Monday, February 27
colours! :)
the greens.
the blues.
the oranges.
eh. tidak. ..wait.
the oranges!!
xD
the moment is so gone.
im sure you heard of the song which goes: dont lose your way..with each passing day. we've gone so far. dont throw it awayy..
......its from an animated dinosaur movie isnt it? land before time.
irony tickles.
MOSAIC esplanade anyone? :D
i heard jason mraz will be performing. THE jason mraz. the genuis musician behind amazing singles like: you and i both, the remedy(i wont worry), wordplay, geek in the pink.
..geek in the pink. :)
Someone special blogged @ 6:12 PM l
Sunday, February 26
schmrabble
i was reading through text messages in my handphone and take it from me, there are plenty. what can i say, im sentimental. i just have a feeling that these cute random quotes from fellow sms buggers will come in handy in the near future...?a writer needs as many resources ;)
i like this one, dated 7 november..2004! which goes: "so have you learnt the four ways to scream my name?" oh hell yea. of course ive learnt the four ways to scream hannan.. :-O
this ever first message from noratiah on the january 21st 2005: "hey dude! arrived in singapore. and they didnt find the gum. well my cousins did and now you only have 4 sticks of gum. sorry.. anyway... yea you still want them? this is cacat."
frankly i didnt know who it was until i read "cacat". a stab of recognition...... only one person i know used the word cacat...noreo!!! and thanks for the gums.. though it was so long ago.
this one from nurul j on the 22 of march 2005: "jocelyn said that she misses you, love you, she wants to hug you kiss you. pinch your cheeks til it turns red and you scream asking for more. mwaccks=)"
..okay now reading it..ewww!!! hhahaha. but i remember we were smsing each other during my chemistry lesson with mrs jeya. i also remember after the last bell, i was so eager to see nj, jocelyn and nabila at the canteen.
strangely, in a twisted way, they always made my day xD
hmm and then there's a belated birthday wish from twins on the 8th of july 2005. they had said they were busy hence the significant date of 5th july simply slipped their minds. i thought it was a sad excuse but hey, ...they had better not forget this year's... haha :D
a more recent one by rasheedi on hari raya haji: "happy i'dul adha... may your day be blessed with slaughtered sheeps..." hahahah! the irony tickles.
i found 2 very very old scrabble board games in the store room. oh the old memories they bring, the old feelings they evoke :)
so i challenged my 2 sisters to a simple, violent-free game of ..scrabble. ive always loved how the patterns turn out in the end :D
i had this when i was still a teeny weeny kid!! ..obviously you can tell. ehhee so kiddy!!!
see the word LOCI? i had a hard time convincing my sisters that there is such word.....
"trust me la. im your sister!!"
"..that is the problem!"
til then. ..and oh. fyi? this is the 26th entry, posted on the 26th of february :D
Someone special blogged @ 6:34 PM l
Saturday, February 25
that's what friends are for
just when you thinknothing could get any worst, it did.
and you try to keep your cool.
you try to understand.
but your patience is running on empty.
there is only so much one can take.
pent-up rage is building up inside you.
rage at circumstances.
rage at reality.
rage at oneself.
rage at the world.
we all feel this way sometimes.
you want to let the frustration out.
but you dont want to go down that road.
there's another alternative..
less aggressive.
its almost 4am.
you know he'd be up.
you know he'll make you feel better.
because what you need right now
is a good, random chat about absolutely nothing.
its funny but youre feeling good.
even though it doesnt change reality,
it makes it more endurable
knowing that even during the darkest hour,
there's the moon to help you find your way.
if it hasnt already.
you find yourself thanking him for his time.
it sound absurb but you want him to know.
and he says, no worries no worries.
we all need somebody.
and that's what friends are for.
Labels: bleedingwords
Someone special blogged @ 4:40 PM l
Friday, February 24
sucks to you
this is it huh. everytime a good thing happens, something bad has to happen right after it.hm lets see. ive got this bad case of throat infection which has been going on for days now. 4 days to be precise. my voice has gone haywire and..i cant sing anymore. yea well but thats the least of my problem right now.
i understand now how mrs jeya felt :-O
oh and i misplaced my glasses. my new ones. and it aint a month old yet. oh yes momster was furious. in fact, very furious. because she was the last to know about it....
okay you see, i told my gmum first. that i had somehow lost my glasses. we were discreet; nobody must know. especially momster. so while we went out, gmum had helped me search for them. ..in vain.
then lina got home from ncc at around 10pm, and gmum had asked her..very discreetly, if she had seen my glasses. at the background, momster was screaming her head off at lina for..obvious reasons. i mean, 10pm???
so lina, being lina, probably thought, ah huh! and mocked, "oh why? ela lost her specs ar?"
you could guess what happened next la. hm yea. momster was pissed off with lina but she took it out on me. for misplacing my specs. she made it sound like it was my fault..? okay maybe it is but.... ah what the heck la.
in retrospect..it was kindar funny:
momster: "ela you lost your specs?"
me: "no. why."
momster: "lina said you lost your specs."
me: -looked at lina accusingly- "how did you know i lost my specs?"
momster: "you did lost your specs!"
me: -still glaring at lina- "my specs with you?"
lina: "no."
me: "then how did you know i lost them?"
lina: "gmum told me."
me: -looked at gmum in despair until momster blocked my view-
momster: "YOU LOST YOUR SPECS!"
hahahahaha. nothing works like gallows humour huh.
oh yes. i was frying something and the hot oil splashed all over me.
:-O
okay. not really all over. just my left thigh. it was fine for the first few minutes. then it started to prickle all over the area... hot hot hot. and now..? now its just disgusting.
no more mini skirts.
hahahhaha not that i wear them. i was just saying xD
really its disgusting. there's this sort of like tiny bubble on the skin which you can burst with a needle... ..i do not want to know whats underneath it.. ew.
dont worry i'll pass. ive had hot iron landed on my left foot when i was young. i still have the scars. which im very proud off :) so this is nothing :D i almost cant wait to show it off.
only i cant remember the pain to be this excruciating. oh nothing i cant endure. :-O this throat of mine is million times worst, let me tell you that.
i wonder how im gonna sleep tonight. im pretty much an agressive sleeper. i toss and turn and kick and thrust and shove... my pillows and bolster end up anywhere but the bed.
looks like i gotta improvise my sleeping position. ow mannn..
shit i think the bubble burst :-O ew.
Someone special blogged @ 11:37 PM l
Tuesday, February 21
black leather yellow leather
..i completely forgot what i wanted to blog about.. :-O okay for starters, its only 1.30am but msn is empty. i mean, where are the usuals?? sigh. its a lonely tuesday morning.i slept the whole of yesterday.. :-O
im such a lazyass. and school's starting soon..i dont see how this is helping. okay frankly i meant to go out. meant to take my gary out, actually. ehehe :) ive never played my g other than between the 4 walls of my room. hm. aaand i wanna try songwriting xD i mean, i write, dont i. surely i can songwrite.
hahaha. rich. this coming from me. the girl with big dreams but..little execution.
hey, but thats gonna change, awright? :D all i need is faith! now who says you cant learn anything from tv programs like grey's anatomy?
i lost the photo i took with ali and nana. you know, the latest one? yeaa.. does this mean something. usualy when i lose something, i get all restless and agitated. but here i am. what does this mean uh. besides my being ignorant. am i? oh im just being stupid. oh okay.
haha that was so random :)
i think im staying up tonight. ..and i dont mean to watch tv. ..well okay that depends :)
You scored as Couch Potato Cat.
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like as if i need a quiz to tell me that. ..i mean, i have my motherrrr. auto some more.. :-O
Someone special blogged @ 1:36 AM l
Sunday, February 19
grr
you know what ticks me off the most? narrow minded people. not because they dont look at things my way, with my point of view--dont get it wrong--but because they tend to get too warped with what they thought they know best; they're too used to it..nothing's wrong with that, really. i respect other people's opinions. i really do. ..but wait till they get too obsessive..they turn aggressive.
sometimes i feel like grabbing him(the 'aggressive' uncle) and shaking him to his senses, going, "what conspiracy do you have against polytechnics!?!? honestly now!" oh wait! but i dont care what he thinks 'is better for me' already. the last i heard he aint the boss of me.
momster wants me to go to a university too but she doesnt haunt me and taunt me like he does. ..and use that bloody patronizing tone on me like im some retarded moron who cant catch words of more than 2 syllables.
frankly, this 'debate' on which education path is ideal to take, is getting old. and im tired of hearing the same thing. i mean hey, ive submitted my applications already for crying out loud.
"poly students can get to unis too," i had defensively said.
"yes but you need to be the top percent..and stay that way throughout." he was quick.
what, he's saying im not capable of that? we shall see.
i used to look forward to weekends. now he has permenantly changed my perspective of them. saturday(the day before) had been hell-ish for me. and now my sunday too.
someway or another..im gonna get you. im gonna getcha-getcha-getcha-getcha.
whoops. heh. sometimes its healthy to lose focus once a while..xD
you know i told you my saturday had been hell-ish. in an ironic, twisted way, im glad it did. there's always a blessing in disguise in any situation, yes? because of what happened yesterday, ive came to realise--not that i havent already--that when a friend can sometimes break you, most of the time they make you..
im genuinely grateful to diehard friends(xD) like nurool and vanessa. nurool, whom i felt so much better after talking to. she just gets me la. and i dont even have to try. thanks for understanding..and thanks for the laughs!!!!! :):) eh, terima kasih la banyak2. aku tak tau ar, ape yang akan terjadi kalau kau takde bersama aku. agaknye aku mampos, pasal jiwang sangat. aisey.
..chatting in melayu so
and vanessa, thanks for giving me the reality check....frightening and harsh.. "maybe nothing did[gone wrong]. maybe it just didnt and couldnt happened." yet much needed to get me back on the right track :)
..but to person 'x' who is responsible for my crappish feeling last night: i hate to compromise what we had, or what i thought we had, however i wish to move on. here's a dirty little secret: i know you felt it. just not the way i did, i suppose...
in some ironic, twisted way--ive said this so many times--life still rocks :D
Someone special blogged @ 6:38 PM l
Friday, February 17
let me dance for you
4e1 class outing next saturday, the 25th. i really wanna go!!! id be funnn.... its been a while since i take some photos. ..okay thats not true. but. i really wanna go to the sentosa gatheriiiing.howeverrrrr ive got date with nurool...shes gonna treat me to swensons!! we're gonna have a biiig ice cream all to ourselves! hah!! beat that!!!
:):):) caaant waaait la. why cant it be this saturday(tomorrow)??
you know i think im back to being the old, lazy, unmotivated, undriven, uninspired, boring me. i havent made my bed for days. wait, i dont have a bed. what used to be a decent bed is now unrecognizable due to the accumulation of books, papers, newspapers, more books, my bag with its contents spilt out..
you get the picture.
i now sleep in the living room in front of the television set.
i think its due to the fact that my caffeine intack has been..reduced recently--.......because some people just refused to stock up the coffee supply at home!!!--hence affecting the energy level, leading to the decrease of overall standard of social(and personal) performance.
apparently its affecting my verbal(not really) dexterity. so what am i talking about!? in other words: IM GOING DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
which poly will accept a total jenny-ass like me. ..but they should really know, the media could use someone like me :D ..but ive gotta compete with other jenny-asses like nurool!! oh this competitiveness..getting into me. and they havent even called me up for interviews yet!!!
im hungry.
You scored as Dance. You should be a Dance major! Like a lithe ballerina, you dance because you believe there is beauty in expressing the physical form.
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whoa check out chemistry and biology! well, sciences have never been my forte. and engineering!? ..how sad. oh ive one thing to say. i love to dance. all sorts. but never ballet. its not me la. so i dont see why they put 'lithe ballerina' up there.
tsk but wasted. there's no dance major in singapore is there? i hope there's dance as cca in singapore poly though!!!!!!!! :-O
lithe ballerina.. seriously. hahaha.
Someone special blogged @ 7:39 PM l
Wednesday, February 15
be my valentine?Not.
As life announces setbacks and obstacles, the emotional heart wills itself like a slave to disappointments and pain. Your life story is like a blurred mirror, reflecting upon your flaws and insecurities. However, once wiped clean, it opens doors to even the greyest areas in you.Be it 16 or 60, for there'll always be a moment to live for and a present to achieve. For tomorrow does not come with today.
Most of our lives are a series of images that passes by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens, and we know that this instance is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it will live on forever.
you must be wondering whats up with the pictures(yesterday's entry. if you missed it, its your loss.). well, i was in school yesterday :) to 'register the JAE' crap online. ......but let us just put it this way: shutterbug + sentimental = lela. therefore: snap snap snap.
lets skip the part where you tell me that i do not make sense.
so there.
hm pictures do share a thousand words. this is the first time i realise ive nothing to say regarding yesterday :) only that i think i might be looking forward to another chance of going back to peirce. ..asilaaa. if you feel like hanging out after school in school, holler me!! xD
oh yeaa. how could i forget. that old lady in the bus... i sat next to this old lady in the bus on the way to school. my ears were stuffedl la, as usual. then the lady nudged me. i peeled the earpiece off and gave her a warm smile.
"young children like you ar, not good to listen to loud music."
people turned to stare. my smile faltered. okay?
"i heard on tv ar, if you listen to loud music in your ears, later you old, you deaf. cannot hear."
i didnt know what to say. ..or do. what, throw my discman out the window and go, "there! happy now!?" yea right. so instead i nudged her back and said, "thanks for sharing that with me. okay bye!!"
i was caught off guard when i saw riduan and farhan in a bus while i was waiting for mine. maybe because of the sick expressions on their faces when they saw me. and by sick, i dont mean unwell. sheesh.
anyway! after school(cehh, like real), ryan, songzhi and i went thomson plaza in search for our much needed caffeine!!!!! ryan bought hers at delifrance and smuggled them into ya kun kaya toast, where i had my iced coffee and ice cream toast :D
ive got my new pair of specs! :D no more squinting my eyes. no more uh, taking the wrong bus...no more having difficulties recognizing people outside without them having to wave their hands vigorously in my face.
...definitely no more asking my friends to look up at the menu for me..........
see what hes done to that little rose? thats what mac thinks of valentine's day.
Someone special blogged @ 11:42 PM l
Tuesday, February 14
peirce!
the atrium! where memories are held dear :):)
our staircase walls(and floor!) are beautifully illustrated....the 3rd storey is filled with the indian heritage. thats mrs. vija!!! ..really.
2nd storey is the malay's :) ....oh i just realise i didnt take the chinese's. ooh imma racist.
:D i just love the walls la.
yeaa :) thats leftenan adnan, the soldier who died defending our country. then thats lim bo seng(i think!?!) and the third is our first president :D ..who holds a resemblence to rasheedi. gasp!!
the library. the outside doesnt do justice to the inside... really..
hello juniors...
the all too familiar corridor to the bio lob :) ryan's looking for mrs jeya.
makcik computer :D shes very humourous. i like.
ryan and i at the lab. the last few moments before we sealed 'our future' with a click of a mouse. ....go figure :)
oh my god its mr dennis goh!! of all the teachers!!!! ..apparently he didnt have a date of this valentine's day, thats why he was still in school looking busy.
the macdonald's area. ....................
the so called forbidden lift. unless your profession in a teacher and you teach in peirce secondary school. ..or if you think being caught in the lift by the disciplin mistress is fun. ..hey you can always fake a broken leg :D
awww..times like these im so glad to be called a peircean :D we're always out to help those in need!!! ..okay get lost. its my turn to be on the wheelchair.
our canteeen!!! very cafe-ish?
the other half of the canteen. boring benches.
ill be back, peirce, ill be back.
ryan's on top!!
mass suicide anyone? ..okay maybe not right now, no :) because right now life rocks.
Someone special blogged @ 9:26 PM l
Monday, February 13
as if we know
ryan and i went to ngee ann poly to 'take a look'..pretended like we were one of them poly students :D looking fly, looking like we knew what we were doing, where we were going. it was fun :)then we went singapore poly.. which rocks, okay? sp rocks so much. besides the fact that we were greeted by a banner which says: "napfa test is coming!"
i am gonna absent myself on any napfa test in the near future :)
anyway. we didnt have to wonder about sp aimlessly, doing 'our thing' which really was 'keeping up the pretendence(?)'. lets just say sp was very organised :D aaand spotted hannan!! of course i didnt run after him. he was entering the males.
after clearing our doubts, we went........town. not because i love that place but because i love hanging out with ryan. shes just so funny.
you know, how bus journeys can be exhiliratingly excruciating, right? and i had brought my discman(an essential) and a freaking book just in case. but turned out there was no need! because ryan is just one hell of a company la xD we talked and laughed throughout the journey to np.
we made plenty of 'acquantances'(?): the noisy and rowdy senior female citizens who didnt know where they were heading, the asian 'home alone', the very pleasantly-aging bald foreigner and his equally pleasant granddaughter who kept staring at ryan for very obvious reasons........
we were in the train from sp to town, okay? ryan got a seat; i remained standing. there was this nice middle-age lady la, standing beside me and ryan offered her seat to her.
she was like, "oh youre so kind!!! but no thank you.." then she turned to me and said, "do i look that old to you?" and i was like, "oh no. not at all!" then silence. and she continued, "you know i was actually admiring your hair." and my face-> O.O
my 'jet black' hair. hm.
Someone special blogged @ 7:50 PM l
Sunday, February 12
feels so good
you know what i love doing with my insane family the most? ..GROCERY SHOPPIIING!!!!!uh correction: grocery shopping at night. when its about to close, when they are not many people, when the staffs dont give a shit about you; they just wanna go home. and you can make as much noise as you want. they just wanna go home!!! haha.
we didnt meant to grocery-shop..(?!) meaning, no intension whatsoever. we were at thomson plaza to get me a new pair of glasses xD and while we were at it, why not go to the ntuc?
before that we went popular.. and there was this television showing blues clues!!! i. love. blues. clues. i think its a cute..uh, childrens programme :)
so i stood there among the other little kids and watched as steve(the guy!!) went searching for clues with blue(the dog!!)'s paw prints on them, with the help of the kids = us. okay. them.
thennnn after dragging me out of popular, we went ntuc. we got the usuals: chocolates(m&ms!!!), ice cream, catfood, breakfast stuff(skippy peanut butter and chocolate!!!), more sweets and chocolates..... some fruits too... :D and some seafood.
there was one time we were at the chocolate section..i was at the far end whereas momster was at the other, looking at some peanuts... i was holding the basket, and she was calling for me but i was too busy making up my mind which chocolate to get.. ...so from the corner, she tossed her packet of peanuts right into the basket i was holding!!!!!!!!
unbelievable la~
i had dropped the basket due to the sudden weight and all the tins of catfood rolled out..one disappeared beneath the shelves.... which lina was determined to retrieve. she lied on her stomach and just reached underneath!!!!! momster didnt want anything to do with us and disappeared at the dairy section.
there were only 3 cashiers. one was a really old lady.....if you know what i mean. so it was down to two. you would think we would take the one nearest to us but no. we wanted to go to the other one..at the other end..beacuse it was empty.
so momster was like, "hurry hurry!!" and she and syak started making their way as fast as their fat legs could carry them :D ..but they forgot the basket was with me. so even when they reached there, they had to wait for me as i took my own bloody sweet time :)
..whats the rush!?! there wasnt anybody around anyway.. :-0
so while momster was at the cashier, lina and i decided to play at the escalator. it was the flat one... yeaa. and it was going down. we decided to take the escalator down and then try to get back up. hahaha!! we're a pair of assclowns :D
of couse we couldn get back up.
so we went all the way dooooown. then had to walk up(there isnt an escalator going up! unless you walk further front which is just stupid) only to find..momster and syak gone!!!!
i went down to look for them whereas lina stayed put, just in case. i found them at the taxi stand. they looked like nothing happened :-0 which was insulting la. "didnt you realise we were gone!?" i was saying. then i remembered lina waiting outside ntuc, probably looking like a complete ass, and i went to go back inside and call her out... ..she was furious :D
we took at the bus home in the end because buses are so much more interesting. anything can happen in a bus :) and..it did.
this freaking huge ugly beetle was flying on top of our heads. thank god it wasnt crowded. we were screaming..in between with delight and fright. delight because it landed on syak's head, and she didnt know it. i was sitting across her, totally frozen. fright because it could be flying for me next.
hate flying beetles!!!
i think i should be gone now. tomorrow's a busy day. hmm. hate flying beetles.
Someone special blogged @ 11:14 PM l
Saturday, February 11
why, temasek, why
temasek poly has so many courses that im very interested in!! so is ngee ann. but distance should not be an obstacle, right? ......nosey relatives are............. sometimes i just wanna tell them to get lost. nicely.nanyang, only 2. and one of them, only 50 will be picked out from an interview. ow mann. i suck at situation where my vulnerability are put up out there and id be judged. which is quite funny, really...considering what i wanna be.
you know what, it really shouldnt matter how much you get. whats important is you get into the course that you want. of course, those with the lower aggregate will be of greater advantage la. you probably has a lower chance.
...then that is your problem.
..so much for word of encouragement.
last night was so funnn :D i accepted a video 'conversation' with da 'long haired weirdo from texas' via msn after much persuasion(i dont know about you but to me, the idea of having to watch him, flesh and all, playing his guitar and singing is very..creepy). but i accepted because creepy is fun and i could learn a thing of two from him. and i did lalalala!
anyway yea. it was funny at the beginning when he wasnt in the picture.. so i was like, aik? then he slided into view. semanaget banget. haha. with his acoustic guitar and texas hat. ..then that toothy grin. oh god.
ive got goosebumps all over, thats for sure.
he tried to sang shine on by ryan cabrera but couldnt. he's not thaaat great :):) he did you and me by lifehouse and that just rocks. then he sang you and i both by jason mraz, and got to the high note....i was like, shit make it stoppp~~~ not only my cat woke up, my gmum woke up too!!!!!
she walked into my room and i had a shock of my life. she was like, "who is that!?!?" and i told her, "no one! its just a picture!" while frantically trying to shut the window somehow. "but its moving!!!!" gmum gasped. then lowered her voice to that uh-uh-uh-you-naughty-girl voice: "is this what you've been up to every night?"
all the while, hannan was still singing and playing into oblivion.... he was in da mood, ya know? hahaha. that was what made it so hilarious. i typed: my gmum almost had a heart attack!! but he was still going on, apparently...
it tickled me; like how am i to grab his attention!?!??! i was like, yoohoooo over herre look up here hello!!!! then he eventually looked up, read what i had furiously typed out and his face undergo a dramatic change: he just went from x) to :-O!! from complete dazed to complete brainless. i could totally see his expression and i couldnt help but laugh!!!
funny, funny, funny. oh my goddd.. hahaha.
and he tried to explain to me something, gesturing with his arms and talking but i couldnt understand the words that were coming out of his mouth. it was muffled and everything. the only phrase i could clearly hear was: do you get it???? and i shook my head. i was the complete brainless one. then i realized, he cant seee meeeee. so i had to type: NO.
he played some of his own songs which are really good :) "love in blind, and i thank you." except for that..jazzy pop he otherwise called the jazzy poop. poop is right. haha. but yea. hated that.
anypoop. couldnt go to the home because my grandpar went johor today.. and momster attended this seminar..so it was just me and syak. lina went for her ncc...
so nice to be at home alone(kindarf alone). i sang out loud in the shower without having to worry about my family members smirking behind the closed bathroom door..... hahahahha. im very self-conscious, you should know that. but yea. this morning i sang my lungs ouut.. felt good. felt soo good.
singing in the bath shoud be one of life's many simple pleasures :D .....seeing your friend make an ass of himself should be one too :):) ahha joke. he rocks la, he's da mannnn...~~
ohh, how could i survi-i-ive.. without true luurve.. and the hope you briiing.. ohh.. even when the sky is faaalling down.. i know i have youuuu.. and its all i neeed..
Someone special blogged @ 9:56 PM l
Friday, February 10
no THIS is it part II
PART TWOlining up to collect the results was madness.... clutching onto norine's hands, feeling her shiver..or was it mine? the atmosphere was just tensed. everybody was holding their breath.
i glanced to my right to the other class. atiqa ali wasnt there yet. meisy, her partner, was alone, chewing her lips. our eyes met and we smiled conspiratorially. exchanging futile(but sweet, nonetheless) good lucks to each other, and we were back to our silent prayers/meditation/what have you.
spotted asila :):) i think shes the one im gonna miss the most la. didnt want her to go, you know. haha. sigh. so sad.
and it was my turn!!!!!!! funny, i was smiling to miss khai(first time), and i sat down, and she smiled and i was like, bring it on. she brought it on. i saw letters. Bs and Cs. no As. no Ds either. so this means,
i passed! every single subject! including physics and amaths. and my english is a b3! b3, people!!!! aaaahhh~~ media and management at nanyang poly, here i come. .....imagine if i hadnt gone speechless in front of the oral examiners, i would have gotten a freaken distinction. i would have gotten into mass communication!! im kicking myself!!
but nevertheless, i was content. delirious with elation. but i was cool, i was cool. heh :D i got up, thanked miss khai, even smiled at dennis goh. my emaths is a b3, people, b3!!!!!
momster called as soon as i got out of the hall. i told her the good news and she was..she was..she's proud of me :)
cikgu majidah caaame~ sriee and cikgu made a cute pair. sriee: "cikgu got missed me?" cikgu: "oh yes. alot. cant sleep at night because of that. ah, yea la tuu." she sounded completely like srieee!!!! xD she counted my r5, even though i told her i didnt wanna know. not until i got home at least. but yea. she counted them and..boom. 20.
for some reason, my spirit was not broken. i was still optimistic. maybe because i had expected worst. ha. ..until hannan called and asked how i did and..and.... and.....and... im not saying im jealous of him. ive never looked at him as a competition before. aaand im happy for him but.. but... i dont know whats this feeling im feeling.
maybe its that..i could have done better because he seriously has. and we've been classmates for 4 years, our standards have always been the same; he has improved but im still..there. so i could have done better. maybe thats why. maybe..
"not going out?" he asked.
"no..my mother's waiting for me back home." .....my mother's waiting for me.
nana, meya and ali were staying back in school..for the rugby match..? i dont know. so i said goodbye because my mother's waiting for me. gave nana a biiiiig hug to tell her that she'll do just fine. i know she will :) because she has us. well, she has meya and ali. yea.
i got home and momster was on the phone. as soon as i closed the door she was like, "ah! she's home! she's here!!!! ask her yourself." and shoved the phone in my ear. it was my aunt. ..Da aunt. argh. she asked for my r5. i told her 20 and she was like, "ceh. i thought 18."
whhaadda!?
"so youre going to do nursing?"
"yea, one of the choices. but im thinking media and management.."
"okay as long as its not tourism(and hospitality). wouldnt want you to work at the casino and everything."
whaaadda?!?!?!
glad thaat was over. but more relatives called :) the phone kept ringing, smses coming inn.. fuh! overall im thankful! :) my mother seems satisfied enough :):) so that makes me satisfied x10!! though she had wanted me to go to a jc. "but you're the one studying so its up to you," she said. "asalkan kau bahagia."
and that is what mothers are for :)
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Someone special blogged @ 11:32 PM l
no, THIS is it part I
we were in the examination hall. i looked at the unfamiliar faces around me. everyone was scowling and they looked like they would love to beat the crap out of the person sitting next to them. then a teacher walked down the aisle, handing out papers. but she skipped me, leaving me completely flustered, with my hands empty. i turned round, opened my mouth to ask, when my phone conveniently went off: unwritten by natasha bedingfield."make it stop!!" shouted a voice.
and i woke up, to realise the voice belongs to my sister, who was covering her head with her pillow. and that my phone was ringing for mercy. what in the world, i thought, moaning at the effort of retrieving my phone from underneath the bed. i must have kicked it off while sleeping. who would be calling at... i checked the time from my digital watch. 3.40am!?
it wasnt a call. it was a sms. .........apparently i had put my phone in outdoor mode. why did i put my phone in outdoor mode?
it was hannan. and it had better be good.
turned out he had trouble falling asleep and thought id be awake. i dont blame him nor am i pissed off with him. i mean, we *are* the nocturnals. only that night was special because its Da day.... i assumed he was nervous but he didnt think so.
"you are a friend indeed," he said when he found out that i had been asleep after all but replied to him anyway. ..wheeee~ im a friend indeed xD
im a friend.. to a friend :)
so that made me feel like a million bucks. i was thinking to myself as i tried to doze off, "what a good way to start the day.....zZzz."
but i was late. to meet the girls. but im sure they've forgiven me :) haha. the 4 of us had breakfast cum lunch at kfc(ooh chickennnnn..) and as always, ryan was high. hahaha. shes funny la~ then we took pictures and walked around j8 aimlessly..
frankly? it wasnt boring. it seemed like boring because all we did was walked.....but i had fun because the company was just great :) so ryannnn, we do this again some time? the 4 of us? ..but never at junction8, ever again pleeeease!!! haha.
it was 1pm and we were in the bus to school. i still didnt feel anything until momster called. only then the anxiety was starting to kick in. butterflies on amphetamines fluttering in my stomach; momster sounded really excited(of course i told her it wasnt until 2.30pm la) and i realised, this is not just about me.
i am my mother's only hope.
we got to school. pretty early la. ..and whats the deal with my "funky"(thanks sharon)hair? muahaha. tabitha, clarissa and sam ann were the best. they were like oohs and aahs and, "cool!! your hair rocks!! you cut it?" and i told her nonchalantly, "no. actually i combed it for the very first time in my entire life." and they went hahahahaha!
i didnt thought they would get my joke. when i said that to my sister's friends, they were like... huh?
you should have heard clarissa wong(da prom queen, ladies and gentlemen). you know how she's very gentle and very soft and so sweet so fragile and everything. but when i said that, she just burst out laughing!! continuously.
woohoo i made clarissa laaugh!!! i made her look like a complete idiot(because she has the reputation of being near-perfect) :D ..a very sweet, pretty one :) wheh wheh wheh.
nana and meya arrived..we sat at our usual table :) but it was occupied with bags. so with limited space, i sat on meya's lap. no i wasnt bullying her. if you see meya and you look at me, you know what i mean. :D nana sat on the floor, as always.. and guess who's the klutz who accidentally tripped over her.
hannan!!! haha! he has got lonnnng hair!!! probably longer than miine! whats with that. even dicky and rasheedi keep their hair long. the 3 of them.. tsk tsk tsk. :D
announcement made. we all made our way to the hall. suddenly i felt a wave of nostalgia :) ..then i saw dennis goh and everything shattered. how dare he!! came up to us, talked to us with that patronizing tone of his. even had the cheek to purposely wave packets of tissue in our direction, smirking and saying, "just in case."
i hope for his sake, he meant tears of joy.
END OF PART 1
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Someone special blogged @ 6:25 PM l
Thursday, February 9
this is it
in less than 18 hours, i will know my fate. this is gonna make me or break me into myriad micro bits. micro very very oh, come of it. life's too short for dramas. as if there isnt enough to go around already. sheesh.
2.30pm..back to your respective secondary schools, where all hell will break loose all over every corner of this island.
but before that! wheee~ sriee and i are meeting up with ryan and joan in the morning to. to, uh. i dont know. but we could all use the company :) i cant wait. .....now do you seeee the irony in thiiis situaatioonnnn!? argh.
..im worried. im worried that im not worried. im not feeling anything! less than 2 weeks ago, just thinking of the results made me sick and i had to lie down. but now, just one day before Da day, im..not feeling anything. im numb!!
is this a good sign? :-O
hmm let me look back.....i remembered the first paper very well. emaths paper 1. disastrous. i panicked. i couldnt fucking finish the paper because i fucking panic. oh god. thats one paper down. and i mean, down. like dooownnnn..the drain, down. :-O but thankfully paper 2 was a can-do :):) so i hope it's not just me. ..eek.
syak just tripped and fell. right in the middle of the room. hahhaha! she is groaning and moaning and in tears, rubbing her elbow. ..just 30 seconds ago, we were all laughing. not at her, but with her. ..haha. funny, funny, all these people are just funny! hah!
where was i?
i remembered english was fun. ..i felt good. a huge weight of my shoulders, i tell you. but i hope its not just me.
im sure youre excited, im sure you wanna know how ive done. so just watch out for this space, alright? no? si? bien.
Someone special blogged @ 10:09 PM l
Wednesday, February 8
hold on right thurr
heyyo :):) or can i say, morns. because its one in the morning. im all alone now. my usual msn-buggers are offline now: noratiah, hannan, nurool just only logged off. its just me.and i like it :D ..its showtiime..
okay i got my strings. so bloody expensive. momster was furious. i could buy a large meal at burger king, and a hershey's sundae pie for 9 bucks..and get back some change. then again, i did had a large meal at bk with momster. haha!
mannn..what are we without fast food.
momster and i were talking over dinner just now..talked about lina, at first. about how egocentric she is and everything. then momster started comparing her with our late dad. dad had a fat ego?? he was the nicest fella ive ever met.
but yea.. today i learnt something about my dad...... some not-so-flattering stuffs. and some very proud ones :) very..touching. but the way she said it, it was like she was simply saying it, you know? thats what makes it so poignant. my mother is so strong. i was in tears, seriously.. and had a hard time swallowing down.
anyways.
im meeting nurool tomorrow :) ..later. during her break. wheee :):) a friend in need is a friend indeed, correct? that and also because i love nurool. whehehe. but hannan was a tad furious. he probably thought i 'made an appointment with another friend' when i very well know im suppose to meet him.
yea i was suppose to meet him but he 'made an appointment with another friend' either. and he wants to bring his 'other friend' along too. he should know how i feel about three's. three's a crowd and i should know.
i should know.
maybe after i meet nurool, ill meet ryan :D that is if hannan doesnt call me up first. he can very persistent. right frankly i was a little pissed off with him la. fine if he's going with audrey first. then go out with audrey. what la, he. argh. i wanna crush him with my wallet.
and ive still no idea how to get to city link mall. ..oh i suck.
hahhaha nurool has given me specific directions on how to get to her workplace. and ive saved it into my phone, just in case. hahaha!!!!! im such an ass la. i dont know my way around singapore..a small-red-dot-on-the-world-map singapore.
eh. modesty is never the policy, thats what i know. hahaha. (im so random..). i was talking to noratiah the other night and we got to this particular topic. if someone pays you a bloody compliment, accept it la. dont need to be all shy and saying, "no la..i could have done better." or whatnot. its annoying!
i always make it a habit to thank those who compliment me :D im not being proud. im just.. not being modest. modest is annoying. ...????? annoyingly noble.?
that previous paragraph does not make any sense at all!!!!!!!!!!!
this whole entry doesnt. its just some random blogging. yea. random. random is good. because my mind is really all muddled up.
or maybe, im just tired!!? ha!
i wish my name was cecilia :D there's this song by a local band, the sons/suns(whatever) called cecilia and it rocks la. ..actually delaila is a nice name too.
nah, lela is the best. wheh wheh wheh.
oh hhahahah my gmum is funny!!! momster was going, "this friday, ela's olevel results will come out." and gmum went, "huh? come out where?"
..okay. but i swear the way she said it, it was hilarious.
ghaz(pronounced as 'gus') is funny too. he was like, "farhan ghazali(that is him), r4 15, r5 19. ..ding ding ding ding! jackpot! lifetime of happiness!" hehh. if i got a 15 for r4, i demand my gmum for a majlis kenduri.
i hate james blunt, much to hannan's despair. i think his voice is absolutely horrendous.. and the fact that my mother likes him(she heard 'youre beautiful' and thought its the sweetest song) is worst. i hate his latest single: "goodbye my lover." i remember that moment when the song came on air and he was crooning, "goodbye my lover. goodbye my friend~" and i just said out loud:
"OKAY! goodbye already!!"
goodbye already.
Someone special blogged @ 1:25 AM l
Tuesday, February 7
luck is just a four letter word
ghaz: good luck for this friday.................good luck the next time i see you.
mom: elaaaa. the results this fridaaay. -big grin- hehhe.
did she think i dont know that!??!?!
me: newsflash. everybody knows, mom. youre the only one who only realised that 30 seconds ago so the one who should be laughing is me. at you.
and she blamed me for not telling her! i was like, what has it gotta do with her!? and i think she took it too personally and refused to talk to me for the next 3 minutes.
feel better after bitching it to ernest sum __ __. weird. i used to memorise his full name. i used to scribble it all over my books. haha! you know, like those lovesick assholes. ahahhahah!! hes single again :) not that i care but he suddenly blurt it out to me and i cant help but..care.
whee hes single again! i think i wanna go to singapore poly, lalala.
anyway, he advised me to: dont bother. and i cant help but agree with him la. i mean its no point being scared shit and having recurring nightmares about it every night. you can even pray or meditate your heart's content; it wont change your answers, or the marks. or your answer scripts wont be mysteriously swapped with amanda tan's(this super smart ass shit chick from class).
just hope for the best. but i? im preparing myself for the worst.
i still remember last night..................
syak has to write a letter to the principal, seeking permission to bring her handphone to school. ..actually momster has to write it la, obviously. but momster's being lazy. then again, her english is atrocious. ha ha. so is syak's. so the both of them push the responsibility to..me.
"slip your phone in your bra la," i advised my little sister. "no need for letters. sheesh. i mean, thats what i used to do when we had spot check. of course you need to position it correctly or else you'll look very, very weird...hahahaha." i laughed because i was imagining my sister with a bulge in a middle of her boobs.
but syak barely moved a muscle.
stopped laughing. serious lets-get-down-to-work face. "so who shall i address this to?"
"dear mr zainal.."
"mr zainal!!!!!!" i burst out laughing again. i dont know why. it just tickled me.
.........where is city link?!?!?!?!??! how do i get there!??!?!?! ..im so stupid. i live in singapore but i dont know where is the city link. or what is it. somehow im too proud to ask for directions. well, i made it very subtle: whats there at city link? hopefully he'd drop hints on how to get there. okay, take the mrt. and then what!? a portal will appear above my head and ill have to jump right in??? what? say a magic word first? oh?
why cant we meet at ang mo kio mrt and head there together? wait, why there at the first place? isnt there a place nearer? i cant believe i'll have to carry my guitar all the way to city hall. i said to meet at rasheedi's place.......................
hahahhaha. imagine that.
where can we go and make noise and not look like a bunch of weirdos :-O
Someone special blogged @ 2:12 AM l
Monday, February 6
don't tell me
remember how i said, the next person to remind me about the release of the results will be crushed by me? ..:) i can almost see it..hannan screaming for mercy as i hold him down with my wallet. who's the hulk now? hahaha.okay i wont do that really. one, its impossible. two, he has generously offered to help me with my guitar so i really owe him :) ill crush him next time.
i was supposed to get my guitar strings today but my love and desire for a hershey sundae pie was too overwhelming. i would need strength of an elephant to resist the temptation :) but i aint no elephant. so i went home with chocolate dessert instead of nylon strings. (i couldnt get both because..heh, no more caash xD)
aaaand i saw dicky at work at kfc. i smiled but he didnt smile back. which made me think maybe i got the wrong guy. hannan reassured me that he just didnt recognise without his specs. ..come to think of it, i didnt wear mine either. so there. i got the wrong guy. its okay. what are the chances of bumping into him again? zero because one, i probably wouldnt recognise him anymore. two, the world is not thaaat small :)
movie/lunch-cum-dinner with ali and nana was..it was fine. the going home part ha ha. kidding :) yea there were awkward moments. alot, alot of awkward moments. where i would let them be, talk between themselves while i pretend to worry about my hair..i need more wax!!!!!!! in other words, i listened to nurool's advice :):)
movie was good because we didnt have to talk. we watched fearless..jet li's last movie. its a great meaningful movie..with lesson learnt and everything.
we ate at cahaya restaurant at far east plaza.. i think that whole hour was the best. the food was yummy, and also i felt i was finally fitting in. finally feeling comfortable. i was meeeeee~ for that hour. aahha. and then it was 6.30pm and i had to flyyy while nana and ali stayed to pick meya up from work yada yada.
i got home before my mother did todaay!! woohooo!!! xD thats one for lelaa and zero for momster. i managed to shower, do my prayers and make my bed before she got back from work. i was telling my sibs: "okay. i didnt go out today. you got that?"
i hope she would let me out tomorrow.. wheeee. im meeting ryaann and we shall hit the town.. again. but with her its different. with her, its f u n. almost sinful kindar fun :)
there's a bug on the computer screen.
gasp momster knows about my friends more than i want her to know!!! she was asking who i was out with just now(i wonder which of my sisters let the cat out of the damn bag..). i played dumb.
"out where seh?"
"movie la. dengan rosna eh?"
....just because they have the same name... "and ali."
"ali maner!?!?"
geeez. "atiqa ali, i mean."
"oh. ashraf's friend?"
yea, ali and ashraf my cousin used to be schoolmates back in primary school.
"nurool?"
"nurool maner?!?!"
"the pretty one la. the one who offered to pay for your specs last time."
whooooa. shes got good memory, my mother. ....oh no shes got good memory.
..im thinking of getting my results alone. no one else. not even sriee. ..okay maybe sriee's an exception because i love her :) but then again...i just want to get the slip, run home, lock myself up in my room, jump on my bed,
im stalling. ..i just dont wanna get the results!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me: "im not ready. i need another week."
hannan: "i know. its nerve wrecking."
me: "nerve wrecking is being in the bus whose driver is half drunk like this bus im in now. getting back your results is wayyy beyond nerve wrecking. so beyond, it doesnt have a name yet."
hannan: "beyond nerve wrecking? oh no. i need my mcburgers and mcfries."
me: "make that mcfries a large."
Someone special blogged @ 8:54 PM l
Sunday, February 5
call me when you're sober
i mute my ears to the music, shutting my world from the harshness of this reality. its all about the survival of the best. or else youre going down with the rest. i think im on the way there. on the way down. on the way down..and i saw you and you saved me from myself..hokay! please, focus.
mary j blige sang: you cant hold a good woman down. christina aguilera sang: words cant bring me down. so you think nothing can bring you down? ..wait till you meet....my relatives.
but let me express my gratitude: thanks for helping my mother and i financially, i appreciate it though. and thanks also, for looking down on my sisters and i. thanks for never taking us seriously, thinking youre so damn grand ey?
hearing them say all those bullshit, it hurt. i kept my c-o-o-l, i just took everything in stride. lina's looking like she would love to bust their asses, but even she managed to chill.
talking about chill, its a cold night outside :):) maybe this will be my remedy....
yes ive been feeling like shit lately. ..wise choice of uh, adjective, lela. very well. i think its the pre release-of-the-results syndrome. ahha. ahha. ahahha. its this friday, 10th of feb. and i swear, the next person to mention that to me again, will die in my very hands. i will crush you with my wallet!!! hah! hah!!
the pre release-of-the-results syndrome, ladies and gentlemen :)
funny how when im feeling down and blue, and frustrated and severely pissed off, all i need to do to feel better is..el musica. of course i gotta sing along to it for longer lasting effect. id sing my lungs out. i dont care what my family members think. besides, we're a family. if im suffering, they're going down with me too.
on second thought, i dont think they mind because if they do, they never said anything. ..this come to show that i have a pleasant voice :D either that or..they're just being sympathetic and know what im going through is just a phase.
just a phase.
or maybe they fear me. ..now i can live with that :)
what else makes me feel better? hmm. this, of course. hah. and my cats make me feel better. i dont know how or why. they just do. i guess they cheer me up. thats what pets do, dont they? random doodling makes me feel better too.
..sometimes the dumbest person ive ever come across in my entire life just has to be my beloved mother.... im sorry. i really am. im sure its very tough to be a single parent bringing up 3 horrible, horrible daughters. but sometimes(read: just sometimes!!!) the decisions she makes are devastatingly unreasonable...just crazy, okay!? they do not do justice to her uh, age. supposedly "older is better", "more experienced", whatnot.
and my sisters? dont even get me started on them!!!!!!
im bitching about my family on cyber space!!!! im just feeling bitchy :) its bitchy sunday. ..monday in 5 minutes time but who gives a shit. ..sigh.
i mute my ears to the music..shutting my world from youurs.
Someone special blogged @ 11:52 PM l
Friday, February 3
51dates
i stayed up after praying subuh and to momster, this seemed almost surreal. "im going for a run," i told her and from inside my room, i could hear shrills of laughter, which held an air of mocking familiarity. ..oh yes. my dumbass sisters'.i did ran. okay i jogged. at the park behind my flat. i didnt jog impressively far. to tell you the truth, i didnt run much. there was this bench and i sat down and watch those folks doing taichi and whatnots. then at around 8, i walked to macs and called up momster to ask her out to breakfast.
i went out with nana! finally!! :D the last time i saw her was that day at meya's house doing the banner. feels good to catch up. yup. yup. and then we visited nurool at her work!! and nana tried on all the shoes there. too bad i was wearing sneakers. the shoes are gorgeous la!!
couldnt visit hannan at his first day of work though. ehhe im dying to know how itd go. hope it'll last. hahaha. im proud of him; his previous job lasted 2 days :) can we blame him? no, we cant.
watching nurool work was..well, it seemed funnn. you know? i dont mean watching her was fun. i meant working seemed fun.
oh, but no regrets. i have none whatsoever. not at all.
im volunteering at the old folks' home every saturdayyyy!!!! wheeee. starting tomorrow!!! :D ....i hope ashraf forgets about our 'date' because..frankly? im dreading it.. :-0 nothing personal though!!!! ..oh who am i kidding. it is personal! i cant stand him :(
okie. next week we're going out again, nana and i..and ali. nana seems really excited about it. and i. and i..uh. i dont knoooo. i havent seen ali for so long. havent contacted her at all.
i guess it should be awright... but if things start to turn awkward, i could always, uh. run. hahhaha. honestly, what am i worried about again???
i hate feeling uncomfortable. who does, you ask? oh youd be surprise.
it would be awkward. for me. plus im a complete flake. i know ive got unsettled issues with ali. maybe she's forgotten about it. but i havent. and the 3 of us havent hang out for so long. i think the last time was.....2 fucking years ago? not my fault that we've got so-called priorities now. heh. ehhe. ..oh i feel horrible.
here's a dirty little secret: i seem to develop an instant inferiority complex when around ali. -self destructs-.
i know, i know. nobody makes you feel inferior except yourself. but maybe for once, this is an exception..? perhaps? perhaps. come on, roosevelt's only human. let us all forgive her, shall we? :D
i wonder what we'll talk about. work? ....what work? hahahha. probably gonna make such a big fuss over me and the fact that im the only chick who doesnt have a part time job. nana has brought it up so many times already today. not including nurool and meya too. i mean, whats da deal, dolls, whats da deal?
you have no idea the kind of hell ive been through. ..okay maybe hell is a harsh word. but things havent really been rainbows and butterflies for me too, you know.
i was a little..bumped. when i told nana some personal stuff and the next thing she was telling meya about it. im sure nana didnt mean to make me feel bad and not that i dont trust meya. but uh..... i dont know. its me.
argh its meeeeee.
hey its nana!
argh its me again.
lelaa ismiley and nana banks.
the sketched-version of my reebok running shoes... bought some time ago. only to lose its virginity 14 months later.
Someone special blogged @ 10:45 PM l
Thursday, February 2
me and gary
no one can make you feel inferior but yourself. -eleanor roosevelt.
if i were my sister, id be honoured to be named after this roosevelt person. not that she was named after her. i bet my parents never knew there is an eleanor roosevelt. or was. even i dont know whether shes alive or not. ha ha ha.
i am embarrassing myself.
oh but i dont feel inferior, no way. -straight face-.
people are always good company when they are doing what they really love. -samuel butler.
..hmmm.
we make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give. -winston churchill.
..oh yea. im driven. oh hey this my favourite:
you cant be brave if youve only had wonderful things happen to you. -mary tylor moore.
well ive got my fair share of not-so-wonderful things that had happened to me. currently, im having one right now. so its not really happening to me directly but it affects me nevertheless. and ive a feeling it will hang over me like a dark cloud for the rest.of.my.life.
told you im a very affected kindar person, whatever that means. or maybe i think too much. so that makes me a drama mama. not that you havent known that already.
..i could pursue an acting career :D id be lying if i tell you i havent been thinking about it.
oh wait another mary:
just take me as i am, or have nothing at all. -mary j blige.
whats with these quotes. well i dont know. just thought id share with you. :D oh hey i just realise..its a pretty day outside. cerulean blue sky with fluffy clouds scudding along. its not too hot, its not too cold. oh its never cold. its windy though :)
i should be out there!!!!!!!!!
but its just me and gary.
Someone special blogged @ 4:51 PM l
Wednesday, February 1
life's simple pleasures
good morning and how do you do? :)list of life's simple pleasures that i L-O-V-E:
1. good music, a good read + ice blended mocha(okay, and m&ms)
2. being with someone i have chemistry with.
3. just walking..a quick stroll around the neighbourhood, just seeing and filling my eyes.
4. a bus ride :) a long one. (i gotta be sitting by the window, though)
5. playing at the swing in the playground
6. taking pictures
7. singing out loud to any song that is playing in the radio..and i mean, really loud.
8. sketching/drawing/doodling
9. when my cats purr..when they cuddle with me on bed at night.
10. helping others.
id splurge on:
1. food for cats
2. food for myself :D
3. support my favourite artistes and buy their albums!!!!!
4. rented books and movies :)
5.
i woke up at 6am and momster and i walked syak to school. yea, baby. 6.35am, and it was cool outside and the three of us were walking...the thing is, to get to mayflower primary school, we gotta walk through a park. which is behind my flat :) and parks are good.
eh. you know what i mean la. trees, nature and everything. breathe in the morning air. reignite the morning person in me.
..okay so i had trouble waking up this morning because i slept at 3am. well, cant blame me. i had good company :) ..or have. because we're still continuing with the text messages. eh. come to think of it, hannan had brought up a good question: "if you could spend this night with someone, who would it be and where?"
i liked his answer: "whoever who would have supper with me at a 24 hour restaurant. nothing special..frankly, prefarably with a girl." yea stead-eyh. -slang-
i, on the other hand, do not wanna be with no one at night. not if i can help it la. but then again, who in the right mind would be up at 7am?? yes, its the morning where id wish for a company..to kickstart the day :D what better company than my own fat mother? ..:)
we had breakfast after that. then we went grocery shopping... may not seem like an exhiliratingly fun experience but... what the heck, it was fun!~ my mom's fun because she can be a bitch sometimes :D she's the typical women of singapore... kiasu, complain queen.. and cynical. not that its a social problem :)
not unless if you dont accept these idiosyncracies. ... :-O
okay momster just burst into the room, screaming, "your grandmother's on radioooo!!" hahhahaha. and all of us (except gdad)just started dashing for the radio in the kitchen. heh. whooa. yea she was on radio. i dont know what she had talked about with the dj. because i couldnt hear a single thing above all the 'ooohs' and 'aaahs' and the comments cousin shafiq, momster, aunt mia were giving.
"wahh, confident!" mother quipped.
"you sound youngerr~" cousin shafiq gasped.
"did you mention about your beloved granddaughter named ela?" yours truly :)
and then relatives and neighbours who happened to listen, started calling up and everything :D gmum's 3 minutes of fame. ..that should keep her contented for a week. something to brag about to her friends, besides the usual grandmumsie rants. :)
ohkay. all the drama over.. i should make myself useful. or something. ..definitely or something haha :D okie dokie. going, going. gone. :-O
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