seriously? what's wrong with wanting something so badly? what's wrong with having desires? ride the highs, dig the lows. cause at least you feel alive! YEA. (words ain't my own. many many credits to the amazing mr. carlos santana)

if you must know, for the past months i haven't been writing one shit. but for some reason!!!!! today!!!! voila! was suddenly hit! inspiration ignited like there's no tomorrow! was hatching ideas like a hen on amphetamines hatching eggs. ..weird analogy! strike that! i was coming up with ideas after ideas. think popcorn in a microwave! think a building on fire and people inside jumping out the window one by one! ...okay! somebody stop me!

it's my time, my turn to make it. like fire my veins burn. like the ocean is my love. CEH. (okay those words again ain't my own.... credits go to the Handsome Burger.)

times like these, i feel like wow! nothing else matters. not even lunch. YEA i skipped lunch! UH HUH!!! inspiration satisfied any feelings of hunger!

what? my hair is on fire? sure i'm going to go bald if i don't do anything but HEY that's not the only thing on fire! uh huh i'm talking about this spectacular story unfolding before my eyes!! i'm going to be okay! what? bioscience practical on monday? sure i'm going to fail if i don't start revising NOW but hey, i'm in a flow and nothing's going to dent me! i'm going to be okay!

so that was me in the day.

me now is pulling my hair clear off my scalp. the internet connection on my ancient computer is not working! this laptop is the only thing that i have now! and sad but true, i don't trust this laptop! and i only have 3 days to study for bio! i've still got the journal presentation due by tuesday! the internet connection on my ancient computer is not working! and i think i'm going to have nightmares of antoinette tonight! :(

but i'll be okay because i've still got that story yet to finish:D but unfortunately for me i've got to put it on hold. yea i may be a wee bit crazy but at least i know my priorities!!!! kind of!! what am i doing here again!!!

haha mind you i'm not screaming, with those exclamation marks. just note if i were to say these all verbally, it would be jovially and very excitedly.

now these words are all my own.
Someone special blogged @ 9:36 PM l

before i retreat back into the mountain of revision that awaits me.........*a wave of dejavu* .....eh...... okay anyways.

screwed i tell you, SCREWED! we were supposed to meet antoinette but we didn't. and bioscience practical is on monday and dr.lam has successfully scared the shit out of me with all the relevant topics that would be tested. the relevant topics are EVERYTHING. this somehow reminds me of mrs. jeya.....

we were outside the hall waiting to be called in for our bio/chem prelims paper.. mrs jeya appeared, looking all prim and proper. even the hair was maintained: "mrs. jeya!!! clues! clues!!!" we screamed. Mrs jeya: "uhm. just................" a little hesitant. "....study everything."

oh wells. so there. bioscience practical on monday, ladies and gents. wish me luck. i sense i need it:D and hopefully antoinette would be satisfied with our nursing care plan..... i've said this before i'm going to say it again: antoinette's attitude is indirect proportion to her size. and it's important that she's on your side. so i'd do anything to satisfy her. .....does that sound gay? i hope not. but yea. i'd do anything.

hannan would do anything to pass me those nano nano sweets he had bought me during his trip to kl. nano nano sweets okay!!! you don't find it here in singapore. so exclusive. THANKS MANY MANY! so good to see him after all these years. ..okay actually only 2 months. but yea. he has his secondary-2 hair!! it's not long anymore!

so yea..... wait. backtrack a bit.....

we decided to meet up. decided. not planned! it was all spontaneous; i like. spur of the moment thing. it almost didn't happen though. lidan called me up and scared me with the whole antoinette shit. then just as i was done with her, sarah and nicole came into the picture. and we had this short (very angry and confused) meeting....... the whole time i was like, somebody save meeee..

hannan saved me. was at the food junction. excused myself pretty abruptly. it was 4.45pm!!! next lecture was at 5.10!!! was hitting my head against the wall. i mean, i don't see him all the time~~~ then i saw this cool spider.

........okay that totally came from nowhere. BUT REALLY. saw this cool spider. it was translucent!! seriously i swear!!!! hence what was the first thing i said to hannan and dicky when we finally met: "there was this cool spider!!!" ..so i'm famous for saying the weirdest of things at the weirdest of time. but the spider was so cool!!!

so many things happened in between. bumped into nurool, carisa and nikki. damn la:D look at nurool go. hahaha. she just went on and on! i was left in awe. this girl can go on forever, can't you, nurool!

left them-boys with them-girls while i flew for my lecture.. didn't want to go!!!! was so reluctant la.. but yea. oh well! i had the sweets! ha ha. okay.. i didn't know nano nano is so popular! shared it with my mates and we emptied 2 packets in a matter of seconds. aisyah and zaffy dropped theirs...... cannot imagine how. you should have seen their faces:) didn't know if i wanted to laugh at them or cry with them..

hannan and dicky was waiting at the fountain. ahha YAY. so i had two escorts home. damn i have so many things i want to say but tongue-tied! and i hated the crowd. it's like we were swept and carried by them. had no choice and scurried along briskly with them. because of that the long walkway seemed like only a short distance. and we had to say our goodbyes.

dicky doesn't talk alot does he! :)

OHHH the momster LOVES nano nano:D apparently she have heard of it. am i the only soul in the world who have never heard of this candy before?

[EDIT] i wrote bio notes on my dorsal palm(ceh! medical term seh!!) la. so was walking..had this overwhelming urge to wipe my face........ i don't know. HAHA. was like, must not rub dorsal palm on face. must not rub dorsal palm on face. must rub something on face!!!!

so i grabbed hannan's sleeve... :O
Someone special blogged @ 7:39 PM l

after all the journey is the destination.
today is random wednesday. showtiiiime........

clinical was fun....... urinalysis. uh huh. uh huh. some willingly volunteered their pee. here's me giving them a standing ovation. *clap clap clap clap* i mean, it's not easy to pee in demand. "okay we need urine samples!" and then you jump and grab the plastic cup: "yup! coming right up! be back in a jiffy."

i think about 7 - 8 of them volunteered their sacred urine? yea:D i don't know..i don't like the idea of putting my little urine in display for observation. i mean it's something intimate, don't you think? ............you know what i mean....

here are what we have observed: some peed like there's no tomorrow!! more than half the cup full!! chrysanthemum tea anyone??? :) some had foam in their urine.. nicole's theory: "must be one of the guy's.. more pressure mah." i had this crazy crazy image of one of our guys, shooting his urine into the plastic cup from a distance. keyword: shooting. imagine water pistol........? yea, yea you get me!!! HAHAHAHHA. oh and one of the sample urine was real crazy yellow. hahahhahaha. okay sorry.

lidan's urine was cloudy. ew. nothing personal. cloudy urine screams at you to drink more waterrrr!!!! yea. okay. i was so disgusted with lidan. at the end of the clinical when they were supposed to clean up their own urine, peiru ended up doing the dirty work for her! like what the feck!!! seriously!!

chilled with nurool, carisa and nikki during lunch:D:D:D:D:D:D

bella pronounced health as hell.. ....hell workers? hell services!!!!!? :):):):) hokay.

I HAD MY SECOND DOSE OF HEPATITIS B VACCINATION JAB TODAY. it didn't hurt. it was very puzzling.. i am extremely bothered by this: the nurse who did the job was a young nurse.. no disrespect really. and while she was injecting the needle into my blood stream, this other nurse walked right in and they started talking..............

well it didnt hurt at first. but my arm's beginning to feel sore.

they had like baskets of alcohol swaps. i took two. ..i don't know what's this obsession with alcohol swaps. i think it started with nicole slipping one into my jean pocket during clinical. i was like, eh thats allowed? took more.

i hope there wasn't any cameras in the room.

was in the taxi with momster.. she was battling with the seat belt like the harmless strip of leather was a killer python. "mommie. you pull the belt first then you put it across and down your chest...no you're not supposed to go completely underneath it. yes.. whee you made it! here, a candy."

i'm teaching my mother how to use the seat belt, ladies and gentlemen! don't i deserve an applaud?

have you ever notice that even though you're surrounded by like hundreds of people, it's still so easy to get lost in your own thoughts? it's crazy up there.
Someone special blogged @ 9:08 PM l

"a beautiful, blooming flower displaying upon you," or perhaps a withered flower lies beneath your eyes?"
before i retreat back into the mountain of revision that awaits me...(yea. mountain, i believe. but retreating???? i don't know!!!?)

it was a change to have someone to walk to school with. .....even if walking with him felt like walking with a human-sized cigarette stick... i wonder what his reaction would be if i had said, "SHARUL. quite smoking la. seriously!" my guess? he would shoot me down. right there and then. in the middle of the walkway. passer-by would step over my helpless body, until one soul kind enough to kick me into the gutter.

i mean, seriously? who the hell am i to tell him to stop smoking?!! "..i am lela and i hate smokers." uh huh yea that would certainly convince him!

but sharul's a friend(of a friend) and he was quite a nice company. so i forgive him. HAHA. no no no.. :) i was desperate. it was monday morning, first day of the new term. so yea give me a break.

i was admiring the beautiful beautiful clouds, singing inwardly along with michelle branch, and sharul literally flagged me down. he was carrying a sketchbook. lasalle. LASALLE. he studies in lasalle.

when he said LASALLE, i went like, "feck you!" very politely. sharul's the last guy i'd want to be exchanging vulgarities with:) it's monday morning, yo. and mind you i wasn't implying anything mean when i said that. he IS talented. i was just pleasantly surprised!

my ancient handphone is beginning to display its...ancientness????? haha.... the time is not right. it jams itself. and if i want to see the time i have to painstakingly do it the hard way......pressing here and pressing there.... the time i take to do so is equavalent to asking 3 different people verbally for the time.............

4 'time's in one paragraph!:) HA HA. i hope that whole shit makes sense...

we were bitten in the ass by mr. reality. as in, zaffy, kama and me.... bioscienc practical is less than a week away. and we only knew about it today...okay not really. but we only just acknowledge this cruel cruel truth today, over lunch/breakfast at macs.

it wasn't pleasant..... there's so much of bioscience to cover!!! ..thank god for the study dates with ruoyan during the hols. but even that wasn't sufficient enough to guarantee me a fantastic grade. KAMA, we have less than 7 days to cover over 90 pages!!!! do you feel me!!? AAAAHH.

clinical was..fun:) we learnt how to 'assist client with urinary and bowel elimination' with the use of 'bedpan/urinal/commode' and the 'application of urosheath/condom catheter'.

..what what what??? basically it's for patients experiencing incontinence..you'll have to use the urosheath/condom catheter... the name explains it la i guess.. you place the latex..thingie.. at the tip of the client(male, duh)'s penis so his pee can be drain into a urinary drainage bag. client does not have to leave his bed. ta-daah. very cool right?

i pray my future clients have very strong bladder tone and splinter muscle:)

during psychology with ivan this morning.........first half of lecture was about Gardner's theories of intelligence, ranging from verbal, linguistic and methematical to interpersonal and intrapersonal intelligence(why am i telling you guys these shit again???? never mind. for your knowlegde:D).

ivan asked to name those with verbal/linguistic intelligence. some shrieked writers. "writers like who!?" he prompted. someone gave a great example: dan brown. then another one hollered back: "Enid Blyton!!!"

try beat my monday, anybody? :D
Someone special blogged @ 7:01 PM l

okay i shall be kind and say that the outing to night safari was fun. to an extent. it was dark!! that is obvious. but really it was dark!! you can count the number of the lamp posts with 10 fingers. okay okay here are the highlights of the trip:

1. everyone reacting to the news that most of us couldn't make it, including andy. zaffy's reaction was cute. she was very generous with the display of her emotions. was like, "AAARGH." i was disappointed shit too! but i didn't go all clenched fist gritted teeth and threatening to hit them 'absentees' over the head with the nocturnal animals. not that i have anything against that impulsive idea.

(i don't really give a damn about the china/chinese girls. it's andy!! why andy why!!!!! hahhaha. okay that was pretty insulting to my girls. it was a joke. it was a goddamn joke la!)

2. picture taking at the entrance of the night safari. the place is gorgeous. so it's man made. it's still beautiful! it's like straight from the tropical jungle. ..wait i guess that is the whole idea.... okay! it's beautiful! i wish i live there and i don't have to worry about anything. i can roam about butt naked and call myself jane. and i know a friend who'd loved to be tarzan.

what has this anything to do with anything?? ..yea. okay. oh. i didn't take any fecking pictures:( what a shame. and they wouldn't allow any flash photography anyway. in the dark it was impossible to capture anything. so. yea. what a bloody shame la.

but the place is gorgeous:)

3. tram ride was heaven....because the past hour we had walked. hell yea it was a long walk. it was in the dark some more. i don't fear the dark. just insects that might crawl up your jeans. sneaky bugs that might fall off the tree branchs and get stuck in your hair. especially MY hair. you know my kind of hair..yea. higher risk of insects getting lost in there. HAHAHA. but yea. and khairul tickled my neck with some branch from behind. i seriously freaked. khairul was so mean!!!

i kept getting out of track! this is annoying!!

tram ride was heaven. the ambience was perfect, ....complete with the smell and everything.. straight from the rocky himalayans foothills to the grassy plains of equatorial africa. i was wow-ed. it was so so so pretty, the night. i like. i love tram rides. you don't have to worry about things crawling up your back and biting you:D

4. some animals which managed to stole our breaths away: the crocodiles/alligators. we were directly above them so you imagine we were thiiiis close to them. and they were giant. GIANT shit i tell you! gorgeous stuff there. can't get them out of my head. seriously. they are so so so giant. and there were 5 of them. or 4. ..one could be a log for all we know. they were so still! except for one. it had its jaw wiiiide open showing us its perfect super sharp teeth. i'd hate to get locked in there.

leopards. beautiful beautiful cats they are. so so so so beautiful. and big. very big. what separates us was just a glass and they were so close to the glass and i had to refrain myself from going crazy! these creatures are beautiful!!!!

spotted hyenas. scary shit there. they are..yea they are huge! haha! you're good. they are huge. they are not in a glass cage mind you. and there were 3 of them big big hyenas looking straight at us. we moved further to the left, they would trail behind, eyes locked on us like we were walking carcass or something. whats up with that son!! was it just me of were they smirking!!!?

otters. there was a row of them, on the log, making so much noise. like some choir whose intructor had collapsed into a seizure but they had no idea...................... how do i come up with such ridiculous analogy god answer me please!!!!

bats! we went into the bats enclosure. serious adrenalin-booster there. we were sooooo close to the bats. they are ugly. ugly!!!!

5. the creatures of the night show:D FUN. the climax of the trip. the presentor, ginny, did a amazing job of controlling the crowd and getting us all pysched. i like her la. she's funny. wikid sense of humour. ..too wikid la, actually. (there was this little girl and she was so rude! raised her voice at her grandmother. like what the feck is wrong is you little fecker! where are your goddamn manners! did the hyenas ate them up! they should have eaten you while they were at it! sorry i hate rude kids. you should too.)

i thought it was for real when this geek ass interrupted the show, hollering for maggie his pet, which got escaped from his..bag? yea. i was like, holy smoke....for crying out loud, kick his butt out of here. the show must go on!!! turned out it really was part of the show. that the geek ass mr. loui was one of the presentors. guess who maggie was. or what. SHE'S A GODDAMN PYTHON! she was gigantic. they 'found' her in some box between the benches. i bet some fell for it!!!! HAHA.

ginny called for a 'strong macho man' to carry the python and this little foreigner boy stepped forward. that was so so cute. ginny was like, "alamak. you, come to me in 20 years time, okay?" then there was this young couple from london; the wifey volunteered the hubby. so sporting la. it was hilarious when they put maggie around the guy's neck and maggie coiled the end of her tail right up between his legs..........................that ought to be uncomfortable~ the crowd just erupted into laughter.

you know what? i think it was all worth the $28:D
Someone special blogged @ 2:48 PM l

its night safari later!! do you feel me!? the anticipation is unbearable. i hope all of us can make it. all of us including andy. this is going to be serious fun shit. ..uh yea. okay so i'm not cut to sound black. fine. let's move on.

last night was helluva shit. crazy shit. we watched scary movie 2 and 3 consecutively in one night. imagine that! rolled on the floor, slapped thighs laughing. unfortunately scary movie(1) is rated r(a); the guy at the shop wouldn't rent it to us even if his life depends on it. aww..a noble act. fine. fine. i can live with that.

scary movie 4 anyone???? :)

this is one of my favourite scenes from scary movie3..where becca played by pamela anderson, and kate played by some blonde with an equally enormous boobs, were talking about a tape when the phone rang.

becca: this is really weird.
kate: yea...big house, only one phone. [picks up phone] hello? [listens before passing it to becca]
becca: hello?
voice on phone: i'm coming for your my precious....
becca: [looks relieved] hi mom.

seriously. scary movie 4 anyone!!!!?!?!?!?
Someone special blogged @ 1:56 PM l

i'd like to quote my dear friend! she said to me, "lela how the hell do you survive without guys?" and "i'm not going to have a boyfriend and be like you:)" AWWWW.. ..i think? hahaha.

initially i find that kind of offensive..? don't worry it's all cool now because seriously... it's all about how you perceive the words. and i perceived it negatively. i was like, "you make me sound like a loser with no social/love life and lives underneath a rock with patrick!"

i felt that way because i made myself to feel as such. even before she mentioned it, i had that prior mentality that...........okay this is getting too personal!!!!!!!!!!!!! :O

i'd like to quote another dear friend! he was like, "lela can i ask you something.. is your hair naturally afro?" ..how fecking amusing la. having mixed feelings..:) please! these curls are au naturel ..or whatever. it's not the shampoo i use, the hairdresser i go. it's simply the goddamn DNA. haha. now i'm afrogirl in his eyes. i feel so exclusive:D

another quote from the same man when he asked what are my plans and i had said i don't like to plan: "you live for the moment. that is very wise."

i don't plan because it's boring to plan. and things hardly go how we want them to anyway. leaving it to spontaneity will spare us the heartache. but how he puts it, living for the moment, is a kinder way of saying all those. i guess! haha. hannan can be very very smart.

it's exhausting, trying to get gmum to take off her dentures.. ......what? WHAT???! can't a granddaughter make fun of her toothless grandmother for at least once in her life? my youth is that short!! okay i don't know what i get by doing so. cheap thrill i guess? ha ha.

"you get me an osim chair, then maybe i might take off my dentures." the queen has finally spoken:) so much for the word CHEAP in cheap thrill!! an osim chair cost a bomb!

how do i survive without guys? eh don't know.. it never crosses my mind that right now i AM living surviving without guys. but if you really want an answer, here goes..

well i AM only seventeen(!!!!). who needs guys and romance at the age of seventeen? i boldly state that guys make very very awesome friends. and i think that role shall stick with them until we're all old enough to think of being in a relationship. thats what i think.

i think. even supergirl don't have all the answers.....
Someone special blogged @ 3:42 PM l

Someone special blogged @ 1:24 PM l

a building...on a tree..something you only see in my sepia world
new term starts this monday. NOOO.. well okay i can handle school alright. but it's a torture, the commitment and the responsibility. but yea. i enjoy school though. this whole thing is very contradicting. i'm having a mild headache now.

today as i was flying to meet lina(was terribly late), this malay guy stopped me. actually he was waving at me as if he knew me. but i didn't know him and anyway, he looked suspicious(any malay guy in the street waving at you is suspicious). so i tried to dogde him. i practically halted for a second and then swerved to the opposite direction. but i think it was his superman tshirt he was wearing; he managed to stop me.

"hi don't worry. i'm not selling tempeh or anything.. ahahak." ..what a lame, unhelpful attempt..like yea as though THAT would convince me to stay on and listen to him. like, "OH phew! you looked like someone selling tempeh though. haha. okay what can i do for you?" and then turned and ran.

HAHAHA okay okay. what the heck. he was asking for donations. was showing me this article of orphans then he said, "pleas donate for these unfortunate children." then hastily added without a flinch. "not alot, just $10."

WHAT! it's not the amount that scared me. it's the fact that he even stated one! i mean, donations are supposed to come from the heart. the amount you put is secondary. it's the thought that counts! right!? anyway i didn't have a 10 buck........that id' like to donate. so i gave him a 2-dollar note.

apparently he saw a red note in my wallet. WHAT THE FECK! he had the cheek to peep! asshole!! he was like, "ahh tu 10dollars tu!" i *hit him across the face with my shoe.

"that's for my lunch." ...do i sound selfish or do i sound selfish. hey, i can't starve myself can i!

"but you have a mother and a father who give you allowance every day right?" he said to me. ...FECKER~ what a dick thing to say la! so i *hit him again. then i actually told him that i myself am an orphan..... unfortunately he thought i was lying. okay so i was. well, there was partially some truth there!!! but what, do people have to look a certain waaaay so others believe they are orphan and go, "awww..he/she's an orphan..here, $10."

i said to the asshole, "okay i have a mom, but i don't have a dad. and the mom doesn't give allowance every day, you know.." he wasn't really listening so i shut up......why did i even bother to explain!!!? so i left him hanging and took off..in a speed of a snail whose shell's on fire. i hate it when i'm late. i'm not used to being the loser.. :O

* i didn't hit him of course. wanted to. he looked like the sort who would cheat on his girlfriends............ :O

okay i realised what, you know..that i'm quite high in hannan's list. okay there's his bro, his cousin ridz and next is ME!!! so he said. i am like so so so fecking flattered la!!! to be third in his list. not even dicky or wenhao or timothy felix is before me! HAHA. do they know this? they should.. move along boys! it's lela coming in third!!! yay:)

he's quite high in my list too. ..if i had a list. which i don't! it's not right to rank people......to me, that is. i don't mind being ranked third. but i don't rank people! it's cruel!!!

"something awesome happened to me today!!!"
"what's that!!?"
"i look more handsome when i look in the mirror this morning!!!"
"why so!!?"
"i think my mole has gotten bigger, that's why!"
"hahaha!!!...........you have a mole?"
Someone special blogged @ 3:14 PM l

today is 20062006!!!!!

to think i was too tired to blog today...(and i aaam tired). was chatting with lina via msn(she was in the room, i was in the living room......i am that tired..) and she suddenly told me:

today is 20062006!!!!!

:):):) I AM SO WOW-ED LA. next time something like this occur, it'll be ....next year, duh. 20th of july 2007. damn!

okay note that i AM tired. however i want this day to be remembered. so that explains this. yea. and to make this date even more memorable, my handsome burger is back:):):)
Someone special blogged @ 10:48 PM l

"ruoyan knows the way." books out in stores now. go grab a copy!! while stocks last! :) okay. so a photo says a thousand words(BELOW). but it can't say the million words that i want to say(..sounds very familiar la..where have i heard that before?) here's the update: ARE YOU READY.

*rolls up sleeves, spits into palms and rubs*

correct me if i'm wrong, but we didn't know quite what to do when we had(finally) reached our first stopover. plenty of dustballs rolled by. this tourists couple aged. ...and then eventually ryan broke the ice, "so i'll take your picture?" hahaha. yea....and also for some reason, i wasn't so much in the mood to take any shots. maybe it was the weather la!! so ryan was about to click the shutter when this guy(working with the tourism) came running. first thing that crossed my mind: "OMG. ..do we look like illegal immigrants.." no seriously.

"hi welcome to singapore," the guy said, handing us a red fan each. "enjoy you stay here." -beaams-

...okay wow. we look foreign. that's never a bad thing:D muchas gracias, amigo!!:)

then we walked some more...pictures turned out sucky:( what's wrong with meeeeeeeeee.. but yea. :) pictures of us at the rooftop? goofy!! retarded*cough. fun!! tried to put the camera on auto, then placed it on the ground.. and was like rushing to get in the frame..... then sriee and ryan had to stop what they were doing: sriee, spelling her name out with rocks and pebbles and ryan ....playing dead in the middle of the path. explains our robotic pose. haha! fun fun.

OH YEA HOR. how could i forget. lunch. at ishiban moshi. boshi. schmoshi?? i don't know. but yea. delicious, scrumptious stuff there. i love it. and the price too:D though the ..seat can be shorten in length.... we shall head there again on my birthday, yea!? this time with joan seow. it's going to be so much fun. ps. i'm not going to have my breakfast this time.

ryan bought a drink from hell. it was hilarious. she was really thirsty and went through so much to get the bottle cap opened(swallowed her pride and approached a clueless guy-owner of a shop, "this is going to sound weird but can you open this for me please?"). only to find out the drink SUCKED. EW. it's like drinking AIR. YEA. go figure! you see a drink in fancy bottle with words: "mineral water fortified(?!) with gas from the spring", think twice. and then think again.

what else was hilarious? hmm..OH YEA. was in the mrt to bishan.. snoozing. and then this fat lady squeezed next to me.. my guess was she was snoozing too. because she kept pushing into me la. and i kept waking up. and had to shove her back with a help from ryan and an army of 10 men.. :) joke.

speaking of men..................... :) there was this man.....:):) and he has the cutest butt :) ..OI. you know it's not like me to look at guys. no seriously. TSK. SERIOUSLY. but this guy he has da butt. it's not too big, not too small. it's round and its perky. and so squeezable. purrrrrr.. but yea. yea. THEN THERE'S EMY. HAHAHA.

only i wasn't sure it was emy at first. but i hit her anyway. haha! almost at the same time i was like, okay if this turn out to be a mistaken identity, then there's going to be a lot of explaining to do......hahha. it was emy thank god. haha. EMYYYY!!!!! had this like reflex urge to hug her. but notice this other girl with her. my guess was it was her girlfriend.....if i did hugged her there and then, then there WAS going to be a lot of explaining. hahaha. EMYYY!

wokay:D

guitars going on cheap!!!! ohmygourdd....free guitar bag and electronic tuner. ohmygourd. there's this pretty ebony acoustic less than 300. ohmygourd. i want:) then there's gary..................well, there's always cash converters:O

yup this is it. i'm at a point of realisation where my life seems satisfyingly beautiful and no impending need for another accessory:) ...........okay so there's that guitar. hahahhaa. OKAY reality check! it's library again tomorrow morning with ryan.. not neccesary something boring though:D but it's to school later in the evening. noooooooooo.

.......i hope wednesday happens....... :)
Someone special blogged @ 9:44 PM l

Someone special blogged @ 6:04 PM l

yet it feels so home.
i've been passing around this>INSTRUCTIONS: Write ten statements, intended to different people - things you've always wanted to tell them. never tell which one is to whom. what you waiting for!!! i assure you after you're done with it, you'll feel so good, you can do anything. complete rebirth, the feeling..

okay what's the coolest thing? auto-escalator!! kama and i went back to school today and being a sunday, it was empty la. the escalators weren't working. so we used the stairs.. being the clumsy ass that i am, i accidentally stepped on the little base pavement at the end of the escalator and then it burst into life! turns out that's how you 'turn on' the escalator. astounding.

instead of heading down to the library for another study after the ica project discussion with them-people, which went very smoothly though we lack 2 more bodies(sarah and nicole, church and camp respectively), momster decided to have lunch outside. agreed on KFC whee!! satisfy our cravings. i can't face another chicken(an obvious LIE.)

what's the most annoying feeling in the world? when you see something that grabs your attention, something you don't get to see everyday, something that will make a good photograph, AND YOU DON'T HAVE YOUR FECKING CAMERA. that's enough to make me feel miserable for the rest of the week. yes THE WEEK.

but worst still..you have the camera but you're too SLOW. i'm still beating myself up because i didn't arm myself quick enough when that little cute doggie stuck its little cute head out of the window in the passenger seat right in front of me.

but it's all cool because TOMORROW i'll be heading down esplanade for some good stress-relieving(what am i stress with again?) camwhoring session with ruoyan and SRIEEEEE. WHEEE. that's like the coolest bit la:D

you know you've been missed when she keeps shooting you questions and questions that are of no relation with the other AT ALL. "so lela how's your cats???" "your grandmother still cooks fried rice for breakfast?" "what else you learning in nursing?" "how's rasyidah!!?" ...ookay sriee!! i miss you too!!

who's the most bitter people in the world? bus drivers. PFFT. but can we really blame them??? ....actually we can..

i hate bus drivers. i mean, what's their problem. to them it seem like driving's a death sentence or something. come on, i'd be thrilled..i mean, a big transport vehicle under my control! and it's my responsibility to drive these passengers to their destination in one piece. i'd feel like superwoman in green uniform and black pants(standard uniform bus drivers wear) with a steering wheel logo.

LOOKING FORWARD TO TOMORROW. lalalala.
Someone special blogged @ 10:47 PM l

reflection of the sultan mosque and many buildings yang sewaktu dengannya.. at the back of a van. but what intrigues me more are the CLOUDS. BEAUTIFUL CLOUDS. LET ME RIDE YOU. ..oh right. okay.
know what's the problem with society? who am i to say this but it's true isn't it...we are a selfish, narrow-minded bunch and we never take other people seriously. yea it takes one to know one. so i'm guilty of that:(

i used to laugh at lina when i found out she would like to be a model. my masculine little sister..in high heels catwalking down a runway. HAHAHA. uh i mean, yea.... the joker, sarcastic, cheeky part of me can be a tad overwhelming. but alas! i'm changing! muahahaha.

it's kind of funny, my sibs and i.. i can see us in the near future: lina the model, syak the designer/make-up artiste(my 12-year-old baby sister's passion) and me the photographer, working together. mommey are you proud of us!?! 30-ish and working together, not going for the other's throats!! ..then again, ......

as i was saying!!!! ..unless you start respecting others, the hell they're going to respect you. it's annoying and very very demoralising if you laugh in someone's face after they share with you a little something that apparently means something to them. whether it's some little dirty secret, or a random fact about themselves.......

"you want to what!? be singapore's first female president!?!?! HAHAHHA. GOOD LUCK WITH THAT!"

"voluntary work!? HAHAHHA. YEA. SURE. so many free time ar?"

"...you like dancing? you can dance or not....."

imagine the hearts you're breaking. the dreams you're shattering. their self esteem you're puncturing(stabbing more like). you get my drift! so STOP and THINK before you speak. that's for normal, nice being like you and me. for the otherwise, SHUT UP if you have nothing positive to say.

mean people suck. nobody likes mean people!

i've made my stand:D i hope you gasp.

sidetrack abit ar: i was so bored, i surfed friendster(lina's account). lina was like, "ELA. FRIENDSTER?? you detest friendster!!!" and i was like, "I AM BORED, LINA. I'M DYING CAN'T YOU TELL." somehow(!!) i landed on michelle's profile:):):) OH she's indian. segal is indian?? fine she's ghetto-indian. i don't know. alahai..she's so hot:) ERNEST you sure you don't want her picture???

:O i sound like a muthefecker p-i-m-p right there.
Someone special blogged @ 1:11 PM l

ha ha. today tada pikcha. JUST THIS!! funky stuff. go on. click on it. i'll wait for ya.

..

boogie monstarz. so the name is sort of tacky. but LOOK AT THEM BABIES GO. they're like..random molecules in reaction. not dancing no more. just reacting. doesn't it make you wanna up and groove?? I KNOW IT MADE ME WANNA. DID, KINDA. WHAT'S WITH THE CAPS, LELA?

i'm just so excited :):):)

study date with ryan at the library. before that we had lunch at pizza hut:D LIFE IS -burp- WONDERFUL. pasta makes the world go round. oh, cheese too. oh and ong ruoyan too:D

studied bioscience(oohh bryan, are you proud of meeee?? *flashes thigh* [inside joke]). managed to cover..quite a lot. depends on how you define 'a lot' la. my 'a lot' is quite generous...so there:) but yea.

smuggled fries and cafe latte from the cafe galelio(?!!?) to our table.. caffeine also makes the world go round:) ..definitely makes ME go round.

there's so much to take in the library! pictures, that is. but ..my camera made so much noise. it was that still and quiet. seriously. i merely turned it on and it went like zzzzzt. zoomed the lenses: zzzt zzzt zzzzzt zzzzzt. pressed a little pathetic button: zzt. trust me, it was loud and annoying.

there was this girl in the table in front of us(me, actually), looking at me with that face people normally reserve for situations where they are caught in Gotcha. i was like, "...chill it, girl. now why would i want to take your picture for?" ..no offence, though.

it's always like that. someone takes out his or her camera, people around go all tense. and the photographer's attempt to get a natural shot..kaput. hey relax. it's only a camera! i promise the flash won't kill!

so it's rude to take a photo of strangers without their consent. but come on.....what can i possibly do to your faces in the pictures?? voodoo? uh. no. i take pictures because i love to, and maybe for my future grandchildren's harmless visual purposes so i can brag about something other than how quick my hair grows, even in the age of 70.

............i'm not trying to hint anything but i want a NIKON D70 :):):) ..okay i heard it cost 1 fecking thousand. fine. well. photography is a very expensive hobby, they say. ..basically i want super camera. those bulky ones. because they make me feel like a professional. HAHA. i'm not hinting anything!

even if i were, i guarantee you'll pretend you didn't get the hint! HAHAHA. I KNOW YOU, OKAY. don't play wimme:)
Someone special blogged @ 9:03 PM l

listening to his silly mushy songs is a bad idea:( now i miss his silly talks. damn. COME BACK SOON!!
Someone special blogged @ 8:06 PM l

this shot was a bad one.. bad angle. i wanted to squat(?) in the drain itself and take the can and blur the background. haha the things one do to get a good picture!! okay you see the pair of legs at the top left corner? that's my bossy aunt. she was laughing at me. i don't get why people always make fun of me. one day i'll be a well renowned photographer and we'll see who will have the last laugh!

me. it would be me, of course. ..yea.

i knew i shouldn't have gone straight home after lunch with nurool. wish i had gone with her to meya's house instead! so i didn't have to go home and face momster's unreasonable attitude.

she knew i was pissed off with her. she tried to some sort of redeem herself or something.. suggested breakfast tomorrow morning at burger king. HAH. sorry! i have a study date with ryan so i guess next time, mommey.. ..when i'm not mad at you! how about that!?

i know it's totally childish. but yea. we'll be cool. i know we will be. thats what mothers and daughters are all about.

i spent like an hour or so transfering songs from my computer to my laptop. after i did so, i BURNT THEM. ..into an empty cd:) WHEEE. your favourite songs in one goddamn cd. i even have one, two singles(haha) from hannan himself in the list. he's so going to flip. technology is my best friend. ..for now.

ps. notice how my posts are shorter now!?!?! I KNOW! HAHA. okay later.
Someone special blogged @ 4:48 PM l

momster made fun of me and called me a fecking tourist in my own city. YEA WELL. i prefer to call myself a sexy alien in my own city.
good morning:)

nothing beats the feeling of knowing that you've not been forgotten. that you're more than just a thing in the past, the tool for entertainment, the temporary companion, until another one comes by. you're more than that.

i'm more than that:):)loveloves. get back soon! we'll watch benchwarmers when you come back:D
Someone special blogged @ 10:03 AM l

beads on a necklace..gone super macro. go figure:)
we all tend to see stereotypically, according to the idea we already have of a thing. anything else that doesn't concern us, fall through the cracks. they go unnoticed. we can't feel until we can see. and we can't see until we take time to notice. details, man. let the details talk to youuu.

we pay attention to what we love and we come to love what we pay attention to. so what is not worthy of devotion?? devoted attention causes us to see a thing just as it is so it can speak to us from its being. we can learn something that facts themselves can't teach: a thing's care or essence. and this, baby, requires patience:D perhaps..not an outstanding virtue of teens la, but still..

okay believe me. anything can be interesting if you pay attention to it. be open to whatever comes and be deeply affected by each experience. pay attention as often as possible and treat everything as worthy of your notice:)

"EH a POTATO! HA HA. cooool.."
Someone special blogged @ 5:29 PM l

first and foremost..i'm sorry for those who i've let down. and there are quite a number so..if you think i'm proud of this fact, i am not okay.

sorry, nurool..couldn't accompany you:( sorry, wany. for leaving the discussion early to 'catch a movie'. sorry, ryan. for not being able to catch that movie with you in the end anyway. i'd like to blame it on fate/bad luck. but i think i'd rather blame it on my momster:) then again..

that's why i hate to plan. i'd rather be spontaneous. like "HEY, let's go out. NOW." less at stake, correct? and so much more fun. unfortunately, momster doesn't quite like it that way.

so many hearts broken in just one day. mine included. i'm punishing myself right now. i'm punishing myself everytime i look at the mirror and the mirror is just in front of me. i'm typing in a way so i don't see my reflection.

i cut the hair, you see. and it's too short. too fecking short. as in, the typical-guy next door sort of hair sort of short. serves me right. i was telling the hairdresser, "SHORT. cut it SHORT. it's too long already."

those who last see me around, you'll probably think i'm blind, or maybe something's in my shampoo that makes my hair grow like super duper quick, or just exaggerating. well, no, no and not really. my hair was longer than it was 3 months ago. SO THERE.

just this morning, nicole randomly went: "lela darling..i cut your hair arr.." then sarah: "huh why? but i like her hair." hahaha i bet she'll LOVE this one. out of the way, louise! HAHA..:P jussskidding.

i found out our neighbour next door is shifting. damn. i'll miss them. i've been living on their wireless connection:O
Someone special blogged @ 6:10 PM l

..is the term h and i use:D wahh, like very pro....(?!) i'm not sure what you're thinking, but whatever it is, i can assure you it's not it. you see, there's grey's anatomy at 11pm later followed by scrubs after that at midnight!!! i used to have noo idea what those surgeons and doctors are talking about....i meant the former, of course:D who cannot NOT understand scrubs?

went kampong jawa today. ..i don't know. said there were vacancies and i jumped right in. "YAY. kampong jawaa!!" in the car: "where IS kampong jawa?"

apparently, it's arab street..? not the main town, just the minies..(?). i don't know. all i know is that the place is colourful:) the people are strange:) and there's so many things to see. so many to capture. it was my day, baby.


Someone special blogged @ 6:33 PM l

sitting outside macs in the wet, cold weather. waiting for the heavy rain to stop. cupping my fingers around a ..cup of hot milo. like its warmth, picture-taking, is my solace. as soon as it stopped raining, cammy and me, we were on a roll. it's a totally different world out there after a downpour.

i meant to do a research on the development of singapore health services. is there any topic drier than this? i'd rather gather information on the different logic gates. ..maybe not.

i came across this awesome awesome awesome blog..:) he's a freelance photographer and he takes awesome awesome awesome pictures. i suppose that part is obvious! but yea! the cool thing is he's an nyp student. he's HUMANNNN. just like everyone of ussss!!! i swear if i see him around in campus, i'll fall on my knees and kiss his feet.

nothing's been happening today. and it's okay:)

nicole said my hair's gotten longer. that's my cue, i guess. i told you, my hair grows in a rapidly disturbing rate. or disturbingly rapid? ..okay. THAT's another cue. HM. now where shall i squeeze 'visit hairdresser' and 'reading' in my already-packed-schedule!? so much for the 2-weeks term break!!! there are so many projects/ica to be completed by week 11. and i'm probably going back to school this whole week.

no, i'm not complaining. NIGHT SAFARI with the beloved class on the 24th?? botanical garden on the 19th? and more family/friends outings in the middle? and all these means camwhoring my heart's content. so who am i to complain?
Someone special blogged @ 10:02 PM l

the only pictures i can find in this laptop are pictures of (our)cats. so there. make do:)
i heard my aunt wants to adopt a kid?? she has a husband and 2 adult children who are working and thus, hardly at home. so i guess that explains a lot. she's always over our house, you see. so maybe she misses the nostalgic atmosphere of having..younger kids around in the house.. just like she can feel here. nostalgic? i think she meant 'crazy'.

yup. here, it's crazy. sometimes i feel embarrassed when i have visitors/relatives over. ..only sometimes:) most of the time, i tell myself: if you can't stop them(the craziness), then join them.

i woke up at noon today. what a way to start the term break. i hate it when i sleep through the morning..without no guilty-pleasurable intension whatsoever. so to punish myself and make sure i won't repeat the honest mistake, ..i decided to study. not sure what i wanted to study first so i did the only most sensible thing: toss the coin. biological science!!:)

unfortunately!!! anggun(my other cat) was fast asleep on my bag. still is. ..actually she's sleeping in my bag, which has been left unzipped. so..yea. she looks so cute!! don't have the heart to interrupt her cat nap so i leave her be. also equivalent to leaving my studying be. hence why i'm here.

i always have this weird feeling when i think of dr.lam kam on. i think it's called respect..with a little bit of something else i can't put my fingers on. when i see him around the corner, i tend to walk the other way. i don't know how some students could scream from other end of the corridor, "EH HELLO DR. LAM!" whenever they spot him walking wearily...and he only manages a small smile, which disappears as quickly as it appears.... i wonder what's on his mind. i wonder all the time.

you know what i'd like? to sit down and have coffee and have a small intellectual conversation with him. or with anyone of the doctors lecturers. i mean, they are doctors/big professionals. and they chose to teach us students. to share with us their vast knowledge. i think that's big.

remember primary/secondary schools? we were taught to stand up and greet our teachers and after lesson ends, we thank them? it's a pity we don't do that anymore in the tertiary education. as soon as we see the references slide on the screen(which usually indicates the end of the powerpoint), we up and leave.

if anything, i think these lecturers deserve a big fat thank you from us. even if we don't actually pay attention to what they are lecturing, and they know it, yet they continue to, keeping the faith that maybe some of us are actually listening. well, i do listen(MOST of the time). so this is me and I THANK YOU.
Someone special blogged @ 2:36 PM l

hello:) EPLAZA IS THE PLACE TO BEEE. i should have been here, not at the library, where i was during the 3-agonizing-hour break. where i ended up snoring my ass off. of course i didn't snore. that was just a figure of speech. anywaysm. wish me luck on my psychology ica/major test. it's at 5... i've a feeling i might need it:) i only started studying the day before.

the day before, having dismissed at one-freaking-thirty pm, i decided to catch a movie with my beloved sibs(they are always there:)). we watched OVER THE HEDGE. fecking cute la..i don't mind catching it again. it's all about FAMILYYY. and coincidentally, during the lecture i was having, they were also emphasizing on the importance of family.. and definition of family can be someone you're living together with; not necessarily related to you or anything.

WHEEEE.

hannan made a song..and i'm in it. unfortunately, it's nothing romantic or anything! it's one of his lame sometimes crude songs. so there! haha. but really, nobody ever made a song with me in it. so in a way it's very flattering! ..in a very very disturbing way:)

another disturbing thing is my hair and the crazy rate it's growing..........

EH ohmygourd it's FRIDAY. you know what that fecking means. term break term break term break!! I AM SO READY. come to mommey!

speaking of mommey..mine pissed me off this morning. and we got into this massive arguement.... i won't say what about because it was really something trivial.... we weren't really really argueing. just talking. ..really angrily. and a little loudly. she kept bugging me to bring along an umbrella, and hurrying me to get out of the house before it started pouring. okay i understand where she was coming from but it was so irritating. i'm turning 17 in less than a month time. i know what i'm doiiiiinnnnnngggggg...

when i stepped out of the house, bumped into my neighbour and she was like, "eh. raining soon leh. better bring umbrella." .....AAARGGGH.

okay friends are getting annoyed with my 'aggressive' typings:) HAHA. they were like, "you blogging??? you have a blog???" and i was like NO. AND NO :P

so later.
Someone special blogged @ 3:27 PM l

YEA. bb on skateboard! babatboy cum skatercat:)
speaking of which..imagine lela the skaterqueen of SHS, NYP. as if i'm not cool enough! HA HA. i just had to give it a shot. ..and almost died trying..... oh well. it had been fun while it lasted. and it lasted like 6 seconds. was: "wheee i'm skaati~~~aaahhhh!!!!!" ..NOT a cry of elation, mind you. NOT.

i'm such a total klutz today:( i walked into bins/walls/doors/people, tripped over foot of chairs/my own foot. but nothing beats spilling water all over the floor during clinical. as if that wasn't sad enough, i spilt it on miss ong as well. AND as if that wasn't tragic enough as it was already, she had to make it look like it was completely my fault!!

.......okay so maybe it was!! but i wasn't doing it on purpose, was i? no i wasn't! so i never liked her, but seriously.......water???? "luckily it's not vinegar," she said, looking at me disapprovingly. and i was like..not vinegar? damn:D

so duh i had to clean it up. i pulled out a pile of tissues so thick that it probably accounted for the deforestation of 3 countries and started wiping. next thing i knew, everyone was helping me out:):) it was so sweet. i was moved. really, some were on their hands and knees with me, others were passing us more tissues.. and it was all done in such short time. could have won the gold award if this were a race.

it takes an accident for you to appreciate:) i thank you, 0622! love you guys.

there was like this fair in the atrium today? yea..the kids from marketing services in school were selling stuffs; clothes and earrings, and more clothes and things like that.. and i was there with kama, accompanying her shopping. yup. imagine that. shopping in campus. talk about convenience.. ..more like, guilty pleasure! kama bought 2 tops for a reasonable prize.

then while we were there, there was also this fashion show? yea. runway and everything. there was a row of skinny, pretty girls in pretty clothes all psyched for their 30 seconds of fame. then at the other end of the runway was like a big crowd of guys... hahaha guilty pleasure alright!!! hahahah!

then kama nudged me and said MICHELLE was one of them. ..one of the guys?? OH one of the models!!? ohmygourd. i joined the crowd. HHAHAHHA. the fashion show was so boring. the models were lame. but what do i know? haha. then came the moment i was waiting for.. michelle's turn:D ernest, are you ready?? hahahha.

unlike the others, she came out bursting with spunk and sexuality. swooon!! i swear my heart just stopped. she did the thang she always does when she dances. her catwalk was so deliberately sexaaye. i like it when she twirled her braids. so suggestive!!... FUHH. she hit her pose and we all died. we as in the boys and me. HAHAHA. ohmygourd la.

come to think of it..she made the clothes she was modelling look so damn good. and that's just amazing la. because clothes don't make you look good. YOU make the clothes look good. not many people can carry that:D michelle just did and that's just hot. the great thing was, when she was up there, she smiled at me. SHE SMILED AT ME. jealous, boyyys???? uh huh uh huh!! ;)

sociology ica..wasn't pretty. couldn't cheat! not that i was planning to? yea:) they very smart.. they printed the same exam paper ..differently. so the questions were all muddled up. and they placed it alternately. so the person next to you do not have the same order of questions like you do. so there. can't really cheat. you can, but by the time you and your partner sort out what question to ask, you'll be spotted:D haha i was like so..wow-ed. smart la..

2 more days. ohmygourd. term break. term break. term break.
Someone special blogged @ 6:05 PM l

lelaa ismail -- [noun]: A person who laughs at anything (even this entry) 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

yea. hahahaha.

today i overslept! as much as i liked to say that i spent the whole night studying for sociology, well no. let's skip the whole explanation bit. i had class at 8! i thought i would be late, though. but i was like supergirl; i got dressed and everything by 30 minutes. usually i bathe for 30 minutes:) so there. i was supergirl! then i stepped on my own shoe lace and almost fell flat just as i was boarding the bus and that murdered the moment completely.

it's crazy tuesday! ..funny, i should have said this in the beginning but oh well! it's crazy tuesday!! all i remember about today is lots of HAHAHA. we had so much laughs:) i think it's this new shirt i bought which says in the front: "these are the guys i had a crush on(that i can remember)" followed by rows and rows of ..comically-drawn faces of random guys. hehe.

i finally slid down the banister(take note it's crazy tuesday today). been wanting to do that since week 1. so there. i slid down the banister!!! like a hundred thousand times! i had kamaria to keep a lookout for testy lecturers and suspicious students. the chest and the pelvis area(CEHH..) hurts for the 100 001-th slide. so i reluctantly stopped.

we came across a cheeky spider! HAHAHA. it crawled across the table hurriedly. we squealed. it stopped in its tracks....flat as a pancake. we shut up. then the spider started moving again. cheeky spider!

kama, sarah and i got shoved out of the lift by this 'cheeky' lecturer because we didn't wear our lanyards. as in literally. shoved. seriously!! "no lanyards! SHOVE. get out! SHOVE. wear lanyards then can come in! SHOVE."

sarah and i found it so hilarious, though honestly we took a while to finally comprehend what just happened. kama was dumbfounded for a second before launching into bitch-mode:D but goodhumouredly. she reminds me of sriee whenever sriee's pissed off:D

this was what happened this morning at 10.10am..scenario: 0622 was all waiting for miss peggy(or penny, i can never get lecturers' names right) for our psychology tutorial. she arrived 10 minutes later, unlocked the room so we all flooded in. i don't know about my other mates, but i was anticipating the lesson. psycho(ha ha) tutorials are always fun and informative. not saying other modules ain't la. but yea.

random bits of quirky psychology information #1: Pain is an emotional experience. You can train your body to ignore pain. An obvious example is the training of the devotees during the Hindu festival of Thaipusam. Deep breathing exercises can also help to control pain.

"okay do you have any questions?" peggy/penny asked, propping herself up on the desk. she looked slightly weary and i imagined her 5 minutes ago..elbowing her way through a The Enchanted Forest of students and other lecturers who were also rushing for their next lessons. "do any of you have any questions for me?" she repeated, her voice distinct over the noise of the students flipping thoroughly through the psychology lecture notes.

"because if you don't, you may leave. it's perfectly fine," she added, amused, when no one budged.. "this week's tutorial is for you to post me questions. if you don't have any, just sign your attendance and you may go." blank, skeptical expressions from all of us. "didn't ivan tell you guys?" she probbed. ..apparently not:)

random bits of quirky psychology information #2: There are otherwise normal people who are born incapable of feeling pain. Do you think that is a good thing? These people who were born without pain receptors usually die in their 20s as they do not have pain to warn them of dangers to their bodies.

there was instant pandemonium; we started talking all at once. and we all guffawed when vasanthi good-naturedly exclaimed, "that's it. tell ivan loh he's no more the cute guy!"

let's also skip the part where lidan pissed me off. and the part where i fell asleep during bella's tutorial..i'm sorry. her voice puts me to sleep. and i was sitting at the back, leaning against the wall eh i thought i'm suppose to skip this part?

i know what dr.lam's full name is:) dr.lam kam on. ....:):) SO CUTE. dr.lam quite funny actually. such lame-o guy cracked a lame 'balls' joke. apparenly dr.lam overheard it and he instantly stopped his lecture. so when he asked the lame-o to repeat and the lame-o didn't, he said, "no balls to repeat is it?" some bold girl shouted how crude he was and dr. lam took a moment before finally venturing, "no scrotum to.." pause "oh okay never mind." turned away. ..was that a blush i seeeee!!!??? HAHA. lam, lam:)

i drew my hand drawing my hand(boredom can lead to anything) and huifen and peiru were so impressed, they asked if i had art lessons.. i wish:) but noooo.. i'd like to, though. i want to learn how to sketch real life portrait of famous people. yea, that would be nice.

Someone special blogged @ 10:53 PM l

time: 1.04pm

WE HAVE A VASANTHAM STAR IN THE HOUSE!! not me, apparently! am at the eplaza in campus and there's ths whole bunch of indian guys..singing to some bollywood tunes:) the ultimate entertainment for the bored and aimless. and that.. would be me.

time: 1.10pm
okay. they are getting annoying. they are spouting nonsense and vulgarities. i realise there's a malay guy tercampak(thrown, to translate directly in english) among the indians. and they are constantly picking on each other.

"can you shut the fuck up? thank you!"
"(starts scolding in tamil)"
"what the fuck are you talking?"
"(more tamil)"
"eh you think you indian i scared ar? (a whole bunch of malay vulgarities)."
"what the hell? i pull your cock then you know."

(laughter) -from me..discreetly of course.

"eh. i want to show you a picture of this chinese girl. she thinks she damn sexy."
"..eee. sial la(curses in malay)! like shit only! sore eyes!"

now that makes me bored..and disturbed. thank you for making my day, you bunch of sick faggots.
Someone special blogged @ 1:08 PM l

so he's the culprit!!! bad BB, bad!!
yup it's official. i don't understand sociology. i hope zaffy would cooperate with me during the test and position her paper in a way so i could see her answers. okay, only kidding:) -demure-

i want to go out!!:( it's a beautiful day outside! okay not really! and i have a sudden overwhelming craving for yummy(and very unhealthy) squidheads from old changkee. growl.

whee he said i've a very loud clear pleasant voice:) i know. surprise surprise. stroke my ego any more, i'll swell to a size of an air balloon. but it's high..the feeling of being praised.

oh i'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have. and canonball right through the water. oh i'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have. for you i will. powerful song. was in my head the whole entire day. maybe that explains alot:D

i'm sitting in my living room, with mac at my feet..my toes are digging into his furry coat. but he doesn't care and that's what 'friends' are for. as in they are for times when you need comfort la, that is.. in case you still don't get it and you think i'm saying that friends are for you to stick your stinky foot in. ..what? just trying to get my point clear:)

i remember a conversation i had with nana the day before.... i had posed a question: "okay. so let's say we have a boyfriend. and then what? do we call the other every night? catch a movie together every weekend?" what exactly does it mean to have a boyfriend? what exactly is the purpose of being in a relationship?

i'd be lying if i tell you i haven't been thinking about it. about having a boyfriend, that is. i think, wow..someone to call my own. someone to do crazy things with, like walk down orchard road on a wet day in raincoats. or visit chinatown and check out the flea marts there. or go down to the playground and play at the swings. but all these, i could do with my girlfriends, can't i? i don't know. i guess i can't see myself being in a relationship? i would be like: to my boyfriend, "oh wow. so we're attached. to each other. ......now what?"

it's so complex. how do they do it? why can't people just stay friends? i mean, there's less at stake. right? i hope you guys could give me your 2cents worth. i'd really like to be enlightened!! i'm like so totally mixed up right now. ..i should be stressing over the key concepts of the major theoretical perceptives! what am i doing?

this is what happens when you spend your sunday night in the privacy of ..the kitchen(yes i've shifted..everybody's complaining about the noise i was making with the keyboard!), and the companionship of your favourite house cat(sometimes i suspect mac worships the grounds i stand on..he's wherever i am! or maybe he's hungry..) listening to kenny of Daphne Loves Derby 's amazing vocals, anticipating the week:)

i can't wait for the term break to start! i am determined to venture to every single corner of singapore!! just me and my camera. ..and maybe you:)
Someone special blogged @ 9:47 PM l

..that's like damn sad la. ..FINE! pfft. like that's ever going to stop me! HAH. HAHAHAHA. stupit :P

today i did math with nana:) meant to study my sociology..ica's on wednesday! but apparently numbers and figures and graphs and algebras intrigue me more! yea! :) honestly? i think i had more fun figuring out the coordinates of the point in a complicated graph than trying to comprehend those socio terminology. i really don't understand sociology!!

okay, more like, i'm not sure what to anticipate. how it'll go about in a typical sociology test. i am clueless as to what to expect. well. thank god it's multiple choice la. heeh.

guess who walked into macs!!!! PAUL TWOHILL, ladies and gents! for non-singaporeans like noratiah larry, paul twohill is one of our top 12 contestants in singapore idol. ali is obsessed with him. i can't see why. i mean, i don't think he has a very strong voice. just because he dares to be different...............

different because he has long hair which he uses to cover half his face. so maybe he finds solace behind his pretty glossy hair, fine. you can't see his face at all. it's not fair. let us see your face!!!

so he walked in. i knew it was him from his hair. ha ha. nobody was like gaping and shrieking and going "singapore idol!!!!". they were just minding their own business and that mystefied me. imagine if it were taufik batisah(our first singapore idol). ..i think i'd piss right there:)

back to twohill. so i called up ali and told her the crazy news. she was skeptical at first ("are you so sure?") then next second she started hyperventilating ("ohmygod lela. ohmygod. paul. ohmygod. hfj skfhkaghj agjka!! sjf!!! saoehf!! !kjfl alfh!!").

she wanted me to, what??? go up to paul twohill and say what!??? noooooo.. i am shy:D ..i don't know why i was making such a big deal out of this; i don't even like this guy(nothing personal). the embarrassing thing was i think twohill heard every single bit of our conversation la. it was so fecking obvious we were talking about him.

"yesss it's hiiim. the hair and everything."
"ohmygoddd..lela go talk to hiiiimm!!"
"hell no!! ..i am shy."
"pleeease!!! is he with his friends or something?"
"no..he's alone."
"is he eating? what's he doing?"
(he's listening to our convo) "he's sitting down, waiting for his takeaway."
"aww that's cute. i think i shall takeaway from now. lela ask for his email address pleaase."
"no!! i don't even like him."
"for meeee, please!! how does he look like?"
"not so good! he's skinny and he has no butt."(i am so so sorry.)

so much for trying to put on a cool front..the i-kind-of-don't-care-who-you-are sort of attitude HAHA.

let's sidetrack a bit: elton kind of brought something the day before..he asked what's our dream. dream doesn't mean ambitions, because apparently we're all going to be nurses(unless we fail, which we won't!!!!! hopefully.) and nursing profession is merely a career..

what is it that we've always wanted to be?

i bet we never thought we'd be in nursing. but maybe interest in acquired? what about passion?

we watched this video about this nurse, who almost quitted the profession because she felt the job was too demanding and never rewarding. she felt nobody appreciated her; patients constantly gave her a difficult time and some doctors looked down on her.

she didn't realised that before she could earn other people's respect, she needed to respect herself first.

Someone special blogged @ 10:13 PM l

hell:)o. my friday? so drama. ..LIDAN lost her cool! she lost her cool. now everybody thought it was my fault or something!! it was so drama!!

have i got your attention yet?

if 17-year-old singer/songwriter teddy geiger could hit it so big, HANNAN TAIB CAN TOO!! and i don't think geiger is cute at all or anything. TOTALLY RANDOM HUHHH!!!? last night, hannan and i tried to outhumour each other. it was humourous. remembered i had class at 8 the next day(today) so we had to cut it short and i let him win:)

THOUGHT I WOULD BE LATE. i ran. and i.never.run. unless very very very unnecessary. so i ran. reached the class just on time. and turned out i only needed to come for the second tutorial.......imagine my agitation! burst in, sat down for like 6 seconds and then walked back out with the rest of the not-so-pleased tutorial 2 students.

the lecturer called out my name from the attendance list like she wasn't happy with me like that. "NURLELA!" with a shrill shriek. i was like, "YEA HERE!!" equally shrilly.

oh yea. LIDAN. blew her top! okay. there was a presentation during antoinette's tutorial. lidan and wenrui had done one each. so did i. we only had to present one, and i picked mine, because, well, it was my turn to present. and also because i had briefly read their nursing care plan and i was thrown by their atrocious english grammar.

"nursing goal: client will feel less anxiety." "incourage client to do more interesting things(to get her mind off her troubled emotions)"???

so i presented my answers. unfortunately, they weren't like ideal model answers and antoinette was in distress. she kept saying about "committing suicide" because our "incongruent"(i think that's the word she used) nursing care plans(all 4 groups) were making her "depressed". she funny la she!! she ended her 'pep talk' by advising i should write more neatly. i was like WHAT!? ..........well okay. fair enough.

AND THEN THE DRAMA UNFOLDS outside tutorial class..... lidan called for kamaria and i and was like, "we needa to talk." and started babbling on and on about something we weren't so sure what about. she was going on like a bullet train. she was on a roll la, baby! i only understood 3 words: "as you know". which she tends to have in every end of her sentence.

okay, see. i was a little disturbed by antoinette's comment on my handwriting. i've always been neat!!!!!!!! seriously!!!!!!! ........okay. haha! anyway yea. thus i wasn't really in the mood to entertain her. so i was like, "it's a friday. give me a break."

AND SHE BLEW HER FREAKING TOP! she went like, "NO! PLEASE! i amma very sicka and tired of tis!" ............ shaheera and wani, who were initially with us, started making a hasty exit. did i tell you kamaria and i were like totally flustered at her sudden aggressive outburst? so shocked and confused, all we could for the next 3 minutes were gawk at her as she went on and on and on and on.

i think she went something like this: "i hate doing things at the last minut! we always rush and rush! and sarah and nicole always absent! if you're not happy, we talk to the mentor and change groups!"

then i went snap. i mean, HEY I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO SAY THAT TO HER FACE! no fair! she beat me to it. ..wow, i'm impressed. then it started getting to me. like, what the feck is she mad at us for!? what's her problem, SERIOUSLY. is she embaraassed with the 'mistakes' our group made in the presentation??? COME ONNN. every single group has done something wrong. no big deal! SHEESHHH.

later that day, people who happened to witness the whole thing, were like thinking i had done something and it was my fault..... it was stressing for me to convince them otherwise. i kept telling them, "i had no idea why she was mad! honest! are you saying it's my fault???" and they went, "noo. but try and be patient with her la.." ohmygourd they really do think i'm to blame. unbelievable!!!!!! they don't know lidan at all!!!

it was like pick-on-lela day today. first it was antoinette. and lidan. and the rest of the kids in class. THEN it was miss ong. damn her. she's so fecking rude la. insensitive to other people's goddamn feelings. but i forgive her. i mean, she's old. yea.

i tried not to let it get to me. and optimism does wonders. because the rest of the day went great:) .........................saw a freaking hot guy a the food junction. RARE SIGHTING, YOU KNOW. he looks like nicholas saputra. intense eyes which bore into you and melt your heart. but he has the cute habit of twitching his nose. WAHH. so i took his picture:) ..i know. but what the heck. LIFE IS TOO SHORT and HOT GUYS ARE CLOSE TO AN EXTINCTION.

but nothing beats what i'm going to tell you next. I just left the lecture hall at 5, and bumped into michelle. MICHELLE! READ THIS: she opened her arms and enveloped me in a little hug. AWWWW!!!!!~

..not really. it was an awkward hug because i honestly wasn't anticipating it at all. yea, from far, she had her arms all ready. but i was skeptical, like, ....don't tell me....? then.. hug!!! she patted my back, and was like, "hello! long time no see!" ...............not true. i see you everytime at macs..only i'm too shy to say hi. heehee! yup. heehee, was all that came out of my mouth. I HATE IT WHEN I GO ALL SILLY AND SHY.

michelle asked if i was going to the Jam&Hop later at 7. Jam&Hop is like..'clubbing nyp style, minus alcohol'. i told her, no because it's kind of late. i sounded like a pathetic idiot..... like, i can't stay out late i've got a curfew my mommie will spank me!! that sort of thing which is not very good for the self esteem. HA HA. but yea.

she talked for a bit more..but i wasn't paying attention. i was still caught up in 30 seconds ago..MICHELLE HUGGED MEEE. oh my gourd.. ERNEST! michelle hugged me!!! HA HA. she's better looking face to face.. she has what you call, the ghetto look. kind of suits the whole hiphop thing she's into. unlike the rest of those foreign bodies dancers..SHEESH. WANNE-BES. HA HA. joke:) ..kind of.

"oh wait you're performing later right!?" i exclaimed. DAMN!!! i'd do anything to see her do her thang, mannnn!!!! what am i doooing here!?!?!?!!!!!!!

so that's my friday:) crazy in the beginning, even crazier at the end.
Someone special blogged @ 6:41 PM l

i used to complain about ending classes at 6 with a 3 hour break on thursdays. today is one rare exception hence we got to leave 4 hours earlier and you would think i would be over the moon with relief and crying tears of gratitude(thank you, dr.lam!!).

BUT NO. because i'd rather be in school right now! at the eplaza or the library or the food junction with my friends, looking out for michelle or something uh, more productive. BUT YEA. here i am at home!

actually by right, right..i should be in cine watching xmen with ruoyan but, well, she's got other obligations to fulfill..... so yea. but it's cool BECAUSE THERE'S ALWAYS TOMORROW. most likely i'll be skipping the last lecture HAHA. oh it was raining anyway.

i.love.the.goddamn.rain. so i was in the bus on a long journey home(took a complicated route home), looking out the window, enjoying the cold surrounding me(kind of) and whatnot. everything looks different on rainy days. how you think, your state of mind, your perspective of something changes because of a slight difference, a mere alteration. you're in same old brand new place.

that's the..weirdest oxymoron i've ever come up with.

i was wondering how orchard road will be like in a heavy rain. will people still flock the town like ants to sugars, it is the great singapore sale and everything. well, we are kiasu singaporeans. then came the random thought: wouldn't it be fun if i'm out there in town on a crazy wet day..in raincoats? no, seriously. i wonder who's wild enough to do that with me. and i think i know.

when it wasn't raining that heavy, i alighted from the bus and walked the way home. ...indulging on a stick of paddle pop ice cream. simple pleasures of life:D OH here's another pleasure: sleeping at the library. i meant to do my nursing intervention presentation but couldn't find the goddamn relevant book. so kamaria and i ended up snoozing.

oh yea i wrote something. as in, a short story. looks very promising:D shall work on it asap.

2 hours of lecture + annoying group of malay guys in the row behind us = misery and torture. i was about to sleep(i'm sorry! it was just so boring and i was just so lethargic!), and kamaria told us about this guy directly behind singing 'temperature' by sean paul. thank god i wass sleeping because NOTHING else annoys me more than music by sean paul. i mean just what rubbish is he singing??

i can see it: kamaria turning round with the involuntary 'what the feck' expression on her face. a the guy's mouth just went shut and his face drained colour. it was like as if he was going: ohmygourd she heard me sing. and kamaria would be like, yea i heard you sing..as-a-matter-of-factly. and it was kind of loud and i kind of didn't like it. his friends started guffawing and my girls were like ..yeaaaaa.....

whee i love imaginations.

i love the rain but when it stops, i've something else to find comfort in..CLOUDS, damn it! clouds are so so beautiful. taking a photo of them is seldom satisfying; i want to touch them and bring them home and sleep with them and yea. they are just so fluffy and so pretty and so..white. so pure

so..fluffy.
Someone special blogged @ 4:14 PM l

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