the ponteng queen. tap, and go. literally. go. as in. go home. oh okay nobody gets it.

random shit #1: i am addicted to the nestle brownies:)

random shit #2: the left arm is killing me:)

random shit #3: singapore sale!!! RUOYAN. let's paint the town red, baby!

random shit #4: i realised i miss atiqah ali, and the crazy things that we did..like stealing a bus' number. it's her seventeenth birthday on monday and ..yea. i'd like to do something for her. frankly, initially i wasn't really into it. when i thought about her, i thought about the things she had done i wasn't so proud of. how hurt i had been. but it's not fair is it? we talked this morning and i realised i miss this crazy bitch.

some things are just hard to ignore, let alone forget.

so much for an ULTIMATE update. next time i'll try not to miss an entry.

Someone special blogged @ 3:19 PM l

presentations. ohmygourd. a sense of accomplishment brims inside: it went almost too perfect, for a group who has been procrastinating since day 1. not bad! kudos to us! :) looking forward to working with you guys again. NOT.

even though presentation went smoothly well, it wasn't really a pleasant preparation:D i'm speaking communication wise..... it was us(nicole and me) against them china girls. okay just lidan, really. wenrui was..where was wenrui again?!

forgive me, but my patience is running on empty. i thought i was the only one getting annoyed with her, but turned out sarah and nicole have some deadly issues too. why am i annoyed with lidan? DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED. and as much as i want to, i am going to have to stop myself. i wouldnt like it if someone bitches about me.....eh, then again, BRING IT ON. i'd like to read some nasty stuff about me on the net. it'd be so fun to read. BUT ANYWAY. so yea. LIDAN PISSES ME OFF SO BAD.

but it's nice to have nicole on my side. so we were bitching in malay about them. nicole's malay is much better than mine la, and chances are my sentences came out more english, if i'm lucky. it was so embarrassing for me. i mean, nicole is not even malay! BUT IT WAS FUN; the china girls were clueless. haha.

i'd like to stress: i'm not normally a racist bitch. but really, the communication breakdown is beginning to take its toll on me. i don't get what she's saying most of the time and she takes so long to get to her point. and she takes an even longer time to comprehend what i have to say. she is so persistent to the point of being pushy and bossy and someone ought to perform the oral toilet on her.

okay so that felt good:D OKAY NO MORE BITCHING.

i finally saw ETHAN seah in campus today. he still looks the same. hot la. HOT. then i saw MICHELLE. hotter! was in the lift. she wanted to go in but it was crowded. i almost wanted to push the idiot in front of me out to make way for her. HAHA. joke:) haha like, "GIVE WAY TO THE HOT LADY, PLEASE. ..no, not me. HERR." HAHAHHA. ..okay.

caroline(lecturer) told us some creepy ghost stories. had my ears covered on of the time. ..as if it helped. every time she got to the climax, you could hear zaffy gasp.......LOUDLY. haha it was funny. THEN kamaria shared with us her stories during the break....... she told me it wasn't scary, but it was. we screamed, we did, zaffy and i. that was FUNNEY.

kamaria: "i saw a black hand reaching over my shoulder.. it was so scary. don't believe me? you try putting a hand over each other's shoulder la." at this point, zaffy and i turned to each other and screamed. ..i don't know why. maybe because we turned at the same time and our horrified faces scared each other... we didn't want no demonstration. okay it was scary FINE we believe you! haha, really.

KAMARIA IS ONE HELL OF A STORY TELLER. i shared the stories with my sisters and they were like....okay?? ...it just wasn't as scary anymore!

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good u are online =D

- e r n - quick quick!! says:
im bored

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
to think you chat with me because i'm fun

- e r n - quick quick!! says:
ya

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lol

- e r n - quick quick!! says:
im usinhg u as a tool for entertainment!!

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
a tool

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a tool

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oh well. he did described me as a 'pro england gal' :D HAHA. he clearly cannot resist reading my blog, can he.

TOMORROW we'll be getting our nurse uniform. HAHAHHA. WHEE. okayy. speaking of which, ERNEST WANTS A PHOTO OF MY FEMALE CLASSMATES IN UNIFORM. SURE. WHAT ABOUT NEVER? haha asshole la, ernest!!! he's fecking using me la! we all know the reason why you want to meet me tomorrow! feck you!? ..apparenly i bring the whore out of him, as he reckoned. uh am i suppose to be flattered???

:)

..michelle in nurse uniform is going to be frigging damn hot la. OH. damn. how can i forget. if nothing crops up, i'll be..taking my hepatitis b jab. ....crap~
Someone special blogged @ 9:23 PM l

as if my day hasn't been fantastic enough already, i got a text message from nana saying how much she misses me. a personal text message, not those forwarded ones. i don't know but to me a personal one has much more sincerity, since the words come from you. but YEA:) I MISS NANA. looking forward to saturdays now.

in no time, kamaria and zaffy both know about my crush on michelle. don't ask me how; apparently i told them. but it was a dead giveaway la, how i suddenly perked up and went all pysched when she's around. and she is around, let me tell you that. funny how we keep bumping into each other..today made a grand total of 3 times. i can get used to this, you know.

it was BATHE THE MANNEQUINS for clinical today!! ..well, for practise that is? of course in real life we will be bedbathing clients la. sarah was so cute la. the first thing she said was: "i want a female mannequin!!" and went around feeling the dolls' genitals one by one. becuase you see, the manne's all look alike. the only difference is, of course, the male has what we all call penis whereas the female has vagina. hahahhaah yea you know i'm loving this.

we got a male mannequin, much to sarah's disappointment:D one look at the detached penis, she turned away in disgust and muttered, "ew. cocks are so ugly." :D:D:D HMM. anyhoos. kamaria and lidan went straight into bedbathing the doll, and wenrui did oral toilet for it. unfortch, sarah, nicole and i didn't quite share their enthusiasm.... sarah was blowing up the gloves behind miss ong's back, nicole was only interested in playing with the warm water in the basin used for bathing the manne and i was busy snapping photos.

either that of we were singing "this is the way they clean the doll" and dancing the chicken dance. ..ps sarah has a very very pleasant singing voice. they call it, the smoky voice. hot, man. SO THAT WAS CLINICAL. before that was bio practical which was torturous for us normal beings

they said i sound like ivan loh. i'm sure i don't SOUND like ivan; they meant the dramatic humour bit la. we were waiting for the lift, but everytime it opened, it would be full. and i was getting a little pissed off and was saying in mock distress, "i swear, the next time it opens and it's full, i'm going to grab the nearest asshole and pull him/her out."

speaking of which..so first lecture was with ivan loh(psychology). again, he was being a jackass la:) he always starts the day by asking us how's our weekends. not because he's genuinely interested, more like he just wants opportunities to mock us:) then after that, goes on full swing and tells us about his weekend instead. and i notice something about him.. he tends to want to say something, but stops himself all the time. i can see the resistance almost kills him la because his face tells all. you know how some people, they have a way with their facial expressions. whys that? because everything they do, they tend to stretch it a little more: major case of dramatic exaggeration.

i'm one of those people. for crying out loud, i'm one half of The Dramatics(the other one being ruoyan of course:D) anyways..maybe that's why i find myself so at ease at ivan's class:D not so different la, you and me

whee put wax on my hair this morning(woke up too early la). only to have it messed up by nicole. just because she was wearing superman tshirt, she thought she could mess with me.

i bought chocolates like there's no tomorrow. mars bar, kitkat chunky and cadbury. the cashier picked up a mars bar and asked whose. "mine," i quipped, looking cheeky. she picked up the other chocolatebar: "what about this?" my smile wavered and i pointed out i was buying that too. she reached out to pick the last when i immediately told her, "all 3. i'm buying all 3"

"today is my day la," i added, resuming back to my cheeky mode. i took out a 50 doller note and handed it to her: "it's your day too!" and she smiled goodhumouredly. (mind you. the 50 dollar is to last me 2 or 3 weeks, okay. my mother don't own no money printing machine. ..unfortunately

tomorrow..presentation.. NOT looking forward to it:) seeing that my group hasn't really sit around and discuss. zaffy suggested we should complain this to andy. "is it the china girls? or is it sarah and nicole? are they the can't be bothered type?" she asked. im afraid i couldn't answer that. because we never had a serious group discussion before? hence i can't anyhow say? yea:D

Hannan is thinking of getting a persian cat. he wants to call it leonardo. but if it's a female, i suggest he calls it, well i don't know..what about Lela? WELL I READ IN THE NET THAT APPARENLY NAMING A PET CAT OR DOG LELA IS GOOD. ..haha. it's just a suggestion.

imagine that.
Someone special blogged @ 5:20 PM l

misunderstanding. misperceptions. the two roots that leads to the destruction of something innocent. nobody listens anymore. even if they do, it's selective hearing. and even that, do you think they are really listening to you? with their heart? you think you know, but you have no idea.

hello. how was your sunday? mine's fabbb. I FOUND MY LONG LOST B2k ALBUM. OHMYGOURD:) it's always those little things that can just make your day seem better, you know what i'm saying?

SINGAPORE IDOL TODAY AT EIGHT. must watch:D the auditions are always the best la. the ultimate weekend entertainment. i can already see my whole family rolling on the floor in fits of hysterical laughter. HOPE TO CATCH A GLIMPSE OF dearest ELTON GOH HAHAHA. ive heard him sing before and indeed, he has the voice.

i don't know what to think about the contestants, and i meant those who..don't really have talent; bold? confident? thick-skinned??? gutsy? foolishly deluded?? whatever it is, they have my respect, man. it takes a lot of balls to audition. i don't have no balls to start with :O

went out with momster. grocery shop-ed. oh yea. nothing is more fun than watching a bunch of clueless teenage guys doing grocery-shopping:) then again, anything is better than waiting by your indecisive mother to make up her mind on what kind of fish to cook for dinner.

camwhored. but not really happy with the shots i've taken. bodo. haha. i missed quite a lot of potentially good ones: a car drove past with the drive dog looking out the wound(sp?) down window, a whole family dressed in the same shade of blue, this ancient tree with twisting branches....

speaking of which, while i was gazing up at it in stupified awe, i came up with a shockingly perfect metaphor la. to me la, at least:D i'm not always in this kind of mode la so it's something. heh. are you ready? OKAY.

life is like a tree. have you ever sit and really look at a tree? you notice how its branches spread randomly out wide, twisting and turning..never a linear progress. and it's true. to any normal passerby, trees, well, they all look alike. but there is no such thing as two similar trees. like there's no such thing as two similar lives, or person for that matter. everyone of us, has our own story to share.

enjoy the rest of your sunday:) i know i will.
Someone special blogged @ 6:43 PM l

reading is a luxury i can no longer afford freely nowadays. so is writing actually, and i don't mean blogging writing. blogging is one of many forms of writing. but what i actually meant really is narrative writing. transcribing dialogue from my mind to the page and seeing something blossom where previously there had been nothing. blame it on time, or lack of creative juices. but thank god for this outlet anyway.

so i went to the library and borrowed The Writer's Survival Guide by Rachel Simon. very insightful and inspiring. especially the chapter on The Big Emotions and States Of Mind, which not only writers, but every single one of us will experience. And i think i'd like to share it with you--one emotion a week?:D

paranoia: a chronic tic of looking over one's shoulder.

paranoia tells us that the worst-case scenario will always happen, so we'd better watch out--even though our vigilance won't prevent the disaster, nor will it lighten the damage. paranoia is about our fear of giving it our all. we use it as a handy mental device when we have been striving and sweating and just as we begin actually getting somewhere, we stop. paranoia is what we feel when we dread the worst before it shows any hint of occuring and then curtail our ambitions so we never have to encounter what isn't yet there.

we tend to forget that other people are so caught up with their own lives, they seldom care what we are doing. we forget that the big battle is just to get people to recognise our work exists, not to cringe from the ramifications of their recognition.

so the next time you hatch a great idea, don't hesitate to make it happen and don't stop until it's done.
Someone special blogged @ 6:57 PM l

"i have a crush on this senior, whose name is michelle," i was telling hannan. his reaction: PRICELESS. "oh my god Lela. no. i say no. it's unacceptable. i hope you meet someone hot tomorrow. MALE." :) WHEREAS ERNEST: "..michelle guy or gal?" -hits head with a donkey-

i feel odd blogging this in the eplaza. i keep looking over my shoulders...in case michelle walks in. she's a regular at the eplaza:) which explains my presence too la:) YES, the crush is real. and perfectly normal and healthy. i mean, come on..there will be phases you will experience throughout your entire youth and admiration for someone is inevitably one of them. admiration, not obsession. i admire her, not obsessed with her:)

denial, apparently, is one of the phases too. but yea! don't fret, this insanity is only temporary. because opposite me is a male and he's looking good. ..okay not really.

ernest's rationale for my sudden change in preferance: nursing many gals ma. hence his intervention: for me to find a sex partner. ..honestly, the donkey i've been hitting him with is crying with mercy. (disclaimer: PLEASE TAKE MY WORDS WITH MANY MANY PINCHES OF SALT. this is only in a name of humourous fun..it's fun what, correct? :D well, i had fun.)

kamaria, i found out, is a great story teller. i admire that about her. she was telliing us this funny thing that happened to her, and, yea, she pulled it off! we were laughing and rolling on the floor. figuratively. i can never do that. i mean, share a funny story.

sarah: "psst. i love you, lela."
me: "aww i love you too, sarah."
"really?"
"...well, i don't hate you."
"chey."
nicole: "oi. abeh aku!?"

yesss nicole speaks malay. damn cair! as in, she speaks malay with the twang and everything.

i was singing my heart out to Orson, No Tomorrow, when suddenly lina said i should join idol. i choked and died. trying to fish compliments from my sister is like trying to stuff a durian up your arse. ..weird analogy but you get my point. so when she said that, i knew she meant it and was like, AW THANKS:D SO GUYS. i hope you are dying to see me in singapore idol. i hope you are anticipating to hear me sing. because i wil do so in like NEVER.

i have no guts. PERIOD:)

makes me realise, TALENT is not enough to get you far. i am not implying that i do have singing talent because i can't do high notes even if my life depends on it. ANYWAY YEA. TALENT NO ENOUGH. you gotta have PASSION. my passion is in writing and i think i shall stick to that:D
Someone special blogged @ 12:19 PM l

kamaria where are you :( i want those pictures i took so i can put them up online. and i took quite aplenty:D forget about bringing my canon powershot; i have k's 2 megapixel camera nokia phone. and she has willingly entitled me to use her phone whenever and wherever.

it's cool, what we have. she's my model and i'm her photographer. and i like it that she isn't judgemental:D she doesn't think i'm crazy when i holler, "OMG I MUST HAVE THIS TAKEN. PHONE, OUT. NOW."

hahahah. no, i meant to say she's cool. because most people i know, they laugh at me and at how i find almost every single thing interesting hence worthy of being captured on a camera. one good example, MY SISTERS. what do they know about HOBBIES. they have NO LIFE, MAN.

i am beginning to sound like ivan loh :O yea.. MAN.

since k is not here, there won't be any photos in today's entry. bummer. i've taken some hot shots:D like ..we girls getting down with the mannequin... :O sexay. oh yea. it's plastic penis got detached agaain. this time it ain't my fault!!! :D caused such a major hoo-ha. miss ong was cool though. she was like, "eh girls. stop fooling around with the doll's genitals!" she made it sound so matter-of-factly.

hey. girls will be girls..MAN.

WHAT DID WE DO FOR CLINICAL? ORAL TOILET. i remember 'choking' the mannequin with the spatula. i remember almost ripping its mouth while trying to clean its teeth. i remember pulling back my hand and realising shit, the cotton wool's in the mouth. had a hard time trying to extricate it out, without looking suspicious so not to arouse curiosity from miss ong....

i am a patients' worst nightmare :O

"nicole, your shirt says Poison. seriously. your patients will run away from you."
"YOU have skulls on your bag, missy."

the day before, dr.lam told us that our bladder can expand! so you can fill one litre in it, no worries. but then right..what's the use of a no limit capacity, if the storage is only temporary? was practically crying in the lecture hall, begging to be released because my bladder has expanded to its max.

anyways, yea. right after lecture was clinical lab with miss ong and latecoming, to her, is like manslaughtering to us normal human beings. so it's important to be punctual. remember that i have a bladder to empty. while the rest of the class used the stairs, k and i were there waiting for the lift. i don't know. correct me if i'm wrong but in order not to piss right there and then, we got to minimise our movement, yes?

the lift door finally opened. people inside walked out but for some reason they were taking their own bloody sweet fecking time. i almost wanted to grab the last guy by the shirt and pull him out. trying to be a gentleman by pressing the button and waiting for all the ladies to leave. HAH. then FINALLY k and i got in and a throng of people got in after us. THEY were taking their own bloody sweet fecking time too! what the?? they are all in this together, MAN! all of them!! AAAHHH.

inside the lift was very quiet. except for the soft tapping of my feet. people think i'm impatient but i'm just trying to keep it in. "i swear, i am going to RUN. RUN like the wind," i was telling kamaria. but my voice was amplified to about a hundred..million, because the lift was that quiet. now people think i'm impatient AND crazy.

the impatient and crazy,
signing off.
Someone special blogged @ 10:49 PM l

hey world. let's backtrack, shall we? SHALLY SHALLY. hahaha. wokay. WOKAY. I AM SAD. haha yea. no. devastated, more like. when i walked in for bioscience lecture and found some foreign lecturer working out the mic, my heart plummeted to the floor and broke into myriad pieces.

that man there was no bryan chua, hell no. he wasn't close to looking as good as chua! for instance, this man is balding a little. and zaffy could feel my heartache. hahaha. seriously! she was looking at me and smiling that 'awwww' smile.

he introduced himself as dr.lam. WHATEVV. hah. but turned out he ain't so bad. not that i thought he would be bad. i just have very high standards, seeing that bryan chua is such a wonderful lecturer:) but yea. BETCHA DIDN'T THOUGHT I WOULD BE ATTENTIVE DURING LAM'S LECTURE. and it was 90 minutes. how odd! but it's true. i mystify me.

maybe it's because i was sitting in the front. then again, i was in front for ivan loh's lesson as well, yet i didn't quite catch it.. THEN AGAIN, it IS ivan loh HA HA. or maybe it's because dr.lam is not anywhere near drop dead gorgeous so i don't find myself gazing up at him. instead my eyes were fixed on the powerpoint slides.

not saying that chua is drop dead gorgeous la. but he just possess this great charisma! ..okay not really. i make him sound like some god-lecturer. i will miss him so! but i think can do with dr.lam :) my pages were filled for once, with notes, and not random doodling or bad attempts at rhyming. i'm proud of me.

shaheera and wani took the opportunity to zonk(?) out during the short 10-minute break. i laugh everytime i see this. shaheera is so cute la!! her face was literally flat down. when the lecture resumed and she forced her head up, her forehead and nose were RED.

okay. before the lecture, we had a 2 hour break. were at the library. DEFINE library; it was so fecking noisy i hate it!! being at the same table with elton and khairul, NOT HELPING.

their mass bitching session was at the climax.. how i knew? they no longer bother to be discreet. their facial expressions getting more intensed. they didn't seem to notice kamaria and i had inched surreptitiously closer to them and were evidently eavesdropping.

next thing, we were joining them in the mass bitching. WHEE my first in nyp. with the gender of the opposite sex! and i thought dear hannan is bad, these two are atrocious:)

tutorial before that was awright.

during the 4 hour break BEFORE THAT, i balek-ed kampong:D nyehehe. so i was snoozing(standard scenario) when SARAH CALLED to discuss about the presentation. only i didn't answer:D hahahha defiant siket ar. eh even if i did answer, i doubt i'll be making sense. bet she didn't know at that point, i was actually in bed..? yea.

sarah surprised me! in a good way:) i didn't thought she would be the kind to take the initiative and be the sensible responsible one in the group. i mean, come on, the last time we tried to have a discussion, she and nicole went off hiding. ..okay, so did i. HAHAHAHA. lidan found us in no time though; she couldn't understand why we were cramped behind the pillar.........

CALLING FOR ASILA. i know you read my blog! HAH. because you said i'd make a good author. ...not applying anyting here okay eheh. THANKS, I APPRECIATE THAT SO:):) IT MEANS ALOT! for that, I SHALL CONTINUE WRITING!! and i love you too:)

with that, i hereby end my 100th post:)
Someone special blogged @ 8:57 PM l

typical day at the bioscience lab..

khairul: "shaheera! scorpion!"justin figuring out the tibia/fibula/i'm not sure myself
muscle man.



NEXT STOP: the clinical ward! ...i said..the clinical ward??

that's better...kind of? haha. nicole and sarah, crazy pair!!! :)
caught redhanded for terrorizing the mannequin!
lifting and transfering the mannequin. ain't easy.
peiru what you doing!?
say bye bye.


byebye!

Someone special blogged @ 9:27 PM l

think about it

it takes a night to make it dawn
and it takes a day to make you yawn brother
it takes some old to make you young
it takes some cold to know the sun
it takes the one to have the other

and it takes no time to fall in love
but it takes you years to know what love is
it takes some fears to make you trust
it takes those tears to make it rust
it takes the dust to have it polished

jaosn mraz just has his ways, doesn't he.

so what did we have plan for momster.. well, not much. it's all her fault, for not allowing us to execute our otherwise perfect planning! we wanted to head down to the beach in the morning, but SHE had trouble waking up! it was kind of funny actually.. but we were very disappointed. oh well! it is mother's day :) so she slept all the way til noon. then we had lunch at ....a japanese restaurant.

yes. what a shocker! but i knew it, beneath that exterior, she's actually quite a cool sport la:) living life to the fullest, yes, mommie? but she ended up eating only the california maki.

me and wasabi have this love and hate thing going on. gosh the unexplained pain surging up the nasal passage. i swear there was one point where i think i'd rather die. then after the horrifying experience of near-death, you know it's the best thing you ever have... how contradicting is this.

weekends come and go. fun:D but not memorable enough! :( something feels wrong. lately everything to me feels wrong. not being able to find out why or what exactly that's bugging me only makes me feel miserable. what am i missing, exactly. what's this feeling i'm feeling that's so overwhelming, all i can do is just let it engulf me. leave me succumbing deeper into it, hopelessly defenseless. defenseless me.
Someone special blogged @ 7:50 PM l

Someone special blogged @ 5:46 PM l

today is like my day, okay?! i've got 3 people who DECLARES I ROCK. ..no seriously. i didn't bribe them, i didn't hold a knife to their neck. i didn't do anything! ....okay so my nick is: 'ive got a guy who thinks i rock'. and that's from a song by orson.

- e r n - quick quick!! says:
i think u rock too =D

ROCKET"Tak bisakah kau menunggu ku?" said:
EH i think you rock too!!!

"i hope you get in! you rock." this is from NUROOL:) <3<3

eh wait. i've got one question: what happened to our beloved dr.bryan chua??? this whole week, we hadn't had a single bioscience lecture at all. meant to have them, but we were informed(at the very fecking last minute) that there wouldn't be any.. you'd think we would be relieved, but really.. we were pissed off big time. that tuesday, we wasted 2 hours in campus waiting for our supposedly bioscienc lecture only to find out it was postponed.

like today.. there was a 3-hour break before the supposedly(again) lecture. so i went out to have lunch with cousin dayana, and came back to campus, only to bump into the kids in class. they were walking the opposite direction. "eh where you think you going?" khairul mocked.

......................one look, i knew he knew where i was going and i also knew what he knew straightaway. "feck off," i said, as politely as i could. suddenly i felt like an idiot. and the rest who followed up after him asked me the exact same question. "do they think this is funny!?" i cried, but no one got my humour. that's the thing with 0622. they are great people and i enjoy being with them, really. but it seems that my humour and theirs are totally of different leagues.

anyways. it's all cool:) so i met up with nurool at the library and we chilled out there. oh yea. in case you haven't heard, i didn't into the Foreign Bodies during my audition. there was a re-audition today. or just now, to be exact. I KNOW! i didn't know i didn't care, until nurool called me up while i was in the bus on the way to campus.

i used to be known(aherm) for my perseverance la. i can play the damn guitar without any fecking external training, damn it! well, there was nurool:D but she gave up on me after teaching me the C chord haha! anyway yea! and you guys didn't know that if i want something, i'll do anything to get it. some way or another!! and usually the 'some way or another' works ;) i have my waaays, okay.

but for some reason right, this Foreign Bodies issue didn't work that way. maybe i didn't want it as badly as i thought? or maybe the rejection bit was kind of harsh la! haha! but EH, i joined the re-audition. not with the hope that i would get into it the second round. more like, to be there for nurool and to have fun. dancing is fun, okay. i don't care what those 'foreigners of a body' say; I HAVE THE GROOVE. PFFT. hehe.

so easy lor, the choreographing. pfft. thank god for that. i was(am) having my rags(FIRST DAY, SOMEMORE), so i was really praying there wouldn't be any..jumping and too much bouncing. it was so uncomfortable for me......... and having to be called THE LAST to audition, just added to my discomfort. i just want to go home~~

but it was fun. DUH dancing is fun. so what if the song is in taiwanese and it's haardly the kind people like me would groove along to. sheesh.. too bad michelle wasn't there!!!! (I WAS IN THE LIFT WITH HER JUST THAT OTHER DAY. i didn't notice at first, because the lift was crowded..with...tall people..aherm. and yea. she was at the other corner of the lift and she was like grinning at me. when i got out, zaffy was like, 'lela, why are you smiling to yourself?')

there wasn't no michelle, but there was STEVE. ....................... :O

it's sad. coming to the fifth week, yet there isn't any ..particular guy which has gotten my attention. even if there is, THE CHANCES of bumping into HIM AGAIN are nonexistant. big stupid campus :P oh well. i shall leave you with this beautiful ballad hannan has composed..a 10 on the mushy scale but, beautiful nonetheless:)

When words lose its meaning...
And looks lose its appeal...
I will find your heart is beautiful
When loneliness comes around...
And I forget what's it's like to be
loved
I will find your heart is beautiful love
Someone special blogged @ 1:48 AM l

i'm sorry to whoever that had to read yesterday's bullshit. well maybe no one did. but i did. and having to read that just now, it was embarrassing for me.come on. it's not like me to display my anger. it's not cool :O i have an image to maintain. ..haha yes. aren't you glad i'm back? (for those who tried to read the impulsive entry i was talking about, don't bother la. i've deleted it:) let's just say it wasn't cool!)

yea i'm at the Eplaza right now. the only place where i can blog nowsaday. nowadays, i mean. and anyway, i don't think the computer at home is in a good shape...... i mean, come on.try smashing your head against the wall. i'm pretty damn sure it won't work properly after that.

hannan texted, what happened. but didn't get any reply. so he sent another one. and another. he thought something musthave happened to me, when in an actual fact i was just asleep. HAHA. i read them the next morning and i felt like i'm the luckiest beach on earth to have friends like him.

sometimes all it takes is just a simple gesture that you care. then everything will be alright.

OKAY. i've just done watching this video on the stages of labour. and it's not pretty. the video is so..detailed. you can see the distressed and naked mother on the bed, legs wide apart and her cervix stretched to the extreme. mann that looked painful as hell! doctors around her urging her to pushh and i found myself..pushing with her......... and then a head popped out and so did my curry puff i was chewing in my mouth.

oh oh the horrors of labour. i know i say i'm adopting because there are so many homeless kids in the other countries and i genuinely want to help them... but this is also another part of the reason why i am doing so! the other one being that sex is painful. not that i've gone through it, but i don't see the thrill in having something thrust up my vagina.

oh oh the horrors of labour. makes me appreciate my momster more... :)

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Someone special blogged @ 12:10 PM l

oh ha ha ha very funny, i know. but seriously. i'm in no such mood to joke around. so what if it's a sunday!?!? first and foremost, i found out mother's day is actually in fact, next sunday. the fourteenth. relief, because i haven't actually gotten momster anything. at the same time, humiliation, for getting it wrong in the first place. i was so excited for nothing!! shut up already, you.

we meant to go out today, as a family. but it's cancelled because i found out that i have so much to do. as in my modules. i don't mean the assignments or projects. more like, the basics........ i had always thought bioscience is my weakest so far. turn out i know nuts about the process and practice of nursing as well.

because i was absent for that friday's pnn tutorial, aaaand had brought the wrong book for the lecture on that same day, i figured i must have missed out alot. so just now i was going through the lecture notes to see what i've missed and found out though i know the 5 process of nursing, i've no idea how to employ them.

i know nuts about filling in the assessment report, and the standard format of writing down the specified problems. yea there's the NANDA list but how the hell am i supposed to use it? and those cheem terminology such as cardiovascular function..this is so embarrassing. i'm supposed to know all these terms.

you think (training)being a nurse is easy.

i've always believe in giving myself a treat or two if i've done a task/job well done. as a form of encouragement for myself. for example, if i've been extra hardworking, i'd give myself a well-deserved break at the end of week. i don't think i've been very hardworking this week! i don't deserve a good break!!

so here i am. well. i'm about to go do the relevant studying online via CMS.. hopefully there are some information i can get to help me through. thank god for the this directed self studying system thingie. or else i think i'd die trying to understand all of these on my own.

this is how idiotic lela can be..well, sometimes:) because i still think i rock:P in some not-so-obvious ways... go figure, if you must. enjoy the rest of your sunday, people:)
Someone special blogged @ 6:49 PM l

if you're wearing hipster jeans, or those super low pants, please WEAR THONGS. expensive, sexy ones. 3 for $10 ones which has gone all blobby in the wash. i don't care. i mean, i'm sure people would rather SEE the fabric of your thong, or the tag which says what size it is. NOT your freaking BUTTCRACK.

to elaborate more on my displeasure, please read the following conversation i had with noratiah larry:

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
do they think it's pretty?

pfft says:
lol

pfft says:
oh yeah.. its hot.

pfft says:
its like in over here

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
:O

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
here too.

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
it's EVERYWHERE

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
every corner you turn

pfft says:
no i was just kidding

pfft says:
lol

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
its disgusting

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
i wish i could have a pretty diamond necklace for every buttcrack

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
i think by now i could have open a jewellery shop

pfft says:
lol pfft

pfft says:
u should tell them next time

pfft says:
'excuse me but the exposure of ur ass is offending me, please pull up you pants.

pfft says:
your*.

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
hahhahaha!

pfft says:
do it!

pfft says:
theyll think ur a freak, but what the heck

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
I"M A FREAK>?

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
they are showing half their butt and im the freak????

FOREIGN REJECTS says:
butt ugly martians

i don't see myself going up to bitches and saying, "please pull up your pants." HAHA. i'm not bold enough!!! ohh noo!!! hahaha. anyway, i don't want to embarrass them. i know what it feels like when someone goes up to you and say that. not that someone has gotten up to me and tell me to pull up my pants. more like:

"can see your g-string.."

.......i wanted to retaliate: "AND I CAN SEE AN IDIOT'S FACE......." haha i'm horrible. i'm one of them bitches :O heh sorry to ruin the morning with that:D

..........ali was talking to me about the modules she's studying under Mass Communications and i can't help feeling a stab of jealousy. oh jealousy is bad!!! BAD!! BAAAAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ..but i'll pass :D ANYWAY. as i was saying: i can't help but feel that, hey, that's what i should be doing. or is it? :O

am i still in doubt? it's so strange how when people go, "is nursing what you wanted?", i had said with undeterred conviction: "YEA."

i asked zaffy: "what you want to be when you grow up?"
"a nurse." and her face screamed DUH.

i took a while to get this. "..oh yea hor. what are we doing here then, right? ha ha ha." she looked at me with a sympathetic smile. SHE THINKS I'M CRAZY! hahahha. .. time to redeem what's left of my dignity, i rephrased my question: "what was it that you really wanted to be? you know, quirky ambitions and all that stuff. for example, i used to want to be a zookeeper." until i found out a zookeeper does more than feeding the animals.............

anyway. zaffy is great. but she never laughs at my lame jokes. ..she only smiles. as if to say, "aw..lame. that's sad....." hahha serious :) but she's great la! i love her!

helping nana later with her math.. whee. can't wait to reignite my passion for numbers. not! dude, the last time i did math was more than half a year ago. i'm afraid i won't be able to help nana much!! oh well, the reason why i agreed to help, is to see her:D and to go to the library to ..widen my horizon..... there's just so much to discover!!!!!

knowledge is powerrr!!(disclaimer: power is pronounced with a malay twang: PAH-WERRR.)
Someone special blogged @ 10:38 AM l

it's the WHEEkend! so much to do..so little time! tomorrow, we MIGHT be sleepingover cousin lili's house. her parents are holiday-ing at langkawi, for crying out loud!!! WHOOHOO!! too bad cousin elly's gone to germany. it'll be so much more fun with her around. and it's mother's day this sunday! :D:D going to have lots of quality family time together. relatives included ;)

all these equal to LOTS OF POWERPHOTOS! like i'd let two consecutive promising days of bittersweet memories like these slip away. i had bought two pairs of batteries, just in case. HAHA. point out someone with any more anticipation for the weekend???

i can't wait to see what kind of mother's day gifts gmum's going to get. probably another electronic kettle.

it's funny how one moment you feel like there's so much to talk about, and then the next it's like..blanka. damn. it's all at the tip of my tongue! ..or in this case, my fingers. you have no idea the kind of thoughts going through my head while i was on the way home today.

i was at Cash Converters, browsing, and came across Scandal'Us cd album.. ring a bell? it's an australian band i think. they used to be real big. then they died. as in their popularity:D well, you don't always stay on top, do ya?

i wouldnt say i was a fan. but i loved their singles. i've always wanted to get the album. but no cash back then. now 5 years later: HERE I AM and HERE IT IS. PLAYING ON MY DISCMAN for the past couple of days now.

i give it 5/5 :D well, don't ask what genre it is because i don't label music. ..fine, it's just very..danceable. so when you walk, you can't help but WALK to the beat:D there were more than one occasion where i felt like dancing my way to campus:) oh what the heck. i think i DID xP

bet you didn't know i was running a very high fever last night.... thus absent from school the next day(today). ..at least during the morning:D i may not be supergirl, but my powers of recuperation was nothing but remarkable. i swear! haha. which explains why i was back in action later that day. i dont know, it feels like i'm wasting my time if i don't go to school. BIZARRE. I KNOW.

i came across a hip hop class at the community centre......... why let my interest go to waste? so WHY NOT???? :D maybe lina can accompany me :) dancing next to her makes me feel like shakira. seriously. HAHAHA. but yea. maybe i could make my own dance team and we shall call ourselves the FOREIGN REJECTS.

wandering in universe,
lela.
Someone special blogged @ 8:28 PM l

(YES i finally got the china girl's name). the rest of the students have already been dispersed into their little subgroups to discuss about the scenario presentation. where are youuu...tomorrow is antoinette's tutorial and i hate to be picked on with nothing prepared. you know how antoinette is....her size is indirect proportional to her attitude:D

so i had 2 hours of pyschology lecture with ivan loh. so i dragged the girls to sit right in the front with me..well, we were late and the back seats were already taken, clearly. anyway! yea! i hereby impulsively conclude that my mentor, andy ong is actually much more better-looking now that i've seeeeen ivan thiiiis close. ..you can't see how close is the close i'm referring to..but imagine the closest close. but personal space still intact la.

ANYWAY! not that i go around comparing the physical features of lecturers in campus. just that these two men play such a role la..currently:D no, serious :O

but ivan is funny, and his humour is the kind which slaps you....in a good way!unless he's targetting his spite humour at you la. and like kamaria says, that portrays his ke-hensem-an. or in english, his handsomeness. haha. swell. i don't know. i think it's his new york accent which blows me away.

"may i have two volunteers please?"
a girl boldly stood up. ...and then quipped: "but i'm wearing kain. eh, i mean skirt."
".....okay, youre wearing skirt. seriously, what do you think i'm going to do to you?"

and the winner goes to andy ong:D for his genuine interest in his students and the undivided attention he showers you with. ivan only cares about finishing the slides:D "okay this slide you read by yourself. this one too.. this one read at home. ah! okay, this too. and, oh no more!"

SO I SAW MICHELLE AT THE FOOD COURT. she's hot. swoooon. ..no, i'm straight. ...come on! what about those paragraphs above, man???? hahahha.

one day i shall bring my canon powershot to campus and snap powerphotos. i am just waiting for the right time:D and when noratiah comes over to singapore, i shall bring her on a tour around nanyang polytechnic. no, serious :O

"so how do the neurons transmit signals to the other neurons?"
"radiation?"
"..what are you bunch? walking x-men?"

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Someone special blogged @ 3:24 PM l

it was 7.55am. zaffy-raffy(zafira) called me when i was just about to leave the house, telling me that it's E-tutorial today ......i was hit with a pleasant wave of dejavu. "OH. that's great," was my nonchalant reply. yup. dejavu alright :D the supposedly next lesson is at 12.05pm, ladies and gentlemen. i have, damn..3 or so hours to spare. hence i decided to embark on a tedious, but thoroughly necessary task i've been putting off for ages:

bathe the felines.

i used to have fun bathing them. when they were still kittens la. now that they are fat and heavy, it's more of an exercise. i used to bathe them on the kitchen sink. now they can hardly fit their giant butt in. so the next alternative is the bathroom.

i stepped out of the bathroom every 3 minutes, half drenched, arms scratched, and back ached(i even resorted to standing rooted at the centre of the bathroom, and spraying after the cat with water as he desperately scurried round and round.)

oh well. at least i smell of cat shampoo and cat shampoo smells good :D

i even tidied up my bed. and lina's. i found a hundred bucks and a shaver underneath her mattress...oh kayye.

i. am. lookingforwardtotoday. because its pyschology lecture later at 12.05pm with ivan loh. swooooon :D i shall sit right at the front today. then there will be a 3-hour break after that, where my subgroup will sit around and discuss about our presentation. looking forward to that too. sarah and nicole are a fun bunch to work with. then finally at 5, bioscience lecture with dr.bryan chua.

..you can tell i'm bored rigid, can't ya. sad. 040506 today. such a nice number!!! but i regret this ain't much of an entry:( okay wait i've got a riddle: what kind of monkey can fly? ...a hot air baboon. HAHA.

okay. i only made it worst, didn't i.
Someone special blogged @ 8:36 AM l

WHEE in Eplaza right now.. waiting for next clinical lab lesson at 2.......feeling so weird. self conscious almost..worried someone might creep up behind me and scare the skin out of me.. anyway. LOOK WHAT I FOUND:

Lela is often considered a variant spelling of Leila, which comes from Arabic and means "dark," or "night," or even "dark as the night." You get the idea. Some sources also describe Lela as a Spanish name meaning "lofty."

eres interesante :D

This is a name that currently still sounds at least somewhat old-fashioned, and it was crowded out by all the "new" names that were drafted into the name pool over the past decades. It could easily enough return to popularity with the right catalyst such as a famous actress, model, or fictional character. Lela is an extremely good name for a dog or cat.

...ohkay.

IT'S HANNAN'S BIRTHDAY TODAY. happy seventeenth birthday, my friend. may our friendship lasts. chinatown on sunday?? :):) maybe can ask ernest sum along. HAHA.

OKAY GOTS TO GO!
Someone special blogged @ 1:39 PM l

hm let me see..i think it was elton who said that it was e-lecture today, hence we did not need to to be present. hmm. and i think it was nicole who was over the moon with the announcement and had repeated the phrase: "whee no classes today!" for 283452 times. hmm! and i think it was me who was skeptical and had tried in vain to convince them otherwise!

no it wasn't me! i was like nicole! i was over the moon! ..the rest of the kids in class were skeptical. unlike them, i didnt even bother to find out for sure. i was like: "OH thats great." then i passed the message around. ......oh my god. even after andy ong had complimented me: "you're in good shape. i think you'll be one of the good student."

clearly i'm not. is there such a mythical creature!?!??! ..okay. obviously he meant academic wise la. seeing that i told him i DO understand biological science; only the memorising part is tricky. DAMN i was so cool, coy and casual when we talked!! i scared myself!!! but the impressive look on andy's face:PRICELESS. if only i were half as confident during the interview into SP, media communications.

kamaria told me the 'talk' would only take 5 minutes. andy was just going to ask how we were doing in school, and at home, whether we have any problems... questions which required just a no or yes. i thought, SHEESH. what's the fuss? and frankly, i was looking forward to it. WHEE. ANDY!!

YEA RIGHT. my 'appointment' was supposed to be at 2 but i only got in at 3.30pm because those before me were taking, well i don't know, like 30 minutes?!?!?!?! "what the HELL are they talking about?!?!?!" those outside with me were complaining.

it was so funny how they started to make plans later in the afternoon, thinking they had the rest of the day free. and they were dying for their turn..not to see andy but more of wanting to get it over and done with la. i was just there, slumped against the wall, twirling my phone between my thumb and index finger, counting the minutes til my turn. I, on the other hand, WANT TO SEE ANDY so much.

i dont know, i just want to have a good conversation with someone and what more than your mentor? and the fact that the mentor is a YOUNG MALE, is just a bonus la. ..what, i communicate better with those of the opposite sex. so what? :P

shaheera who was before me, was finally out. i oohwee-ed and skipped my way into the room where andy ong was at..he was rubbing his eyes. he looked a little tired.... aww.. so i perked him up with a shrill and loud HIIIYEEEE.

followed by an even louder BANG, from the door behind me. sheepishly, i apologised and took the seat next to him, only to have him stopping me and gesturing at the one across him instead. ...first thing that crossed my mind: HE FOUND ME REPULSIVE. and couldnt even be bothered to be subtle! oh god let me slap him.

"something's wrong with this chair," he explained then. "shaheera had leant back and the chair just.." he moved his body to the side as though he was falling. "..next second she was on the floor." i imagined shaheera on the floor, with her legs kicking in the air.. ..and she was wearing skirt today("wah, first time ar!! very jambuu!" nicole teased and she had said in mock embarrassment: "hehehhee. no laaa. don't praise anymore, or my skirt will tear.").

"i shall laugh at her when i see her," i told andy with a conspiratorial smirk.
"sure. just don't tell her i told you that."

then we talked la. he asked how i find the class/the campus and all that and i had answered with a definite YES, IT'S GREAT. it was fun i want to talk to him again! and i was smiling throughout; it hurt. ..then he mentioned ivan loh and my smile got wider.

"how? you find him cute right."
":D:D:D:D why, yes."
"i thought so." he scribbled something. that looked suspicious.........
"you find him cute too, yes?"
he looked at me, amused. "i don't look at guys. i am straight. anyway, he's my colleage and i'm asking on a behalf of him."
oh my god.
"don't worry. i won't tell him."
"oh okay."
"NOT. heeheh."
!!!!!!!

i 'complained' to him about the bioscience tutorial lecturer...:D though i had trouble trying to express how i felt about dr.aw. "he's just....just so..............." i gave up. "im sure i'm not the only one who mentioned about him?"

"you're not the only one."
"yea! so he is, whatever the others had said he is!"
"..i'd like to hear what you think."
"...he just doesn't teach?? alah, i dont know la. i thought i could understand more in the tutorial. but i don't because he's not really that helpful..." PHEW. that was tough.

this was supposed to be a conversation, right? where both party talk and listen. so then i posed him a question next: "what do you think of him? personally." it was andy's turn to fumble :D

"actually right, he's a.....he's just....he's a talented man. he's talented, and intelligent. ..and you know how talented and intelligent people, they can be a bit..eccentric. so that's him. eccentric."

i beamed, clearly impressed. yup that's dr.aw alright. he does have that eccentric face:D i can still remember..how he perched there on the desk, looking at us..but not really seeing. and that dazed, faraway smile............. just what is he thinking? all these while the rest of the class is gawking expectantly at him to continue the lesson.

it ended TOO SOON. i didnt want to leave la. i want more of this session:D .....gosh i sound like i'm deprived or something... ..okay in a sense i am. it's hard to find someone who would just sit, talk and listen to you.

oh yea. there was NO E-lecture today. meaning there WAS lecture. so yea! 0622 is screwed!!

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Someone special blogged @ 8:31 PM l

now i'm no fool and everyone don't play by the rules.
i've learnt to fight for what i want out of life

oh yea it's LABOUR DAY today!! pinch and punch on the first day of the month!!! (have i got that one right, noratiah??) NO RETURNS~

last night was one of the rare nights whereby i felt like ive died and went straight to heaven. the dying part wasn't pretty though... thank goodness my sisters weren't around, because i bet they would get a shock of the century if they found me in tears over something on MSN. ..but of course, there's so much more to it than what youre thinking.....

how could anyone be so understanding and silly at the same time??? there was this bit of me which thought that i don't deserve to have a true blue pal like her. after what i did.. oh god what i did~ :( I AM FOOLISH, IGNORANT, and INCOMPETENT.

i don't want to make it sound like an excuse, but i realise i'm no good with hints. don't 'reverse psychology' with me.. tell it to my face, please, if ive done something wrong. don't torture me with the Silence Treatment. that's where she's done wrong, and i appreciate her opening up and apologising :) though the one who should be doing the apologising was really me, for being the arse than i can be.

if she hadn't opened up, i wouldnt know where i've gone wrong and that would put a strain on our friendship. now that we've talked it out, we're closer than close now:):) this 'conflict' only made us stronger and a part of me is glad that it happened.. it was a great wake up call: i need to be more sentisive and..nurool, less xP

i heart her la.

.........................then ernest sum came along and spoilt the moment for me!!!!!!!!!!! he knows i get spooked easy. but he kept going on with those spooky encounters he had experienced at a chalet at changi.........! (click HERE to check out his blog and see what i mean.. provided you can understand his english HAHA.)

"my friend open the balcony door and he saw dark figures walking to the window and jumping off."
-no reply from me-
"you closed the window?"
"yes i did........" yea i really did, without reading what he had written.
"noooooo."

unfortunately, he copied and pasted the particular sentence so i had no choice and i read it. and he had no choice but to hear the confession of my true feelings: "I HATE YOU." "i am the personification of evil," he had said. AN UNDERSTATEMENT!!!! i heart him too :)

the things that happen to you may not be pretty but there's always comfort to be taken, solace to be found and lesson to be learnt. at the end of the day, you emerge stronger than you were yesterday.
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