hoho it's insane how i try to cram every activities i want to do within this week. INSAANE! what with my clinical attachments starting next week. oooohh anticipating:) ......thinking positively thinking posivitely............

what did i do today.

WELL I GOT MY BEANIE:D i call him Globean. because its brand is Globe, and 'bean' comes from beanie... okay, i should really stop naming stuff. especially one which doesn't belong to me!?

if this is what it takes to finally get to see you, by borrowing your stuff, then i'd like to borrow your skully cap, hannan!!!!

"i dig your cap."
"thanks! it's my cousin's."
"......damn."

okay just for the record, i didn't ask him to lend me his beanie. he did it on his own accord? i told him i cut my own hair because i wanted to go mohawk and now it has gone all wrong. "i could lend you(beanie). your need is bigger than mine." uh huh. he saw the disastrous hair.

so we met up and i accompanied him to nyp before heading peirce for a rehearsal. why were we at nyp again? i don't know. serious. he said he had to submit a form? for his brother?

"some mendaki stuff."
"at nyp?"
"yea. it's held at nyp's auditorium."

i looked at the form. it didn't state NYP anywhere? ..i trust he knew and handed back the paper before casually asked, "so where do we submit the form?"

"admission office."
then it slipped my lips: "where's that?"

hannan stared at me. i stared back at him. he laughed and i laughed along with him.

"you were kidding right?"
"duh! i mean, i study there okay!!"

so thank goodness admission office weren't that difficult to find. haha! it's be so embarrassing. i could imagine the both of us walking all over nyp. "i thought you should know where it is??" "what do i look like to you? seriously!"

unfortunately the trip to nyp to submit that form were in vain. turned out hannan had obviously gotten the wrong instructions from his brother.......... it was kind of funny actually. the way the guy at the office said.. so casual, "it says you're to send this form to mendaki so i think you should do that. right now we don't know what to do with the form if you submit it to us."

we looked at each other and went, DUHHHH!!!!

went down the stairs only to climb back up to have a drink at food junction. chilled there over chocolate milk tea and HANNAN TALKS ALOT. SERIOUSLY. he just went on and on and on. pearl stuck in his throat didnt stop him! he just turned away, swallowed hard, then continued talking. hilarious. oh and i kind of burped. in his face. and he just smiled. yea:D he didnt tell me off like elton did! which is cool!!! HA HA how you like me nowwww.

he still went yakkity-yak while we made our way to the interchange, while waiting for 162 which took forever, and in the bus too! like, HANNAN SHHH!? THANKS? can i listen to chris brown in peace??? hahahha naww.. enjoyed his crazy company tremendously. ...if i weren't too busy trying to hold my pee in?!???

met up with wenhao outside school. and wenhao...:D is kindar good looking la!!! :D i was like is this the same skinny geeky guy we knew 4 years ago??? carrying the sketch book everywhere?? xD HEH. SHHH. met up with tabi and daniel in the SC room................................ :D i love tabi. she's like the sweetest thing on earth:D:D anyways. sat by and watched them. cute people. especially daniel. trying to reach that high note. and wenhao, getting stressed and mixed up with the singing part. hannan was just over there, strumming the guitar and looking macho.

i think they improved the last i saw them. yea they were good. they're going to rock the house tomorrow!

"can i dance at the background?" i joked. ruoyan and joan flashed in my mind. and hannan and wenhao started doing some retro seventies moves .............. HM!!!!

it was raining yes? was stranded. contemplated wearing the beanie.. then i remembered a conversation we had, and how ..a wee bit bothered he got when he told me how his cd case kanna spoilt. yes i know now how he is with his properties. didn't want to be in trouble so i got home soaked to the bones. now i'm feeling feverish:(

okay some photos i took!!!!!

tabi guitar and vocalist! and bassist wenhao..HEH
Dan at guitar and Nan at drums
i had to practically lie on the dusty stage when i took this. well worth the 2 seconds humiliation. love this shot.


Someone special blogged @ 9:21 PM l

anyone finds anything wrong with this photo? besides the fact that i(yea, that's yours truly on the right) looked too cute to be true? gosh do i miss the days where i was taller than my sister. but yea. back to the photo.

clue? okay. look. what am i holding onto?? whaaat's in my haaaand..?? ..no, i meant the other hand.

AAH. A KNIFE.

so what if it was my birthday? you do NOT let a toddler carry a KNIFE. let alone one held so close to her sibling!! i could have dropped it accidentally(looks heavy doesn't it, the knife?) and sliced her toes in the process. or innocently stab her. like, oh hey look how neat i cut the cake! maybe i could cut you! stab! .......oh but the cake didn't spurt out red gooey stuff.........

hahahhaa okay i'm freaking people out:)

maybe i was at that age where i believed(or told to believe) that a sibling is a gift, and i was very lucky. hm. one thing to be naive, but to be deluded, is another different thing altogether!!!

:) but i was cute though. aww, look at our hair! straight hair!!!

hokay:) let's talk about yesterday. the funny bits.. if you think you like me because i'm silly and funny, you will LOVE and worship ruoyan. this particular phrase in her recent entry makes me laugh and reading it over and over again never kills the magic and the humour of it:

"(feels just like yesterday we were)Dodging Dennis' flying spit-radicals with such grace and agility that'll do producers of 'Matrix' proud."

so yesterday, we were doing exactly that. dodging. we're good at that! no seriously! hey, laugh only when i told you to, okay? thank you. haha.

so delighted at the successful dodging we had displayed, we decided to do more. aimless dodges at nothing in particular.. in public. but we didn't care we were having fun making ourselves look like idiots(let's give those people something to laugh about/at). skali there was this bus and i caught someone looking at us from in the bus.

i don't usually give a damn about people staring at us. what are the chances of bumping into them again? but in this case it's different. because we'd probably see him ON THURSDAY. he's none other than our monitor xianyao. looking at us from the bus, with that bewildered plus amused expression.

we get that alot but this is worst because he recognised us!!!!!!!!

so i stopped and resumed sombre look. but ryan was still going on. i didnt know how to stop her. xianyao's grin got wider and i think he was laughing. damn!!! hahhaa! so ryan finally regained her sanity and i told her the horrifying news.

and we laughed some more.

i didn't tell her that lolenzo was there too beside xianyao. UH OH!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHHA. SIKE, RUOYAN xP
Someone special blogged @ 12:54 PM l

not mine. BUT LINA'S!
yea i kind of look round. and it wasn't dessert yet.
mm last night's hair?
the only shot i got of momster's? received a dirty look from her afterwards. HAHA. why can't she be like ruoyan's mother??? so cooperative and sporting. ehehe.

before mini celebration at swenson's, met up with dear friend ruoyan:) loveloves. we had pasta/pizza for lunch. then went FUNLAND? arcade?? yea??? HAHHA. duude, i so need to get back my groove. ..for arcade games? yea. i kind of suck at those!!!!

feeling kind of tired. so i'll end here. i'll blog more tomorrow!!! :D don't blame me for this ..unelaborated entry; i slept at 5am last night?:) but it was good. we talked. so it was awright. yessa.

where's the beanie you promised?

Someone special blogged @ 9:03 PM l

i was at guardian with momster. saw this girl with mohawk. it wasn't a crazy sort, that screams at you from the other end of the street. just a cool, subtle ..mohawk, if that's possible. if you can visualise a cool mohawk, yay for you.

i tugged momster's hand. "mommey look. at that girl's hair. aweshum."

one look and her face drained colour. "i wonder what her mother thinks."

"i bet her mother's cool." a pause. "but you're cooler."

"hm."

"can i have that haircut?"

"i'll kill you, i swear." didn't sound very threatening.

so i gave another shot. .."please?"

"you're a nurse la PLEASE." tone of voice still maintained.

"..not yet."

"your attachment's next month. you're sending out wrong impressions."

"i can tame the hair down. it'll be fine." i picked out a gatsby wax. hadn't had wax for my hair for a while. i kind of hated the stickiness in my fingers.

anything for a simple mohawk. so i put the gatsby wax at the counter.

"like i said," momster's voice over my shoulder, "i'll kill you i swear."

hence i put the wax back to its shelf.

aww.. i'm so loved :)

it's okay. momster turns 32(haha) on the 9 september. i think i know what to get her................ :):) oh yea uh huh!!! you know what im thinking don't youuuu!!! ;)
Someone special blogged @ 12:50 AM l

good morning! :) it's 9am and i'm up. it's the weekend please!!! yea! i don't know why also.... but, well, i'm sure nobody's complaining? right?

i cleaned my room yesterday. just the old cupboard, where i keep my school stuffs. ..where i stuff my stuff. ha-ha. yea. okay. and i came across alot of stuff. stop using the word stuff!!!!

AAAHHH!!! you may click for a bigger image. but no dissing nobody!!! yea, my shoes were the dirtiest! never been washed since i first had it. i miss my handsome shoes...... anyways. yea. i'm kindar short!? but we all know that! ..loveloves. too bad my 3e1'2004 class photo can't be found. but this is good enough. i miss 4e1!!! :O we are sexier bunch face to face, seriously:D we were known to be the class with the most good looking students.... HAHAHAHA.

here, an extract from an old blog during a typical emaths lesson

oh yes. there was that emaths test jackass goh gave us, making us stay 20 minutes even after the bell had rung for dismissal. because we were sitting for a test, he decided to take advantage of our vulnerability. so he thought la!

"i'm the king here okay," he had said in his infamous monotonous voice and that annoying drives-you-crazy poker face. the class roared with laughter. ironic. or not. you would think he said that in an authorative manner but noo! he was like this puny little 10-year-old trying to convince someone 10 years his senior that he could kick his arse..and get away with it.

then justin pointed out we would be having amaths remedial later at 1 and we needed to fill our empty stomachs. jackass goh had said, never mind. linus threatened we would sue him if we all died of exhaustion and hunger. "why never eat during recess?" goh gave a shot. and xingwai chided, "we studied for your stupid test lor."

dennis goh replied with a small hint of victory in his smile: "wah so touching, man."

ooohh yea, i miss emaths lessons:) sriee and i always had the best spot during emaths. sitting right between xingwai's group and chengxi's.... hilarious, the things we discovered. justin, linus and xingwai should have their own comedy night or something. they are so fecking funny.

oh yea how could i forget.. it was april fool's 2005. the day started with a free period. so justin decided to play a joke on dennis goh, so the multi-nation Bchinese people(xingwai, linus sivalingam, suhandy and justin) came up with this award-winning poem-letter.

It goes:

Dear Denny ,

From the moment I met you, I knew you were the one for me.
Your musculine physique swept me off my feet.
My longing for you is everlasting and recalcitrant.
Your eyes, oh your deep brown sensous eyes!
Your finnesse is astounding , unlike I have ever seen.

Your maths lessons keeps me in awe,
and that is why I come to school for.
While everyone else have Monday blues,
I will look forward to the new week,
especially your maths lessons, especially you.

You are the sunlight of my day
The darkness, oh yes you slay
Your look is all I pray
some students find you gay
but come what may
It's just what they say

Though our connection is weak
and our future is bleak
Our relation will be forsaken
because the others may be mistaken
But they say love transcends all
thus my faith for you will never fall
Its just a matter of time
Quando, Quando Quando

You may not know who I am
For thy is not so glam
In my heart you made such a slam
So I'll end of with a BANG!

From the corner , I'll admire you, for eternity I'll be true
Do not probe my identity, mysterious I'll always be.

(heart) Love, secret admirer
** MUACKS ** (heart)
Someone special blogged @ 9:10 AM l

it's that time again :( NO i don't mean the rags...

i know it has nothing to do with me. but it still kills me. i don't know what to say anymore. it's like one minute you're fine and the next...i can't read you, man. and i thought i know you. come on, we've shared so many dirty secrets together. you know when some thing's bothering, you can talk to me about it. but you know my style! i ain't gonna make you talk. i'll just wait.

probably not a wise approach. i want to ask, but i don't know how. i don't want to judge. i'll let you have the autonomy(goodness, lela. stop using those terms! exams are over please!).

oh yea exams are over. ....:) it's over. no more people asking, "what's your next paper?" and my going, "....just some nursing module?" like what ELSE you expect from a nursing course? geography? there was one point i went, "oh. next paper is maths." "

"nurses do math too?"
"yea we need to ...count ..stuff...."
"you kidding right!!!"
"....i am not continuing this conversation with you."

you. hope to hear from you soon.

you'll hear from ME soon :)
Someone special blogged @ 10:47 PM l

to think i dozed off while doing the MCQs. even though my eyes were temporarily shut, my hands continued to ..shade. i shaded like the same letters consecutively? outside the circles and all over? i came to life and went like EEK!? erase erase erase.

yawn.

what can i say. that was the last paper and i am complacent :( heck care attitude BAD. but i'm your average teenage girl with bad hair day(nicole:"HELMET HAIR!" me:"HEY. nobody disses the afro, please!") and as much as i HATE to blame my ignorance on 'phase of development' and 'influence from society' and the fact that we ARE human and we are flawed for life, i just cannot help it larhs.

why is it that even though we know a particular act is considered 'deviant'(oh koolies, i'm putting my sociology knowledge to practice. clemaus lim, how you like me now!?), we still go ahead with it? we know that it's wrong. but does that stop us? not really!!!

the end of exams means the beginning of the semester break.

mixed reactions from me.

i got out of the exam hall, and held out a palm going "yea, who's gonna gimme a FIVE!" to no one in particular, really. but surprisingly i got a couple of response from the people around me. i may not know them personally but who cares if you don't know their fullname? we all had gone through the same torture under the (sports hall) roof together, and ain't that enough?

so we were like really happy and relieved. then as we parted, we said the usuals see you tomorrow/next week, only to realise....we won't be seeing each other tomorrow or next week even...........we won't be seeing each other for a real while, in fact.

:(

but gradually, the smiles came back as we vowed to call each other up and arrange outing some days during the break when everyone has done their attachments :)

altogether now,

it's oh so bittersweet.

"lela, your hair looks like a rocker today la."
"yea, that's more like it. thanks, nicole. i'll miss you too."
Someone special blogged @ 3:41 PM l

gosh there's so much to pen down. from my 1)preparation for psycho(logy) paper to 2)the actual paper itself, to 3)the mini band audition there was in Peirce(AND I WAS THERE AAAHH!), to finally 4)seeing my babe asila farhana!!!! ..and ridwan the OLD FLAME:O oh yea you WANT to hear about that, don't you!! and eventually to the little 5)brief meet-up with nana and ali.

that's 5 mega bits for you. hoho oxymoron right there! 5-in-1. muahahha. you're in for a ride. ......i know how some people don't dig my long winded entries. i understand. no actually i don't.

preparation for psycho(logy) paper was almost as good as non-existant. seriously. i got home at around 7-ish yesterday. i didn't know what i did, really. i think i was chatting on msn with noratiah, discussing about grey's anatomy. yea. anyways. i only started studying my psycho(logy) at around 10-ish.

define studying.

i slept 40 minutes later. i woke up at 7am the next morning. realised i had a paper which i hadn't revised at all. did i do anything about it? no. i left for school, singing my song. with nothing in my head.

so during the 12 minutes bus ride, i tried to cram all the definitions and theories and laws into my head. my head was empty. and it seemed that it wanted to remain empty. i don't know what 'it' is la. but i managed to shove Thorndike's law of effect into my brain. it's an obvious statement theory la. i read it and was like DUHH, thorndike?

THEN GUESS WHAT? THAT TOPIC CAME UP FOR MY SAQ. HA HA. talk about luck, huh. unfortunately it was only 2 marks.......... BUT STILL HAHAHAHHAHA.

went home after the paper. stayed home for like 15 minutes before i headed off to school. school as in PEIRCE SECONDARY. HA HA. it was kind of a spontaneous thing la. hannan said his 'band' consisting of tabitha, wenhao..and himself, is auditioning for a performance slot for teacher's day on the first of september. said there were 2 other bands..so yea. asked me to come over and support!

SO THERE. MET UP WITH ASILA. OMG. i miss her so bad:( soooo good to see herrr AAAHHHH!!! she hasn't changed a bit la:D gorgeous and sweet as ever. so is hidayah. unfortunately we were sweating because of the heat so we didn't go like huggy huggy kissy kissy.

"HOW ARE YOU!"
"I'M SWEATY.."
"..OH RIGHT. yea, it's kindar hot."

did i tell you i saw the VP. tsk. as a matter of fact, the whole kampong of teachers were at the canteen when i got in. so so so awkward. and i was crossing them like..completely out of the picture. then tony the securiy guard appeared out of nowhere and grabbed me. actually no. haha. wells. yea:D he's a nice guy. he let me up without any passes or anything.

"ridwan's singing," asila said, as we made our way to the hall. uh oh. so he's the other 'band'. i was like, hmm i wonder if he can sing. not that i care. i'm just saying. just wondering. so we were in the hall. a band was on stage.

i couldn't see anything? haha. my eyesight is deteriorating. i have my specs in my bag but am too vain to wear them. i am a moron.

anyways. yea. so i was squinting my eyes like, so where's the old crush... hm. i saw a guy with a mic on a stool, ..with ugly ugly pair of tapered pants. nothing turns me off any more than a pair of tapered pants. oh, and guys wearing slippers. but yea.

that was him! that was him! i was like okay. completely casual, completely neutral. only a wee bit surprised. but nothing against him. he can go bold for all i care. i mean, what was i expecting? the same cute and cool little chinese-malay guy with such mysterious aura that he was last year? haha?

as if the pants and the hair weren't bad enough!!! he had to open his mouth and sing. ..of all songs MY favourite song. faraway by nickelback:( he ruined it. he can't sing. i'm sorry:(

this familiar LANKY guy walked by. i stared after him, AMAZED. if you know what i mean...... i was like STOP growing already! if he grows any taller, he would have to crawl out of his house. ..say hi to the birds in the clouds for me!!!!!

another familiar guy walked in after him........unlike the first guy, he's so so so much shorter. dejavu..like i was teleported back to 2 years ago.........HM. WELL. good to know some things never changed! uh huh! uh huh! you know what im sayinnn!!! HAHA.

the second band! thank god. seriously. haha. the second band!!! they were awright! the vocalist is a nerd. but he's got aweshum voice. unfortunately he wasn't singing along with his bandmates. no unity. yea....bummer.

THEN IT'S TABI, WENHAO AND HANNAN. honestly right..i was disappointed. their song sucked. tabi's voice is fine though. i don't know. haha. that thing you do. that song? yea i agree it's kind of upbeat? compared to the emo songs previous bands performed. yea. but..... boo. uh oh! haha.

so....it was kind of bland. asila and i got distracted by a little lame ass peirce version of 'high school musicals' which was happening behind us. "flyiing! soaring!!" it was funny, because they were singing it. anyhoos!

i like asila's groove! haha! when they played missy elliot lose control, she started grooving. and she wasn't like stretching it, you know? wasn't over doing. more like as though it comes naturally. like those baby machines shaped off a car and you push a coin into the slot and it jerked to life? that sort. so easy, so controlled. like, in her head she's working out some choreograph.

GROOVE IS CONTAGIOUS. so i joined in:D i think The Foreign Reject has found herself another DANCERR:D WHOOOT.

BUT BACK TO THE BAND. thankfully tabi-them all did a second song by Oasis. WONDERWALL. ACOUSTIC.

it was WONDERFUL. yea okay i'm bias. seeing i wasn't even there when they performed the second song. because it was five and asila and i had to go. yea. i know. i'm beating myself up for missing that performance. but HEY. what's important is THEY GOT THE SLOT. YEA. so they are performing for teacher's day! YEA. WOOHOOO. AWESHUMMMM.

okay. there was this cute monkey with breasts("get a bra," i laughed.) and erected nipples("hehehe," asila giggled suggestively) at the stop while we were waiting for our bus. she(the monkey, not asila..HAHAHA) was perched on the dustbin, scavenging for food.

...and in her little monkey dictionary, food means ANYTHING she could lay her little filthy hands on.

"EEE. that was a tissue!" asila shrieked. she wagged a finger at the little ignorant monkey, who later jumped off the bin and started stuffing her face with leaves and twigs that she could reach. i suggested asila threw her amaths textbook and i could see the monkey devour it like there's no tomorrow.

AWESHUMM.

i tried to study in the bus on the way to meet/pick up nana:)

"why you so punk?" ali asked. but what is punk?? apparently skulls are. and uh, that thing i hang on my bag? yea. ooohh. labelss....ooohhh. guess that make me a pseudo-punk, more like. don't judge me by the bag i carry! i love skulls stuff though:)

i found out i had 3 missed calls?? WHO CALLED?! i hate it when i get missed calls. who caaaalled!? ..kama called. omg. did something happen!? OH NO. "panic benar kamu," kama said. AND I LITERALLY LAUGHED MY ASS OFF. i was in the bus on the way home.

a conversation with hannan went like this:
"what's that thing on your head called? i dig it. it's good for bad hair days."
"yea! i'm having one. it's called a beanie!"
"...all along i've been calling it condom atas kepala."
Someone special blogged @ 11:09 PM l

picture this. opening the book, reading the first line, highlighting it, yawn. then BAM. you're DOWN like a nacho libre in the ring.

THAT was me last night.

it has always been like this. after a crucial paper, i'd lose my drive, my flo, MY GROOOOVE. no more.

like last year's o's. after english paper i was like HAH. IM DONE. and didnt really mug for the rest of the papers. looking back, i remember saying to noviani outside peirce exam hall(it was history paper), "this is it, babe. i don't care anymore?" but i was jovial! i was carefree!!!

i screwed history paper. so much for staying at the library 'to study with hannan, rasheedi and apriani' the day before the paper? but what the heck. im never good at that subject anyways:D I HAD GEOGRAPHY. MANN THAT WAS A BLAST.

anyways anyways anyways

i love playing ball with PHILIP:D well it's more like a crumpled paper shaped of a ball. a mini ball, of course. PHILIP may be FAT but he's not A FREAKING DOG. so yea.

when im stressed, i'd play ball with mac. i mean, PHILIP. yea. i'd throw it across the room, he'd come fetch it like his life depends on it or something:D it's nice to watch, really.

there was once he dropped the ball from his jaw ..into my coffee. and tried to retrieve it with his paw. coffee all over my notes. but it was cute though! wish i had my camera with me.

so i think that explains my notes. i mean, not only it's coffee-stained, it's also...torn at the edges? yea. whenever im stuck at a theory, i'd be all stressed and schmressed. like AAARGGGHHHH STUPID THEORIES MAKING MY LIFE MISERABLE. then i'd tear the edge of my notes, crumped it and go, "MACKIE, WANNA PLAY BALL!?"

(mac's ALWAYS by my side, so there.) his eyes would lit up and he did that thing with his ears and stuff. then i throw the ball, he'd pounced and chased after it. then seconds later(unless the ball got stuck behind the tv, ..or momster's hair HAHAHA), he came with the ball in his mouth. AWWWW.

there goes my stress. it's like, my stress is channelled into the ball. i am crumpling my stress into a ball. and i toss it out of my sight. out of sight out of mind.

until mac comes carrying it back to me........................

wait this is going wrong.. :O OH NO.

STOP PLAYING BALL WITH MAC.
Someone special blogged @ 10:25 AM l

exam period i am at the most undesirable state a 17-year-old can be. see me put stuff in my eye bags, people. listen to my frustrated screaming, punctuated by the sounds of curls being yanked out of my head.

but hey:D i think it's starting tp pay off. ...only how the feck do i get rid of the bags seriously. 3 more papers and then liberation!! HAH.

then comes another sort of horror..3-weeks attachments. i am thrown to hougang polyclinic for week 1 and then changi general hospital the next 2. so you guys stay as far away as possible from these buildings..... oh god bless lela. i have no idea what's in store for me.

but for now, it's the exams. yea. i can do this, man. compared to attachments, i think exams are ..chicken feet. ..i am trying to make myself feel better so you stay away from this.

today! or this morning, more like... has been a day suffused with a matrix of overwhelming emotions; hysteria, anxiety, apprehension.. all these evoked within an expanse of 3 hours. what followed then was a vague sense of satisfaction and accomplishment that washed over me with such intensity.

IN OTHER WORDS....

bioscience paper wasn't that bad! it was pretty awright! .....then again........

i don't get why some people like to discuss the paper after that. well, sometimes i can't help it either. but i'd rather not know. i mean, it's over, baby! isn't that the most brilliant thing in the world!?! ..at that time!??! YEA! why worry about how you perform?! why refer to the book after the exam to cry and hit yourself over the head with the book(aherm, aherm) when you realise your answers were wrong? why torture youself!?

let's take a turn to ignorance road bliss avenue.

momster said my 'jacket's like karang guni's. maybe because it's like all wrinkles and stuff. it's supposed to be that waaaayyyy. the whole messy look. kind of like to match the hair. so this morning, when i put on the jacket. gmum went like, "isn't there another jacket to put on? it's so wrinkled."

"IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE," i said.

then momster walked out of the washroom, saw me and went, "tsk. ela. quick, i'll iron the jacket for you. it's so wrinkled."

"IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE," i said.

passed gdad.

"it's supposed to be wrinkled," i told him. just in case.

he gave me a toothless grin and said(in english, mind you), "very nice!"

i have a way to eat cereal now. didn't want to be late, i grabbed a handful of cereal and stuffed in my mouth. then drank the milk from the carton. DONE. no washing up to be done whatsoever. and it only takes less than 60 seconds. you can even chew while you make your way to the lift. TA-DAAH.

bumped into RASHEEEDIIIIIIIII!!! wished i hadn't though. not in the state that i was; unruly curls, eye bags to the max, ....and the zip of that karang guni jacket stucked to my shirt and exposed my chest in a process of trying to pull it free.

so i don't know why the Look on his face. tell me because he was surprised to see me. as in, surprised like "hey why of all places would you be here!?" sort of surprise. that's not counted really. seeing rasheedi and i live like across each other or something?

but i was surprised because it was unexpected. i did a double take. it was obvious..wished i were more discreet. don't you think it's like rude to like glimpse at someone, but reoognition only sink in after a second look. like, "hey am i so insignificant that you don't know it was me at first glance!?"

yea well it's just me.

he was like, "hey." and i was like, "HI!?" a little too enthusiastically. no fair how did he manage to sound so cool. another lame attempt to sound as cool. then realised my ..'stucky' situation, and decided to exit ..gracefully... but in vain.

remember the zip caught in my shirt? yea. i had ignored it and it was literally hanging off me. it looked totally wrong. BECAUSE IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE THERE. HANGING. like an empty rice sack... i just HAD to pick a jacket that is BROWN. AND wrinkled. DAMN.

i had let it be as i was afraid that if i continued tuggint it, my shirt would tear. to make it worst, my earphone wires got all tangled up around my neck when i tried to remove my bag. any more movements, i think i'd be strangled. but probably die in embarrassment first.

oh well. pretend nothing's wrong, and people will think so too. ......always always a bad policy. BUT WHAT THE HECK. we got our stuffs, said goodbyes and left. i am always embarrassing myself.

humiliation is like second nature to me........
Someone special blogged @ 3:36 PM l

SHALLY SHALLY!!!! :)

if you comment on this post,
1. i'll respond with something random about you
2. i'll challenge you to try something
3. i'll pick a colour that associate with you
4. i'll tell you something i like about you
5. i'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you
6. i'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. i'll ask you something i've always wanted to ask you

hm. what am i putting myself into!(prove me wrong.)
Someone special blogged @ 5:17 PM l

my dearest momster walked around the house pant-less. i got a shock when i got home from school. like yo mommie where's your pants??? seriously. this is call a deliberate act of indecency. no wonder the cats don't eat as much no more. you put them off their tuna!!!

............i've deleted him off my msn contacts :O I KNOW. THAT'S HUGE. but it's for the best. i think? :(

new blogskin! i think it's fly. it screams IRONY. ah-zank-q.

can't touch this pussy
Someone special blogged @ 12:12 AM l

when i told nurool that i'd rather sit for an amaths paper, i lied.

i'd rather sit for an amaths paper, with my head up my arse. and i am not flexible.

i kid ya again

i'd rather sit for a 6-pages-long amaths paper to be handed up in 60 minutes, without any sort of practice the day before. AND without the trusted calculator. or with a calculator which ain't working. depends on which you feel is worst, then that, it is then.

:( so i'm not enjoying myself right now. and other things as well but the latter, i really don't want to bother no more la. i think it's for the best also hor. yea.

you need me, come find me.

........then again, maybe NAH.
Someone special blogged @ 12:31 AM l

suddenly the next thing was zaffy going, "how long have you liked (insert name here)?" and i almost died with a fry halfway down my throat, with a face of ugly disbelief.

"it's not what you think."

she couldn't comprehend.

i swallowed the fry. took a sip from her sprite. "it's not what you think," i said again. "he happened to be on my mind."

okay wrong approach.

"i mean, it was lecture and it was boring and your mind tend to wonder. my mind wandered and so did my hand........" i wasn't making sense and zaffy was looking more and more flustered.

"okay....... but there were like hearts all over the pages."

"yea well! hearts are like ..standard doodles. i have hearts on every pages of my notes."

"so..nothing going on?"

"nothing! seriously."

"okay i take your word for that."

"of course."

nothing is going on :( suddenly the fries weren't so tasty anymore.

oh yea. I GOT CHRIS BROWN ALBUM HAHAHAHAHA. yea. im crazy. about chris brown, my prince of r&b. im your shortie, baby:) gimme gimme gimme..

sociology paper wasn't very kind :( "according to mead's theory, play is important in the development of self. explain why." that would be 4 marks. and then "list the 3 stages of role-taking and give example?" that was 6 fecking marks and i wrote like 2 lines? haha? i am screwed.

not as screwed as singapore though. matilda is DA voice, what up with you!? "voters..korang macam taik" a quote from faizal. an understatement!!! :(

the sports hall is huge la. it was divided into 3, i think? i was in zone 2. there were 12 rows and even more columns of students.. but only 4 lecturers. so yea. they took like 30 minutes to collect all our scripts. 30 agonizing minutes.

we were all getting restless already. i wanted the papers out of my sight. like they say, out of ssight out of mind. i believe in that. and anyways if in that 30 minutes we could still check our papers, then it wouldnt be so bad. but no! we had to sit quietly and wait patiently for the lecturers to go down the long long long line. there were 4 papers to collect, just so you know.

so there. it was insane, the wait was insane.

felt worst when we heard zone 1 being dismissed. gourd, the noise they were making. sounded like an airplane soaring across the sky. across the sky, but right over your freakings heads. so it was real loud and eruptive and bad for the heart, if you know what i mean. because the hall was silent and suddenly THE NOISE. think what happened to hiroshima..... hokay.

i hope 1028 would cut us some slack la. im sure it won't be as bad as socio, with their theories and many perspectives from many sociological views? what? exactly.

i should be gone.
Someone special blogged @ 11:22 PM l

"how do you feel about spiders?"
"i hate spiders! with a passion."
"okay. so one on your head would be a no no."
"definitely."

a normal conversation with your cousin? think again.

"why do you ask that?"
":D"
".................shit. don't tell me.... there's a spider on my head."
"well, maybe not a spider. maybe an ant or something."
"WELL GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF! seriously. BEFORE SOMEBODY GETS HURT. AND I DON'T MEAN ME. ..or the spider!"
"okay! okay! don't move!!!! i'll get it off.."

there. an embarrassing moment at the bus stop with my cousin :o)

is it just me or do you abnormally pee alot of times on cold days? so i was about to pee.. then i saw momster, looking very disturbed. she had that face..that face when you're trying to hold in your pee. so i was like going, "it's not good for your bladder(if you hold your urine)."

i don't know about you but ever since this whole lela-a-training-nurse thang, every single thing i said that's about related to health, people will believe me. "you eat any more papaya, you'll turn yellow in colour." you don't see anymore papaya at home. "don't bathe at night, your kidney will shrink." nobody stepped inside the washroom after 10. HAHA. before this, nobody ever considered what i said.

"unless you're some kind of qualified, nobody's going to take you seriously." -truth no.43826 from the book of Truth Hurts the Ignorant.

ANYWAYS. i was telling momster, "it's not good for your bladder(if you hold your urine)." then the next thing i knew, we were all running to use the toilet. of course, with my mother beng fat and clumsy and yours truly being fit(anybody standing next to momster is considered fit), i got to the toilet first. and outside standing, she was being all antsy and jumpy. reminds me of mrs, jeya when mr. nasim decided to drop by and observe the class.

"i'm going to break down the door if you don't hurry!" she said, her voice higher than usual.

"have i told you that it's not good for your health if you...." hurry, lela, think of something!!! "...threaten to break down the door?" ....what!!? "you might injure your ...patella in the process?!"

...well done, nurse lela. when in danger of the door being broken down and exposing your naked butt, add in an anticipatory warning and while you're at it, include a medical terminology to make yourself sound very professional.

couldn't have said it any better :)
Someone special blogged @ 8:54 PM l

Something came to me while i was studying for HS1028. that module is so dry, my mind literally wandered to something else, in search of inspiration. YEA FOUND YOU INSPIRATION! HAHA. so this idea in my head, acreaming at me to be let out. so i obligingly left my HS1028 and ..why, let it out:D

actually i was messing with you. i mean, who knows where inspiration comes from and when it comes shooting you with a water pistol. right? thats what makes inspiration so magical. no, not because you got drenched with a water pistol. keep up with me here, please. you're not the one who has been studying:D

sorry i just had to add that. i mean i've been studying! like how surreal is that la.

okay off to serious stuff.... :( i think something is wrong with me. something wrong is about to happen to me. in me, actually. i think i know what it is, i just don't want to acknowledge it yet. HAHA. i am a coward, an ignorant imbecile. hey hey hey we have something in common!! HA HA!

..sorry about that :(

i think i need to go out. i think i just might. i mean i have a book i owe uncle sunny:D it's nana's. UH OH. HAHA. and DID YOU WATCH TV RECENTLY? ..of course you have. WELL there's like a singapore version of so you think you can dance! kindar! only it's a group thing. THAT'S GRAND. i want to take part:D I WONDER IF MICHELLE WOULD LOVE TO..YOU KNOW :D HAHAHAHA. THIS IS SO COOL.

as i was saying..aherm. i realised i've money(HAHA. anyone find that phrase particularly ..wrong??HAHA) so i've decided im going to ..drop by hmv.. and get that album by chris brown. YEA, MAN. he's got cool songs thats so addictive you can't help but dance to. oh yea.

:( still i can't seem to blog this emptiness out. im so hollow. so hollow!!!!! haha. sike. kindar... well. NORATIAH LARRY IS BACK:D HAHA. YAY. many many love love:D tabitha just made my love for images stronger. YEA MAN. nothing beats being recognised:D:D:D YEA YOU THINK SO TOO DON'T CHA.

okay. laters.
Someone special blogged @ 1:16 AM l

Extra Fly says:
are you eating?
temporary high says:
yea
temporary high says:
whoohoo
temporary high says:
lontong
Extra Fly says:
lontong at 0021 hours!? all that lemak and santan down your throat?
temporary high says:
uh huh:)

so i am practically killing myself. think winnie, lela, think winnie!! wouldn't want to volumised like her, wouldcha!!?! :D:D:D NO OFFENSE, WINNIE. if you ever landed here:D HIII. SRIEE AND I MISS(making fun of)YOU:)

don't know why, these days my appetite's kind of like whoa. ......(like whoa? yea i know. but like i would let my lack of vocab stand between me and this entry! HAHA. HAHAHA.)

i used to copy down cool, impressive, blow-your-mind-and-probably-your-guts-if-that's-possible phrases from books and all. i think i have like 5 notebooks filled with them since the past YEARS, MAN, YEARS. ..uh huh! i think i was primary4 when i started picking this up. then of course, i use those phrases in my essays/stories/compositions.

but i realised not only does it slow down my reading(seriously, almost every paragraph there is some sentence that would grab you by your neck..in a good way la), ...it...slows my reading? uh. okay, the santan kicking in!!!!! slowing me down!!!!!

why am i copying other writers' quotes and stuff? i can come up with my own quirky metaphors and analogies and beautiful, poignant descriptive...paragraphs.. and whatnots! yea! so ive stopped using writers' ideas and i concentrated on the contents of their books. yea.

i don't know.... just something random la!

ive been studying. YAY. sociology is pretty interesting, you know??? ..makes me wonder.. what have i been doing during the past (let me do the math) 4 months of socio lectures with clemuos/clemaus/cleaamous/claiehfa??? this is it, huh? i don't even know my lecturer's name:)
Someone special blogged @ 12:32 AM l

it was like crash-into-lela day. i hope all of you had fun seeing me hurt:)

i got poked in the eye by this reckless asshole(being an asshole is already bad, and i have to add 'reckless' before it) who was reading his newspaper and walking at the same time and i, another reckless asshole, was smsing and we collided. almost! because i was quick! HAH. but not quick enough clearly. was like, duude. thanks. i needed that, a poke in the eye on a thursday.

then this fat lady. appeared out of nowhere from around a corner and i practically bounced off her :( She was like, TSK and i was like, "SORRY!!! ..fat bitch.." then i ran. ..because i was late.

i crushed into a seat because the bus suddenly moved. and it kindar hurt. i think the woman driver was out to get me.

oh yea. then zaffy 'crashed' me too :O oh the humiliation after that. okay she sat next to me during lecture. very rare, because i was always next to kama. yea. so she was next to me and lecture was boring. it was some ..question&answer sort of thing. a way to revise the whole module.

so we were searching for answers(open book Q&A), and i got to this page. doodles everywhere. disfigured hearts, quotes from songs, meaningless ..doodling. nothing you haven't seen! im sure you have your own version! then zaffy was like pointing it out and i was like, yea.......... gave her the 'im-sure-you-understand' kind of look.

then i looked at the doodles again..like absentmindedly. looked away. then turned back to it with a gasp. i had written something. UH OH. SHIT. SAVE YOURSELF, LELA. so i cancelled off the particular phrase...the phrase which now responsible for the way zaffy and i look at each other. like zaffy:"hoho i know something about lela nobody knows" and imma like "uh oh zaffy knows something about me nobody SHOULD know"!

i think after studying this module, imma burn this book! ..and the rest of my books. god knows what embarrassing bits i'd written in there! and i think i tore the paper a bit, in a process of cancelling it with all my might. HAHA.

but too late. because beside me zaffy snickered and said the words which sent a shiver down my spine: "i saw it already." NOOOO... so i was in denial for a moment there, like noo you didn't and she was like yea i kindar did. then i pretended to be cool with it but i was blushing like feck. was like, go away!!!!!!! don't see me like this!!!!

:( EXAMS IN 6 DAYS. can you feel the tension? ho this one is a REAL crasher. ooh yea. i hope you're happy now. please come again!

happy 17th birthday, zafirah! :) ps. let the things between us, stay between us ;) nooo of course that's not a threat!!!! :D HAHAHAHA. ..okay i love you already.
Someone special blogged @ 12:57 PM l

HIATUS!!! kindar!:) ..but oh well! HERE. i'll leave with something to feast your eyes on.












Someone special blogged @ 7:53 PM l

its over! the 1028 presentation! but most importantly, coraline kind of liked it! uh huh!!! i feel so good la. i mean, we did it in 7 days, whereas other groups had started like months ago. so who's the coolest sungroup here? WE ARE!

i was so elated i bought a huge plate of mee goreng which i couldn't finish. i didn't know why i even bought it; momster cooked rendang today and i just had lunch at noon. oh yea. bask in the afterglow with me:D

so we were supposed to meet half an hour early before tutorial. and that would be 1230. i got out of my house at 1215. hoho. so i didn't do my hair and it was still wet. and i ran after a bus! HAHA. first time. and i actually managed to board it. thank you driver. stop looking at my hair thank you very nice.

i didnt really care what time i reached, as long as i reached before nicole. so when she called, i was hoping she would tell me that she was still in the train or something. "where are you?" she asked when i was still in the bus.

"uh. im walking. reaching soon...." i lied. clearly.

"HAHA. LOSER! I REACHED FIRST ALREADY!"

"@*$%@!!*)^#%!!!!!!!!!!!!~"

ANYWAY:D i feel we were great! im sorry chuiping didn't think it was 'interesting' but it's cool with us. she aint the one grading us, thank god. well, we wouldn't have done it without the millers, of course. and louise too! she's been a real help. and kama, for the videos!!

it was cute la. i laughed in the middle of presentation. especially the yoga bit and ..other stuff:D i wonder if we could load the videos on youtube.com.

did i mention there was like practically a whole line of students holding out donation boxes at yio chu kang? remember i was late, so i just whizzed down the line, avoiding any sort of fatal eye contact. knowing me, i can't say no to these people! i succumb easily to their genuine gesture.

or so i'd like to believe they are genuine. ..like i'd like people to believe i am all about the charity work and have voluntarily offer my service.

so when i was on my way home, this guy with the box approached me, i had came prepared. dropped a coin, got the sticker(NUS flag day), smiled at the guy who later thanked me and said, "have a nice day!"

"thank you!" i enthused. "i think i will!" i added to myself.

then i got home and my rosy view of the world shattered. :( WHY MOMSTER WHY.

i was about to share with her what happened today when she interrupted me and said she had something to talk to me about... uh oh. momster had that very same businessy tone when she broke the horrible news about my sister. so i braced myself......................

so lets say something not-so-pleasant happened. she wasn't done talking to me, and i remembered closing the door in her face:( not really literally. not like those in the typical drama, where later the mother broke down crying and the daughter locked her self in her room and comtemplated running away from home. HAHA. eh. but yea.

: ( i feel bad doing so. it was rude! but if i stayed any longer and listen to her, i'd feel worst. frankly..i am so disappointed in momster. very very disappointed.

something random.. i skipped psycho(logy) lecture that monday. it was at eight. brutal! so i skipped. should have known better than to listen to someone i just knew for like 24-hours?(sahirah) because it turned out there was a quiz during lecture which was 10% of the exam paper.

UH HUH. GONE. 10%. where to dig out 10%, you tell me! i was so furious la. with myself of course. :( oh well i guess i need to really really mug for psycho. yea...... i think i'll be awright!
Someone special blogged @ 5:42 PM l

probably one of the most beautiful photo i've taken. no i'm not flattering myself. but i'm a sucker for shots like these. if i see a father with his daughter, or a mother with her son, or a granddad with his grandson, i'd go crazy. ....you know what i mean.

father and daughters:) the most beautiful human interaction is between a father and his daughter. i feel so. especially because i was deprived of it la i guess. HUG YOUR DAD, GO!!! :D
Someone special blogged @ 10:50 PM l

i thought the conversation we had was heartfelt. it was honest and we were completely naked with what we felt. then it started going all wrong.

your emotions had me bounded and were pulling me down along with you. but i was in a more horrifying state, because there wasn't anything i could do. i had tried everything, but it was giving out the opposite of the desired effect. instead of looking at you as the victim, the patient, i was looking at you like the virus, the disease, the cause and it made me feel sick. literally.

"you're wallowing yourself in self-pity, it's pathetic to see."
"i'm afraid so."

your negativity was like a fuel to my fire. how could someone so strong yet be so weak? but i wasn't angry with you. i was angry with myself.

you're different. you're too stubborn. i just couldnt convince you. and i felt like i've failed as a friend to make you feel better. and it was so demoralising for me. but instead of swallowing my pride and accepting that i cannot save everybody, i decided to be the bad loser and i started calling you names. "you talked about guys having small balls. have you look at yours recently?"

then to make it worst i decided to be selfish too. i said to you, i didnt want to see that side of you again. how twisted is that! everyone has an ugly side. i thought of myself only; didn't want to go through that phase with you and then lose. i didn't think of you and how you were going to feel. i failed to see that sometimes what we all need really is just a listening ear.

and that was exactly what you needed. you needed a listening ear, not a preacher. and i have to tell myself over and over again to just shut my mouth. i realised there's only so much i can do and the only help that you'll be getting is from yourself. because sometimes to save yourself is to lose yourself first. take the plunge, the leap of faith. you're on your own, but you're not alone because at the other side i'll be waiting for you.

if only you see this. it'd be perfect.
Someone special blogged @ 10:21 PM l

YAY! HOME VISIT. DONE! HAHA. now left with the presentation, which is driving me kind of crazy right now because i still don't have all the pictures that i need, and all the important stuffs are with sarah, who i bet is dancing and socialising her butt off as we speak. tsk tsk tsk! it's okay. there's the weekend! YAY.

omg. home visit was a lot of fun:D YEA. sahirah miller is fecking gorgeous. and we probably owe the millers our lives la. they awesome people. very cool. very sporting.

okay i found out hannan saw me at yio chu kang train station. I KNEW I HEARD SOMEONE CALLING ME. but i just ignored it. because of what happened to me this morning! WHAT HAPPENED TO ME THIS MORNING?

it was.... actually it was noon. just had our last socio lecture and it was 12. so i was with kama, walking into yck mrt. thats when i heard someone singing my name. yea. singing my name. like, "lelaaa oh lehhlaaa.."

flashback* while i was waiting for kama, i heard someone singing my name too. "Lelaaa oh lelaaa.." only the voice was very very familiar. it was RASYIDAH. HAHA. SYID. HELLO, SYID. you had scared the SYID(shit) out of me.

so when i heard someone singing my name AGAIN later that noon, i thought it was syid. but the voice wasn't syid's. it was a male. and it was coming from this group of malay guys. i looked in their direction. all i saw was cigarrette smoke. and unfamiliar faces. so i ignored them. but their singing became more of a calling now. "ni lela kan?" i heard one of them went.

i was still ignoring them. i am so good at this!! then kama was like nudging me, "your friends eh?" "NO," i said hastily, after looking at them again for like 0.3 seconds. "your friends la!" she said again. and again, i was in complete denial. HAHA. i honestly don't know them. ..i do not want to know them.

so when i was at yck mrt again later that evening around 4.30pm-ish, and i heard my name AGAIN, i didn't even bother to search. then hannan texted and turned out it was him. BUMMER!!! he was just done jogging with dicky. haha i remembered when he told me he was going jogging, i had went, "jogging is good! but there are other ways of torturing yourself you know.."

HAHA! damn. who's funny? who is funny!?? MEEEE.

was in the bus.. noticed a whole patch of cat fur on my bag, on the spot where anggun had slept on for 3 nights in a row. so when this old lady sat next to me and started sneezing her fragile butt off, of course i started panicking. i turned my bag to the other side, away from the helpless lady and started dusting it off. uh oh. it only made the sneezing worst.

please lady, don't drop dead, i was praying. or worst! what if the driver kicked me out of the bus!? haha. apparently missing an episode of charmed, to me, is so much more devastating than watching an innocent old lady sneezed to death. just kidding:D it's not possible to sneeze to death. ..right...? :O
Someone special blogged @ 1:45 AM l

their home!

my whacked subgroup! was giggling was i took this. nicole reminds me of a seal.

the family, minus the dad. (bumped into the dad on the way out. very good-looking la! for a middle-aged british man!)

candid! the mother, sahirah and sarah.

JEANS! and ..feet.

yoga anybody?

ow. maybe not..

but nicole's all game. as always!!

we gotta give it to her, man. she's so sporting!

sahirah's a pro. she won twice in a row.

kiss em all. yea, mine included!!!

cheers! to subgroup4! and..the millers family. wouldn't have done it without them.
Someone special blogged @ 10:19 PM l

or is it..desserts spells stressed backwards..? i'm stressed la!! HAHA. i don't sound stress? that's the symptom of stress apparently. the crazy sort of stress. totally different definition. actually it's the same la, only at a different level, different stage. ..different stressor!!

i saw another one today. another one? yea, 'another one'. this one's for you.

you're FAT, kind of SHORT and you SMOKE! like your face isn't enough to put people off, you're actually smoking! and you've got your pants wedged up your butt, come on dude. get out of my way.

no, i'm awright :)

HAHA. HELLO.

today lecture video was interesting:) i loike. you have NO idea what's going on in your ears when you turn on the music. NO idea. if you do, you'd be amazed. and amused. but mostly amazed. amusingly amazed. amazing amused. it's all about the wordplay!

i thought i could chill this friday, being a friday and all.. shake leg with hannan at a hawker center where hady's parents sell mee soto. bitch, reminisce(actually i do the reminiscing, he does the bitching!) and go all emo, over mee soto prepared by hady's parents. HAHA. HADY!! okay i'm getting out of point.

rewind!!

i thought i could chill this friday, being a friday and all.. but it turns out there's a stupid compulsory briefing at 3! and there's the house-visit shit to sahirah miller's house after that(god bless the millers) which ideally we were supposed to do on wednesday! but no! it had to be on a friday!! yay!

yea, i'm not happy about it! whatcha gonn do??

i think i am a perfectionist. i think. i don't know..haha! but i know im stressed! and i'm a tad disappointed. and a bit of crazy fear. paranoia. yea i'm allowed the feel the above emotions mentioned, but the faith in meh? still undeterred. untouchable! can't dent me, can't crush me.

just envy me! ..and try to spot the plastic bag in the picture below.. it's really to show how perfect the moment was..ain't trying to put you to a test or anything like that, honest.


Someone special blogged @ 11:14 PM l

urmph. im not watching project runway no more because nick is out.

it was national cum nurses day celebration. were there to SUPPORT ELTON. RRRAARRR!!!! we were crazy, weren't we!!? they said there was free food. i don't see any!! ..at least we weren't served any!!!! but the cake was awright :) okay my mind's all muddled up now because there's so much to pen down. it's so disorganised, my thoughts. i'll just bullet-point them, whatever comes first. bear with meeeee! thankyouverynice(-nurool).

so we wore red. HAHAHA. zaffy, aisyah and me. HAHAHAH. so extra. i had NO intention to wear red though. i just thought that hm, today's a wet day. so i wore my long-sleeve reds:D wait. yea. so we wore red!!!!

for some reason, what i remember so vividly was the magic show. maybe because i was just done sharing it with lina and syak and they were all rolling on the floor laughing. hey, i'm not such a bad storyteller after all! HAH.

okay magicians are the hot thing now okay. move aside emo-lead-singer-of-a-band wannabe.

i like it when benny the hot magician did the paper bag trick.... okay he held out a plastic bag, and strongly insisted that it was empty. the crowds were like, "yea yea yea! tilt the bag la!" of course, he didnt tilt the bag. because the bag wasn't empty. it was so obvious, it was insulting

benny pulled out a bottle of water. yea. and he expected us to wow him. yea. okay. uh huh. then he said something along this line, "i'll turn this bottle into a can of coke!" then put the bottle back into the bag and then gasped in mock surprise: "LOOK! in the bag! a can of coke!" oh yea that awed us.

"now the trick is to turn the can back into a bottle!" with a face distorted into full concentration, benny put his hand into the bag.....and pulled out the bottle. "TA-DAH!" zaffy and i looked at each other and rolled our eyes. we rolled it so, we caught a glimpse of our brain. we were thaaat bemused.

next trick: he put the bottle back in the bag and fished out another bottle. a smaller one. then he turned the bag upside down, and he had this grin on his face as if to go, "HAH! the bag is empty! where did the bigger bottle go? it disappeared! like magic!"

okay i fell for it, guys. i fell for it. i was like WOW that was impressive! then zaffy was like, "he's holding the bottle in the bag thats why the bottle didn't fall out! who is he kidding!" looked at me for back up and i hurriedly went, "YEA. who's he kidding!? not me!!! TSK!"

he did the same thing with the other bottle and the crowd boo-ed. so he gave in, apologised and said, "i thought this was a kid show." then crushed the paper bag. CRUSHED THE PAPER BAG. with the bottles supposedly in it!! he crushed the bag like there weren't anything inside! even though we all saw him put the bottles in it!!

now THAT was magic:D so the whole initial act was deliberate:) he was just pissing us. he did pissed us, that's for sure!!!

besides the magic show.. oh yea. THE SHS STARDOM. HAHA. guess who won. .....i don't know his name! but it's the feminine guy! please i'm not discriminating him la. i thought atikah should have won. even though i voted for ELTON, duhhh!!! he's our man! yes i'm biased! HAHAHA. unfortunately though, he came in third. but it's okay because he's our idol!!(-vasanthi)

dr. bryan chua was one of the judges... swoooonn. he asked atikah, "are you pursuing a singing career?" and she said, "oh. no. nursing first." WHOOTZ!!!! i wiped a tear and gave her a standing ovation.

let this be the day i fell in lust with a bapok. yes he gave me butterflies!!! which is.....weird....but pleasant weird. i think! HAHA. he plays with the audience la. the eyes and the body..when he sang Sway. wow! he blew a kiss! like, OKAY!!! "you rock!" someone screamed. and he looked a little perplexed, instantly recovered and went, "you rock too!"

so seductive. AHAHHAHA. THIS IS SO WEIRD.

okay then there were lecturers line-dancing. BELLA WAS HOT. okay wrong word! she was so so natural, so elegant, so beautiful. i feel gay now, thankyouverynice. then this male lecturer with a crazy pot belly:D he kept 'free-styling'. it was hilarious. he was such a riot.

i'll try to scab pictures from friends la. then post it here or something:D

did you know..hady mirza's parents owe a mee soto stall at angmokio near banquet? .....HAHA! hannan and i are going to attack that stall friday afternoon for lunch. WHOOHOO. HADY!! HADY!!!!!! ...well, what are the chances of HIM being there anyway.

more random stuff!

nurul maideen is the sweetest thang on earth. HAPPY GOOBER!!!:) michelle is forever hot hot hot. fatass guy blessing us with wheats(!!) and going, "pass exams! pass exams!" CUTE LA HE. i've been observing him and i caught him dirty dancing all the time. HAHA. DAMN. HADY=PERFECT:D

FREEEDOM..!! FREEEDOM!!!!!!!!~
Someone special blogged @ 10:58 PM l

it's august. did you know? time flies is an understatement and i apologise for i can't think of the perfect metaphor or an impressive, mind blowing analogy to describe the crazy rate that time is flying right now. from my perspective at least.

i can only come up with this: it seems time has taken a crazy escalator into oblivion. those escalators in mrt type; you gotta be quick enough if you know what i mean!

everybody has, at least once in their life, gotten their butts biten by mr. reality hence throwing them-pathetic-selves onto the ground, clawing in exasperation screaming desperately, "STOP. JUST STOP THE GODDAMN CLOCK."

okay maybe it's just me. but minus the whole drama, i'm sure you've been there, right? come on. COME ON. can't keep up. can't back down. what to do? i want to smell the roses!!! i...............am looking forward to the rest of the week and beyond.. :):)

i know i know. that totally murdered everything :) can't help it la.

im going to end this the same way i started this. abruptly.
Someone special blogged @ 12:29 AM l

yea..they are a bunch of slackers. don't be deceived by babat's(third picture). may seen very intellectual, sitting on the laptop. ..think again!!! oh, here's another slacker....

slack seem to be the word of the day huh! wrong! my group finally came around to discuss about our 1028 ica:D

we had manipulated caroline, making her think that we're half-way done, when we hadn't even started. but we had watched the first two groups' presentation and had a pretty rough idea on what to do. seemed like fun, playing with the toddlers and pre-schoolers!! too bad we are doing family assessment on an adolescent.... yawn!!

as soon as tutorial was over, we sat around and discussed..over takeaway macdonalds/chicken rice/noodles. louis was a great help. i think. ..though she and sarah could have gone and book a room or something. duuude.. public display of affection is a no-no! :)

i can't wait to start on the project!!! WHEE. i'm sure it'd be fun. .....i hope we can finish it in 7 days because really, that's all that we have left. uh huh! we were given this project like months ago!!!! what can i say!? we never learn.. :)

but hey, i have faith in us:D YESSA.

did anyone watch grey's anatomy!? meredith should have died! ..nothing personal though!!!! and christina ricci is so so so gorgeous. i love her ever since casper. casper, the friendly ghost. pretty pretty pretty!!!!! okay. that was totally random la. oh and i'd like a trailer house. and i'd get maggie to drive it. she owe me big, that girl:D

i hate 76. take years to come. i think i take a shorter time to walk to school. i never make my hair at home. i do it at the bus stop.. the glass reflection. while waiting for the bus, i'd do my hair. people can say i'm vain? but this is more of a measure than an act of vanity.

exams around the corner. yay. work it, baby. work it!
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